Category: If My Extremely Good-Looking Best Friend Becomes My Lover, My Heart Will Burst If He’s More Passionate Than I Expected

At present, Kai often ate at our house, and on those occasions, the food tasted better than usual and my family seemed to be happy.

The more I remember, the more I love Kai, and I couldn’t understand why I had thought of him as a friend until now.

I went shopping at a convenience store on my way to drop off Kai, and when I returned home, I was locked out.

“Huh? Why are you so early?”

“What do you mean?” I asked my sister, who opened the door for me. When I asked her what she meant, she suddenly said something like, “I’ll introduce you to a part-time job.”

When I was still puzzled, she sighed and said, “Our walls are pretty thin, so you’ll have to do it outside.”

Ah, I see. I understood what she meant.

If it’s just a kiss, it’s normal in the presence of family members.

The embarrassed Kai makes coquettish noises like “No” and “It’s embarrassing”, so I guess she was envious, thinking that we were having sex.

I don’t care about that, but it’s honestly not fun for anyone other than me to hear Kai’s cute voice. It seems better to consider using a hotel.

I didn’t feel the need to correct her, so I just nodded my head.

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Rather than using me as a stepping stone to get close to me, more and more women are using me as a pretext to get close to Kai.

I had originally thought that Kai wasn’t interested in romance and was oblivious to the temptations of women, but it seems that this was not the case and that his love interest was just not a woman.

I was happy to be in the position of a lover and to know something about Kai that I didn’t know before.

Having a lover, I’ve never been so happy every day and couldn’t wait for tomorrow. I was always depressed and helpless. I was nervous that they would dump me at any moment, and even though I tried my best, I was denied.

Even so, the reason I was able to date troublesome women was that Kai was by my side and would accept me even if I was dumped.

“I’ve always liked Kai.”

I secretly checked out how men do it with each other, and then thought about shoving it into Kai easily.

If it was my best friend, Kai, he would accept it dependably and more actively say, “It can’t be helped, let’s do it,” but my lover, Kai, might be shy and run away into the futon.

Even though I’m not good at horror movies, he invited me to join him. I couldn’t help but grin at the thought of Kai secretly peeking through the blanket.

Yes. I grinned.

How much do I like Kai? No, I’m not at the level of liking him anymore. This is the one I love.

He knows how to run to the futon and I know how to take him out of it. Kai has a weakness for fun. If I tell him that love is fun and that sex with me is unbearable, he will get out from under the covers.

Just thinking about it makes the lower half of my body impatient.

I waited for the day, hoping that six months would pass quickly.

I thought about going to a love hotel, but I felt like that would be too obvious and would make me look drawn to it, so I called Kai to aim at the day when no one was at home.

I made Kai, who was relaxing as usual, turn his attention toward sex. We got into a reasonably good mood, and I was convinced that we could get laid, but then he stopped me.

It was then that I suddenly realized.

I had thought I was going to be the one to hold him as a matter of course, but maybe I was the one to be held?

Looking at Kai, who turned bright red, shivered, and desperately stretched out his hand to keep some distance, it doesn’t seem to be a problem for me to take the lead.

“I’m sorry, this kind of thing is… a bit more…”

I kissed Kai’s mouth, who mumbled a small “wait,” and forcibly vented my ho-ny mood with a kiss.

………

To put it bluntly, I was frustrated.

But saying that makes me no better than a s/ut. I love Kai and I’m not like them.

I was surprised on the day they thought I had other plans for Kai’s birthday, but this blank expression may have made Kai uneasy.

I can’t move my face even if I’m conscious of it, but I can move my body, so I try to stick close to Kai as much as possible when we’re alone.

Even now, he’s in my room with me resting my head on his lap as we binge-watch a popular anime series.

Kai’s hand patting my head and saying, “Good, good,” felt so good.

As I was nodding off, a bulging mountain appeared in front of me.

I gently reached out and touched it.

“Eek!”

When I pressed it with my finger, it became harder, but Kai grabbed my wrist.

“You’ve got an erection.”

“That kind of thing! Don’t say it!!”

He tried to run away, so I held him around the waist as if I was tackling him.

There were no erotic scenes in the anime. I stared at Kai wondering what he was reacting to, his ears turned red and he averted his gaze.

Oh, it was me.

Kai probably likes my face a lot. When I put my face close to his, his eyes became enraptured quite often.

“… There’s no one here today.”

“Ah!”

“I want to do more than the last time.”

“Uh…”

“Kai, do you want to put this in me? Do you want to put mine in?”

It’s been a year since he said I’d wait a little longer. It’s been two months since I made Kai say “I like you” and we’ve been pulling each other’s d1ck out. Since then, we have been touching each other to a certain extent.

I’ve never been in a relationship that lasted more than a month, so I don’t know how long it usually takes to have sex, but I guess it’s time to move on to the end, right?

Looking up while poking Kai’s c0ck, he turned over to escape with a red face and mouth that opens and closes like a carp in a pond, but he can’t escape from my gaze.

“… I want to put it in.”

I thought my heartbeat was louder than Kai’s mosquito-like voice as he answered.

I was so happy, so happy, so happy!

“Mn. I want to put it inside Kai.”

“Waah!”

I pushed Kai down and said ‘Then, itadakimasu’ Then my hand suddenly stopped.

I wondered if Kai’s hole would really be able to accept me. It was different from that of a woman. Kai’s hole isn’t made to be penetrated by a c0ck.

“Kai, is it okay… if I put it in that place?”

I want to shove it in Kai’s hole, ram him, and make him moan, but I won’t be happy if Kai doesn’t feel good.

