Month: December 2021 (Page 2 of 2)

       The restaurant is not expensive and the dishes are exquisite. At dinner time, guests come and go, surrounded by noisy voices. Xi Feng looked at He Yunsheng on the opposite side and saw him roll up his cuffs and folded his napkins next to him, carefully and delicately.

       Xi Feng felt a little confused for a moment.

　　When they first met, he did not think He Yunsheng was like a woman. At best, he was not crude enough. Later, when he knew that he was a homosexual, he suddenly realized that the other party’s meticulousness was actually a feminine expression. Today, he doesn’t think He Yunsheng is like a woman. He was just a gentle and introverted man, who is not crude and doesn’t tolerate things.

       Xi Feng had already ordered the food, and when He Yunsheng sat down, he asked the waiter to serve the food.

       Hot and cold dishes were brought to the table one after another, a total of four dishes and one soup. He Yunsheng looked at the dishes served and said, “There are too many.”

       Xi Feng said, “It’s not much, I have a good appetite.”

       No one moved their chopsticks for a while.

       Xi Feng raised his head and looked at He Yunsheng for a while, and said, “Is it possible that if I take a step back, we can continue to be friends?”

       He Yunsheng answered him, “I’m afraid it’s very difficult, we can be ordinary colleagues, but we can’t be friends anymore.”

       Xi Feng pressed one hand on the edge of the table. He couldn’t help tightening his fingers and swallowed the unwillingness. He had already regressed to this point, and in the end, the other side was not even willing to be friends with him.

       “This trip to the branch office. Develop well.” He Yunsheng said to him.

       Xi Feng pondered for a while, and picked out the words, “I haven’t been to Chongfeng, and I don’t know if I can get used to the life there.”