Kai’s face turned even redder at my comment while looking down.

“W-w-what are you saying…”

“I think it’s important, I don’t want Kai to get hurt.”

“Uh… well, it probably doesn’t matter. Because I saw you spread it the other day, I’ve got one just as big.”

“Ha?”

I couldn’t help but let out the lowest voice I’ve ever made.

“What’s the same thing?”

Even without asking, I know it’s an adult toy. Without a doubt.

However, even if I think it’s expanded for me, it still pisses me off.

“Eh, ah, that, di-do…”

It is. Then followed by Kai’s small words.

“Why?”

“Because that’s the only way.”

“No, it’s not. I’ve got it right here. Shouldn’t you use mine which is now a Kai-exclusive one?”

“Ha? Haa? I’m preparing for Rioto, but using Rioto is putting the cart before the horse¹Mistaking the means for the end/getting one’s priorities backwards., right?”

“I’m annoyed that someone other than me is making Kai feel good. From now on, don’t fvck anyone but me.”

I kissed Kai when he said something and skillfully stripped him of his clothes.

Kai is smaller than me, but he’s stronger than me if he really resists.

When we were both completely naked, Kai gazed at me entranced and quieted down.

“Don’t Rioto love me too much?”

He giggled with a red face as if he is trying to hide his embarrassment. Kai tries to hide his important part by squirming with his legs.

I put my hands on Kai’s thighs, spread them apart, and squeezed my body in.

“I like you. I like you, Kai, I love you. I love you. I love you. Does Kai hates me?”

“Ugh… of course I like you.”

I repeatedly conveyed my overflowing love to Kai as if I was sending him a reminder so that even my emotionless face would be able to convey it. Kai’s eyes watered and he smiled softly.

“B-but Rioto, a man can’t do it unless he’s prepared.”

“Mn. I know because I looked it up. There are tools.”

“Eeeh?”

If Kai wants me to hold him, I am prepared to make an effort to hold him.

“Do you want to use it?”

I kissed Kai’s tomato-red cheeks and covered his face with my hands.

“… ~~~I’ve been preparing, shi. It’s not like I had any particular guilty feelings… mnn, hnn!”

As the old saying goes, ‘It’s a man’s shame if he doesn’t eat when he’s hungry, but if someone treats you when you’re hungry, you’re bound to enjoy it.’

“… Itadakimasu.”

I licked my lips which had become wet from the lustful kisses we exchanged as if we were devouring them. I mobilized all the knowledge I had gathered from the internet about sex between men.

Although I said I was prepared, I used quite a bit of lube to loosen Kai’s asshole.

Two fingers went it, so I fiddled with it before looking for the rumored prostate gland.

“Ah, ah… there’s something, something strange.”

“It’s not strange, it feels… good.”

“Hnn… it feels so good. Hiiih! Ah, not there. I said not there!!”

With a pikun,²SFX for a hard surprise/shocked expression. Kai’s body trembled violently and I realized that this was a good place for Kai.

“Mn. It’s here, huh. It feels good, huh.”

“Baah, Rio, to, wa, hiiih, ah, ah, aahh!”

Kai’s d1ck came into my hand and filled the condom. The way he breathes is cute, but the face that feels good makes it many times cuter.

“I want to come, too. Just the tip is fine, can I put it in?”

When I increased my fingers to three, Kai opened his eyes wide in surprise and stared at my c0ck.

I’m not sure if he’s afraid of me, but I’m already growing so tight it hurts.

I was a little worried about whether it would fit in his little ass. So, I said… a little.

“Ugh… you can’t go all the way…”

“Mn.”

The gentle Kai glared at me as if he was resolved.

Ah, how cute.

I quickly put on a condom and filled Kai’s asshole with my c0ck. It sucked to mine obscenely.

I wasn’t this nervous when I lost my virginity.

However, Kai looked much more anxious than me. He stiffened his body as he stares at the obscene hole.

“Ah…”

“Whew.”

Pushing the tip with the help of lotion, it will be pushed back as if to say no.

“Kai… Can you put your hands around my neck? Yes, it’s okay. I’ll be gentle, relax.”

“Ugh… Sorry, Rioto, sorry…”

Kawaii, kawaii, kawaii.

Kai is really cute.

First time having sex, I definitely need to make it a good memory.

I gave him a peck, killing my desire to shove it in all at once. I was grateful that my face didn’t change much at this point.

I probably would have been in a lot of agony if it had shown on my face. Kai would blame himself if he saw such a face. I didn’t want that.

I moved my hips forward slowly and gently.

It felt so good that my head and body felt like they were going to melt.

I realized that doing it with the person you love is so special that I didn’t know what sex was like before.

At this point, I had forgotten the words “Just the tip,” and Kai pointed this out to me afterward.

When I honestly told Kai that I tried my best to hold back but couldn’t do it, he affirmed me by saying, “If you tried your best, it can’t be helped.”

Kai was so cute that I tried my best to be mature during our first sex, but I decided that after getting used to it, I was determined to eagerly fvck him deep.

I feel very fresh and happy in a relationship where I can naturally envision us having sex again, or even being together.

Maybe I should work hard at a part-time job and stay at an expensive hotel instead of a love hotel. Then, I would like Kai to get as wild as he wants.

By that time, Kai’s belly must remember my shape.

I was supposed to get Kai hooked on sex with me, but it turned out that I was the one who was hooked on Kai.

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Jie Jie: Hi~ This was my project last year and just transferred it here! :blobsmilehappy:

Jie Jie: It’s Rioto’s POV this time!

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If I say so myself, I’m usually attractive, but I like my face.

I can only thank my mother for giving me a good-looking face.

However, there were times when I felt that my face made my life a little troublesome.

To begin with, I’m not good at expressing my emotions.

I can’t laugh, cry, or get angry.

No, to be more precise, I think I can feel emotions. I can’t compare myself with others, so I don’t know.

But my emotions definitely don’t show on my face or in my attitude.

Even if you ask me, I don’t know.

I’d rather people with expressive faces explain to me why they are that way.

I was often turned away because I had a handsome face but no facial expression.

Amemiya Kai was the one who casually approached me.

Kai is a cute child with silky black hair, round eyes, a modest nose and mouth, and plump cheeks, just like pure Japanese.

Unlike me, he was a model of what a child should be like. He was like an energetic little animal, with a face that showed human emotions.

When I finally learned to dribble at the soccer club, everyone around me said, “You finally got motivated,” as if it was a matter of course that I could do it. But Kai was the only one who said, “Wow, it’s the result of your great practice! You did it, Rioto!” He was as happy as if he was me.

Although I didn’t show any expressions, Kai was happy, sad, and angry in my stead.

Looking back now, I think that Kai saved me a lot.

Not happy, not sad, and not angry.

I almost convinced myself that I was a “human being who doesn’t feel anything” because of the words of those who judged me only by my appearance.

But Kai didn’t judge my feelings and he laughed with me… Well, I couldn’t laugh, but he laughed. He also recognized my efforts.

It might be a normal relationship for ordinary people, but because of my good-looking face, it’s difficult for me to have a normal relationship similar to Kai.

“After all that work just to get such a score. Well, that’s about what we’re capable of.”

“Don’t you think you can do better?”

When I got my test back, my homeroom teacher told me to “Take it seriously” and I didn’t know what to do.

I thought I had no choice but to ask my parents to increase my cram schools, but Kai was so indifferent about it.

“Eh? We did our best, didn’t we? If we hadn’t worked hard, we would have gotten a red mark for sure, but we avoided that.”

“That’s right.”

“I’m satisfied and have no regrets! Rioto also worked very hard. Even if the result is not good, you shouldn’t deny the effort you have put in… or something. Forget it, next time I’ll do my best to raise my score a little more. Although, I don’t know if I can do it.”

“Mn.”

Kai was always positive and cheerful. Even though he had a shy smile on his face, I thought he was kind of dependable and cool.

Because of this, excessive expectations for grades and sports around me like that were troublesome, but girls’ expectations for romance also became more and more troublesome.

They would confess their feelings for me and go out with me, but for some reason, I would always get rejected. I was often told that I was at fault.

I would go out with someone whose name I honestly didn’t even know, and by the time I could finally find them in a crowd, they would break up with me.

It really didn’t make sense to me that they would deny my personality at that level of relationship.

The hardest time for me was when my first partner dumped me after three weeks, saying “Something’s different.”

It wasn’t that I had dreams about my first time, and I learned a lot from them because they were older and more experienced, but I couldn’t tell if the “something’s different” was because of our physical chemistry or this immovable expression on my face and I was depressed.

At that time, Kai was angry with me and said, “F*ck and chuck!!” He also gave me some consolation that I didn’t understand, saying, “Well, I heard that sexual discrepancies can be a cause of divorce, so don’t worry about it.”

He was angry that they only screwed me but he never said anything derogatory about my ex-girlfriends.

I think Kai’s kindness helped me cleanse my heart, which was beginning to get rough.

Otherwise, I would have distrusted people long ago.

For me, Kai Amemiya was a precious and irreplaceable existence that I couldn’t even compare with my past girlfriends.

I had taken the word “best friend” to describe my relationship with Kai as a matter of course.

It was at our high school graduation ceremony that this was shattered.

“Please give me a button from your uniform as a remembrance!”

I didn’t know what kind of remembrance it was, but I thought I could give it to them since we were juniors in the committee together and I didn’t need the uniform anymore.

As I unbuttoned my jacket, I was called to the bicycle parking lot, and before I knew it, I was surrounded by more than a dozen girls.

To put it bluntly, I was terrified.

“Me too!”

“Me too, please!”

“Hey, wait a minute, you’re a first-year, aren’t you? What are you talking about?”

“You’re the one who’s coming after me and acting all high and mighty, ugly.”

“Oh, no, scary. Rioto-senpai will be scared.”

“Oh my god, he’s so handsome up close.”

I couldn’t understand what they were saying and yelling, but I felt I was in danger.

Hands were reaching out to me from all directions, and I threw everything I was wearing into the distance.

Then I ran away like a rabbit.

I was so glad that I left my bag and other belongings to Kai. If I had kept them, they would have been taken away from me.

I was quite frightened, but no one probably noticed.

No, only one person noticed.

“Hey, did you get… assaulted?”

I went to the meeting place, and when Kai saw me, he came up to me with a pale face.

Kai’s complexion seemed to be much more frightening than mine.

Seeing Kai’s pale face, I felt relieved.

He understood my fear and was kind to me.

He was looking right at me.

Not only in appearance but he could recognize all the emotions I can’t see.

I was grateful for Kai’s existence.

As a high school student, Kai no longer had plump cheeks, but a small face with a smooth outline and a well-balanced overall look. He was healthy, his skin was smooth, and he smelled good.

“Look, I’ll lend you the one I brought as a spare in case you get cold.”

I was deeply moved by the preciousness of Kai, and he lent me his parka.

I couldn’t help but sniff it. I simply wanted to take in more of Kai, but he thought I took action because I suspected he hadn’t washed it.

If it were true, I would have liked to put my face into his neck and sniff him, but that would have been a bad idea, so I refrained from doing so. I think I was so scared and confused that I wanted to act suspicious.

But once I put on the parka I borrowed, I was enveloped by the smell of Kai and became much calmer.

Kai’s appearance has grown up properly, but he still acts like a little animal, stomping his feet in a stupor, expressing his resentment on my behalf.

Kai told me to refuse such a terrible thing, but I replied that I couldn’t.

I was happy to hear that he liked… my appearance, and I was afraid that he’d be weirdly stubborn if I refused.

As I was thinking about this, suddenly a bombshell was dropped on me.

“So, even if I said I want to go out with Rioto, you wouldn’t refuse!”

After saying this, Kai turned pale, then red, and turned his head down.

Go out with Kai?

In other words, does that mean I get the right to sniff, hug, kiss, plunge, and do everything else I want to do with Kai, get priority, and have the right to monopolize everything?

There was no disgust when I imagined it.

Unlike those women who cut me off from my thoughts when I’m thinking.

A kind Kai, waiting for me to gather my thoughts like this, is mine…

“Eh?!!!”

The suggestion was so luscious that it made me raise my voice, sh*t. Kai’s shoulders shook.

Ah, kawaii,¹Cute kawaii, kawaii.

Realizing this, Kai is definitely cuter than any well-dressed woman.

I’ve never been this excited after being confessed to.

I want to faint with joy. I almost wanted to do the backstroke, flapping on the ground.

It was thanks to my immovable facial muscles and ability to take action that I was able to avoid such eccentricities and show my disheveled face.

As I was dancing around the dance scene of my favorite Indian movie in my head, Kai let out a voice that sounded as if it were squeezed out.

“You see, now you know what I mean. Sometimes you have to say no!”

Then I was snapped back to reality.

Could it be that Kai had made a false confession to teach me a lesson?

Kai showed his satisfaction with his signature polite smile.

No, it’s different.

Kai wouldn’t lie just to make me understand.

Especially when it comes to confession, he told me to be sincere and honest, even more so than my mother and sister.

I’m sure that Kai wants to go out with me. I hope so. Even if it was just a spur-of-the-moment confession, he must have some feelings for me.

If that’s the case, it would be nice if you could like me more.

“… I understand.”

I have made an effort to like you, but I have never made an effort to make you like me.

Even so, I was sure that Kai would appreciate my efforts, even if I didn’t do well.

I reflexively hugged him.

“I’ll go out with you.”

“No, huh?”

He probably thought he would be rejected. Kai, who was surprised and stiff was so cute.

“I don’t want to refuse because I hate it. You don’t want to, Kai?

“Oh, no, eh, huh, eh??”

If he didn’t say no, I was sure the answer would be yes.

I was about to kiss him when it was time for the promised karaoke.

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“Kai-kun, you’re just in time! We’re trying on a new outfit!”

I have an older sister, five years older than me. She is a stylist for a fashion magazine, after graduating from a vocational school.

“Oh, really? Lucky! I was just thinking about what to wear for fall.”

Since middle school, we have been hanging out at each other’s houses regularly, and we have become like family.

Today, Kai came to my house again and happened to be caught by my sister who was on vacation.

My sister, who is a bit of a bro-con, was vigorously trying to find clothes that would suit me, and Kai, who is very sociable, got along well with her.

However, when my sister went out into the world and got a job as a stylist, she said things like, “Rio looks good in everything he wears, so it’s difficult.” Then she started making Kai into a dress-up doll.

Kai being Kai said things like, “I want to dress up too, so I won’t be embarrassed standing next to Rioto.” And took an active part being the dress-up doll.

Now that I think about it, this means that Kai was making an effort to be worthy of me.

“Did you have a successful college debut?”

“It went great, thanks to Akari-san!”

“Wait a minute, Rio… what are you burdening Kai-kun with?”

I didn’t want to interrupt Kai’s happy conversation with my sister, but I just stuck with him because I was lonely.

“Eh? W-what..??”

A trembling Kai is also cute.

“But I came here to play.”

“Eh, liar! Rio’s jealousy is easy to understand! Mom! Rio’s jealous. Come and see!”

“Oh, dear, it’s true! I have to make red rice.²赤飯 which means red rice. This is a traditional Japanese food usually eaten on important days.

“Kai, go to the room.”

“Pfft… hahaha! Shall I buy a cake?”

“Yeah, it’s a celebration.”

My sister and mother joined in, and even Kai got caught up in the moment. We really did have red rice for dinner that night.

I had my favorite karaage, and Kai’s tonkatsu and dumplings.

“Hey~ Ameme~ can you take over my part-time job on Sunday? I promised to stay the night with my girlfriend, but I forgot to let her in.”

I was absentmindedly eating today’s set A meal, ramen, and tonkatsu curry when my part-time colleague Hayate came crying to me.

By the way, I work part-time at a local convenience store.

“Sunday…”

It’s my birthday.

Every year, I was treated to karaoke and celebrated with my friends. We went home to eat cake, and last year was no different. Of course, Rioto was there, but he seemed to be in a strange mood, so I asked him why and he said, “Aren’t birthdays supposed to be celebrated by two people?”

Come to think of it, Rioto’s birthday is a date with his successive girlfriends. We, his friends, only bought him juice from the vending machine at the school cafeteria (although I sometimes brought a present to his house).

“I see, you spend your birthday with your lover!”

“Kai isn’t really interested in romance, is he?”

Rioto says it cooly without changing his expression, but I knew that he was quite shocked after knowing him for a long time.

Because of this, on Rioto’s birthday, we went to a family restaurant and ate a cake together.

Even though it’s not the first time because there’s usually something like eating cake between two people (we often go to family restaurants), there was a special feeling. I went to a drink bar¹Self-service drink area in a restaurant. thoughtlessly, and I was stunned by his lack of expression again.

I’m sorry for being a beginner in love.

That’s why this year, my birthday is on a Sunday, and I thought it would be nice to go somewhere I rarely go for fun.

Rioto’s²This was the first part in Chapter 1.1 before the ellipsis, in case it’s confusing to some. reply from yesterday came back to me.

He said, “I made plans.” It means he can’t hang out with me.

I guess that means he’s finally going to put an end to playing the lover with me.

Then I guess it’s not a bad idea to sell a favor to a friend here.

“What time?”

“From six to nine in the morning.”

“Ah…”

I don’t think he’ll say goodbye to me on my birthday. I’m sure Rioto will see me for a little while.

Even if it did, there should be no problem at that time.

“If it’s that time…”

“Not good.”

What followed my words that were supposed to say “Okay” were words of refusal.

“Ah, Ise-cchi, hello~”

Rioto only nodded in reply to Hayate’s greeting.

I don’t know how long he had been there but it was Rioto, who stood behind me, who confirmed my reply.

“What, you have plans for Ameme, too? I’ll find someone else!”

See you~ and just like his name, he was gone like the wind.³Hayate’s name was written 疾風 which means swift wind/strong wind.

As I tilted my head, Rioto sat down next to me with his Set C meal of katsudon and udon with two croquettes and a heaping pile of fried chicken.

“Sunday is not good, right?”

“No, eh, but…”

“Ah, I didn’t tell Kai where we’re going… for now, just eat the noodles, the ramen will become soggy, right?”

Without changing his expression, Rioto slurped his udon with a beautiful face. Both Rioto and I eat fairly well. He loves fried food and is also a mayonnaise lover, but he was often told that it doesn’t suit him, so he restrains himself when he goes out with his girlfriend.

So it’s nice to see him eating what he likes next to me. No, that’s not what I meant.

When I finished my ramen as I was told, I started to put my mouth on the curry. Rioto, who had finished everything at a frightening speed, fiddled with his phone and showed me the website of a theme park where a mouse is famous.

“The park opens at 9 a.m., so I took the 7 a.m. bus. Ah, there’s a direct bus from the station, it’s easier without changing buses.”

“… Oh.”

“I think I told you I wanted to spend your birthday with you.”

“… Ah.”

My mind went blank when I uttered a shout that I didn’t know if it was a reply or not.

Rioto went out of his way to schedule my birthday.

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In other words, he doesn’t want to spend my birthday with me.

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Conclusion: Farewell.

I thought it was going to be like this, so I c0cked my head again.

“Rioto, you said you made plans for Sunday…”

“Mn, that’s why I have plans.”

I’m sure it was my fault for not asking what the plan was.

However, I thought I was going to be dumped and Rioto was just responding to his love experience of “being a lover.”

My face almost relaxed when he inadvertently said “We’ll spend time together”⁴It indicates the action of spending time together is happening currently or regularly. instead of  “I want to spend time with you”⁵It implies a desire or wish to spend time together rather than stating that the action is currently happening., but I shouldn’t misunderstand.

I swallowed what I wanted to say.

I was afraid that people around me were eavesdropping on my conversation with Rioto. I knew that this wasn’t the time to talk about it in the cafeteria.

“I want you to come to my place today.”

“Mn. I’ve got until the fifth period, is that okay?”

“Call me when you’re done.”

“Okay.”

He just nodded his head, but Rioto’s appearance was like a scene from a TV drama, it was so unnecessarily cool.

……

The relationship between me and Rioto started off as a mess, but it’s time to make it clear.

I prepared my usual pick-up Rioto set (orange juice and rice crackers). My mother went to a drinking party at her part-time job and left the money for me to take out something for dinner.

It’s like aiming for something while my family isn’t around, but… No, there’s no ulterior motive, rather, it should be a goodbye talk in some cases.

‘It’s a theme park ticket you prepared for me, but I can go there as a friend.’ It might make Rioto feel more relaxed if I suggested that.

At times like this, I wish I didn’t know what Rioto was thinking like everyone else.

I was tidying up my room when Rioto came in. “Auntie isn’t here?”

“She went to a drinking party. No one’s here, so don’t hold back.”

“Mn.”

We’re already related to each other’s families, so Rioto wouldn’t feel embarrassed by the presence of my parents, but I told him just in case.

Rioto sat on his favorite cushion in my room as usual and started to eat the rice crackers I prepared for him.

I also sat next to Rioto in my usual place.

“Rioto, you know, I’m glad you feel that way, but”

“Didn’t you like theme parks? I like theme parks because it’s easy to have fun and you don’t get approached by strange people.”

It’s true that walking around town with Rioto is annoying, there are many pick-ups⁶Those who are hitting up on people. and scouts. Even if it’s Rioto, as expected, his aura seems to be hazy in front of the superstar mouse.

“I see… It’s not that! I’m not talking about where we’re going to play, I’m talking about our relationship…”

“Hmm?”

Rioto, not realizing what I was about to say, munched and swallowed the rice cracker and stared straight at me.

He has a murderously good face.

I almost died at this moe, but then I coughed.

“I said some weird things and now this is happening. Rioto is acting like a lover, but as expected, I still don’t think it’s good.”

“What do you mean?”

“I don’t think it’s right to be dating someone you don’t even like.”

I heard something crack and when I looked at Rioto, I saw the rice cracker he was holding smashed.

Rioto himself has his usual expressionless face. “You’re now telling me that?”

“Ah, I mean, even if we’re no longer lovers, we’re still friends, right?”

“I wouldn’t kiss Hayate. Would you, Kai?”

“No way!”

“Then it’s different, isn’t it? A friend and a lover are completely different, aren’t they?”

Without distorting his beautiful face, Rioto brought his face closer.

Before I knew it, I was surrounded by both hands with the bed behind me.

“It’s different, right? But we’re still the same…”

Rioto’s mouth blocked mine when I inadvertently spoke in honorifics.

If I was distracted by the sweet taste of the rice cracker, he would suck my lips.

“Kai may be tired of me, but I like him, so I won’t break up with him.”

Who likes whom?

“We’ll never break up.”

Then his face came closer again and he kissed me.

It’s a very erotic one, with tongue swirling inside my mouth. It was a sensuous kiss that I had only seen in erotic manga before I started going out with Rioto.

The kiss alone was enough to make me dizzy, but Rioto’s shocking statement made me weak on my knees. It was a good thing I was sitting down. If I had been standing, I would’ve fallen down.

Before I knew it, my ears were blocked from the French kiss and I could only hear obscene sounds and my lower body getting hot.

“Kai…”

For some reason, I’m pushed down on the floor even though there’s a bed.

“Wait, Rioto, time out!”

“No, I won’t wait… It’s Kai who taught me to refuse things I don’t like.”

“No, don’t refuse now!”

“We’ve been going out for more than half a year. I’m sure we can do naughty things.”

Rioto is certainly taller than me, but if I can resist, I can win.

Although I said stop and wait, but my resistance is next to none.

Such a thing would’ve been perfectly exposed to Rioto, who I’ve been dating for a long time.

“I like you, I love you, I love you, Kai. I thought you were just a friend until you confessed to me, but Kai has always been special to me.”

Unlike me, who probably has a very pathetic face, Rioto is as expressionless as ever.

But he was talking fast and his eyes were moist, I could tell he was excited.

“For the first time, someone I like asked me to go out with them. And yet… They’re cruel.”

His long, downcast eyelashes sparkled every time he blinks. I’ve learned that handsome men are strange creatures that don’t look ugly when they cry… or so I thought.

“Didn’t you like me?”

“If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t go out with you. Isn’t that the case with Kai? It might be different now.”

“Well, you’ve been going out with girls you don’t know, right?”

“… Don’t mix Kai with others whose names I don’t even know.”

“No, eh, eh, wait? So Rioto has been going out with me because he liked me this whole time? Not just as an excuse to reject me or because he doesn’t want to refuse me outright, but genuinely?”

“It’s different.”

“Ah!!”

What? I didn’t hear that.

I involuntarily looked up at Rioto, who was on top of me, as I make a strange face, squirming in his mouth.

I’m so happy and ashamed that I can’t make a good face.

I envy Rioto with his iron mask at a time like this!

“Do you hate me now, Kai? Do you want to be friends again? Do you want to stop being my lover?”

Ah, that’s a lie. Rioto is not an iron mask.

Even though his expression didn’t change, tears were streaming down his face. I reached out and wiped Rioto’s tears.

“I don’t hate you. I also like being lovers…”

“That’s good.”

After saying that, Rioto took my hand and gave me something like a licking kiss on the palm of my hand.

Then, he did something naughty.

Rioto was quite enthusiastic and took out the condom he always had on hand (although he used it to keep it clean) but we only rubbed against each other.

No, I still almost died of shame and the fear that I might be told unsatisfying, but it felt so good to kiss and treat both at once.

I was surprised that I was able to get off, even though I hadn’t been able to get off without playing with my a** recently.

Rioto was also getting off. I guess he was telling the truth when he said he liked me (in a romantic sense).

I didn’t doubt him, but I was relieved to have him prove it.

Even the shape of his d*ck was good-looking and he’s bigger than me. I felt angry even though I was admiring him. Rioto grabbed me by the chin and turned me to face him.

In front of me was the beautiful face of Rioto, who was looking a little lazy and madly sexy.

“I didn’t hear you properly.”

“Hmm?”

What are you talking about?

“Kai’s feelings.”

“Huh?”

He stared at me. When I reflexively looked away, he kissed me. He was so persistent that it was hard to catch my breath.

“Hurts… nn, no.. can’t… st… op…”

“No, I won’t stop until you tell me.”

“Uh, muu… hnn…!!”

My tongue is entangled and I can’t speak properly!

I pat Rioto’s shoulder in protest, but his kiss doesn’t weaken. Even if he knew how I felt without having to say anything, Rioto was enjoying me struggling nastily and delightfully.

I thought I knew him reasonably well, but I guess it was only as a friend.

After two years of dating, I learned firsthand that Rioto, my lover, was a bit mean and overbearing.

Somehow, I always felt that such a day would come… No, I’m confident it would.

“It’s next Sunday.”

“Oh, I’ve made plans for that day.” Before I could get into the main topic, Rioto immediately answered.

“Oh, ah, i-is that so, what…”

“Yeah.”

He ignored me, who was confused, while facing down with his long eyelashes in spite of being a man, with a nice face. The man in front of me, my (probably) lover (without a doubt) Ise Rioto, is drinking iced tea with a cool face.

……

Rioto had a good face since he was born.

So is he a child talent? Model? As a result, he was recruited in commercials and dramas.

However, he was devastatingly weak in emotions and couldn’t laugh. Soon, the child lost his job (this is what Rioto’s mother told me).

Rioto, who was as lovely as an angel, became a beautiful boy, and as a matter of course, he became handsome.

For a Japanese, he has fluffy brownish hair with light pigmentation, clear eyes, a straight nose, and soft lips.

Even though he has a soft voice, he sounds refreshing and pleasant to the ear, making you want to listen to him forever.

Although Rioto had such a perfect appearance, he was actually only a medium-level student even though he tried hard both in studies and sports.

People around him (including adults) thought that he wasn’t good enough. However, Rioto was working hard. During the marathon, he ran early in the morning, and after school, he went to the library and cram school to study. Even so, he was ranked in the middle.

But because he looked ridiculously attractive, everyone around him thought he was a super handsome guy who could do anything.

He should have ignored them, but Rioto was kind, obedient, and hardworking. He does his best to live up to their expectations.

I was curious about Rioto, so I often talked to him.

We were in the same soccer club from elementary school and went to the same cram school. Thus, although we only went to school together in junior high school, we knew each other.

In junior high school, he was called the “Aloof Handsome Guy” and “Impossible to Capture”, but it was simply because Rioto wasn’t good at socializing and had difficulty showing his emotions.

He was sad to be turned away by everyone, but he was proud of his good looks. Only his family and I were aware of his childish personality, which was hard to imagine from his appearance.

Rioto, a perfectly handsome guy, was popular anyway.

Since junior high school, he always had a girlfriend. However, when he got a confession and they started going out, it only lasted for a month at most.

Rioto tried to like her, but he was usually dumped one-sidedly, saying that “He’s different from his image”, “He’s boring to be with”, and “I don’t know what he’s thinking.”

Isn’t it strange to have their own expectations, like him, and then deny it?

But for some reason, all the girls were like that, and Rioto should’ve stopped when he reached the double-digit mark, but he kept going out with them.

“I’m glad you like me, and she’s different from the last one, so I won’t know unless I go out with her.”

Rioto seems to be an honorable man who says such things without expression on his face, but I think he was really hoping that the next time, a girl would go out with him even though he is clumsy.

Immediately after becoming a high school student, he was the first among his friends to lose his vir*in*ty. At that time, he looked very happy (although he was expressionless, he blinked a lot and his tone was quicker) and I thought Rioto finally found his destiny! I thought, but he wasn’t even with that person for less than a month.

By that time, Rioto had become famous as a “those who come are welcome, those who leave are not regretted” guy, and with the added rumor of his “doing it right away” nature, he was even targeted by girls who only wanted to get laid.

It seems that sleeping with Rioto, who has a good face, is a status.

As you can imagine, that wasn’t good for Rioto, and I felt awfully disgusted, so I complained.

“Hey, Rioto. That’s not how s** works, we’re high school students.”

I was probably the only one who could say this to Rioto, the very handsome and popular guy.

If he stares back at you with his beautiful face that never changes expression, most people would be intimidated and think he is looking down at them.

However, if the answer didn’t come immediately, Rioto would have thought hard about what they said.

He’s not making fun of them.

“When you go out with someone, you should first say ‘I won’t have s** with you unless we go out for six months.’ I think that’ll make the ones who are looking to get laid give up.”

“… If Kai says so, I’ll do that.”

“Oh, do so, do so.”

By the way, Kai is my name. Amemiya Kai.

When I had this conversation with Rioto, I was a little relieved and I seriously wondered if I was paying attention to the wrong direction around him. I thought seriously.

And I thought to myself, ‘Doesn’t this guy need me to be there for him? I thought that I was a great person.

Or rather, I justified being next to Rioto by thinking so.

I mean, we’ve known each other since childhood and we’re friends, so it wouldn’t be funny if we were fooling around in close proximity. But when I hit p***rty, I watched AV¹Adult Video. and realized that my love interest was the same sex, so I kind of needed an excuse.

Yes, I felt guilty.

There were times when I imagined what it would be like to be held by Rioto and pulled it out. The development of my backside was solely taken care of by Rioto in my fantasies.

I heard a lot of rumors that he was quite intense, that he was spoiled, and so on… Well, let’s put that aside.

Thanks to my advice, the second and third years of high school were fairly quiet.

He was in and out of relationships but it didn’t seem that their relationship was complicated nor was there any breakup.

I watched Rioto’s relationships with women with a sense of bewilderment. But he was dumped too much, and when he did, I was in a favorable position to comfort him by affirming him when he was depressed and difficult to understand because of his denials. I continued to put on the skin of a good best friend.

It was at the high school graduation ceremony that the skin was torn.

“Hey, did you get… assaulted??”

I turned pale at the sight of Rioto, who came to the meeting place.

I thought that the buttons on his uniform would have been taken away by now, but his jacket itself was gone as well as his sweater, shirt buttons, and belt.

Rioto was wearing a tattered shirt, he looked as if he might have been assaulted or chased off.

“No, I gave it to them because they wanted it.”

Rioto looks cool in any outfit with no expression on his face that I wanted to stuff him in a scene from a movie.

“… You know, you’re too popular, don’t you think?”

I somehow anticipated that this might happen, so I took out my parka jacket from my luggage. “Look, I’ll lend you the one I brought as a spare in case you get cold.”

Rioto is taller than me but he’s larger, so it won’t be a problem. I gave him the parka as if I was pushing it on him while making a reasonable excuse.

Rioto who received the hoodie stared at me and then sniffed it.

“I’m not the one who left it like that!”

“Yeah, it smells good. Thanks, I’ll borrow it.”

He must have suspected that I left it in the locker.

Well, it’s true that I’m sloppy, so it can’t be helped.

Rioto, who was wearing a hoodie, was expressionless but he was clearly relieved.

I wondered why everyone was saying they liked Rioto, but they bothered him.

“If it were me, I would take care of Rioto.”

“Eh?”

I was flustered by the words that came out unconsciously.

“Ah, no, I thought it was too much. If you think about it, what are you going to do on the way home or on the train.”

“I didn’t say no either.”

I was even more irritated with Rioto, who didn’t seem to care about my irritation and seemed to have given up a little bit.

“Refuse.”

“I feel bad, it’s impossible.”

“Ah! So even if I said I want to go out with Rioto, you wouldn’t refuse!”

It’s a tit-for-tat.

……

“Eh?!!!”

After a good 30 seconds had passed, Rioto surprised me with the loudest voice I had ever heard.

“Well, I guess so.”

If a friend suddenly said something like that to me, I would be scared. If it was a girl, I wouldn’t know.

What am I going to do if I put him on the spot by saying I’ll take care of him?

To be honest, I was in the worst mood because of my gaffe. I was in the middle of a bed of needles.

I wanted to run away but I told myself that if this would help Rioto learn to say no, it would be a meaningful sacrifice.

It’s a love that won’t come true anyway.

I was ready to die an honorable death. If anything, use it as a fertilizer for Rioto’s life.

I waited for Rioto’s reply with such a feeling.

I was afraid of what kind of face he had, so I looked down.

If others saw it, he would probably look expressionless. But I’m sure it would be disgust with a beautiful face.

I had the confidence to understand that.

……

I was the one who couldn’t stand the silence for too long.

I really wanted to wait a little longer but I would have been happy to go along with Rioto’s pace in any other situation, but as expected, I couldn’t stand this one.

I looked up with my usual careless Japanese polite smile, and there was Rioto’s handsome face as usual.

Strangely, the hoodie looks like a high brand when Rioto wears it but it looks like loungewear when I wear it.

“… I understand.”

I patted my chest when Rioto answered quietly.

I thought I could laugh it off and say it was a joke.

Even though I thought so, for some reason, I was hugged by Rioto.

“Ha???”

“I’ll go out with you.”

“No, huh?”

“I don’t want to refuse because I hate it. You don’t want to, Kai?”

There’s no way that I don’t want to.

“Oh, no, eh, huh, eh??”

“Ah, there they are. Ise-cchi, Ame-Ame, let’s go to karaoke!”

“Yeah, I’m coming.”

Without understanding, I went to the last karaoke party of my high school life with Rioto and the usual people who don’t read the atmosphere.

…….

Rioto and I went to the same university, although we’re in different departments.

By the way, the guys we’ve been hanging out with since high school are also on the same campus, even though we didn’t arrange it.

I guess what it comes down to is that we don’t have to conform to anyone else, we’re all similar in sensibilities, grades, timing, and so on.

Needless to say, Rioto is very popular in college.

However, he was happy that he never got dumped because he used the “I’m going out with someone” card, which is his trump card. Apparently, being dumped was more painful than I thought it would be.

When asked who he was dating, Rioto kept his girlfriend a secret by saying, “Because it would cause trouble for the other person.” For that reason, there were unfounded rumors that he was dating a celebrity or a teacher. I guess it was better than being called a yachirin.²Slang for a sexually promiscuous man.

Quite often I was asked, “Who is Rioto’s girlfriend?” I was asked (and still get asked about it) but I pushed through with “I don’t know.”

Because of Rioto’s image of “he doesn’t even let his guard down with his good friends” (according to them, he is also mysterious and cool), so my words were never doubted.

Rioto is really a guy who is easily gossiped about.

Before we knew it, we were in our second year of college. We reached the age where we could drink alcohol.

By the time I was in my third year, I realized that my love interest was a guy, and I never had a lover.

So I don’t know if I can say it outright but I think my relationship with Rioto is going well.

No, that’s what I thought.

Our first date was a movie during spring break.

But if you think about it, this is something we do all the time.

Whenever we felt like it, we would call each other and play as always.

I went to the university entrance ceremony with Rioto as if it were a matter of course. We spent most of the time together on campus.

We had separate lectures once classes started in earnest, but we ate lunch together (although the other guys were there, too) and went home together, too.

Just when I thought nothing had changed since middle school and high school, Rioto came to my house as usual and we were watching a movie in my room when it happened.

Even though we were watching a B-grade foreign horror movie and it wasn’t a sweet and sour love story, somehow, the atmosphere was so good that we kissed.

I was so surprised because it was our first kiss that I put a blanket on and curled up like a daifuku.

Rioto seemed surprised by my actions, but without saying anything, he started playing an Indian movie that he was interested in, and I found myself imitating the mysterious dance.

I think Rioto changed the awkward atmosphere.

I was reminded once again that he has a lot of experience in love (though they didn’t last long).

After that happened, he started kissing me whenever I went to one of their rooms to play.

By the time a year had passed, I think I had become a reasonably good kisser myself.

But we hadn’t progressed beyond that point yet.

We were conveniently alone at home, and there were times when the atmosphere was like that, but I just refused to go along with it.

It’s not that I didn’t want to. Even the Rioto I fantasized about took care of me and I want to worship the real thing, too.

However, if you kiss, you may be able to kiss regardless of gender. Still, how many men don’t wilt when they see a bare d**k? Rioto is originally a normal guy and has a lot of experience. He also had a girlfriend once who had really big b**bs.

I don’t think there is anything to compare, but he might realize that his relationship with me was a mistake. He might realize that it’s impossible with a man after all.

No, no, maybe it’s better to wake up.

But just a little more… and we kept dating until now.

But finally, Rioto must have realized that there was something wrong with the relationship.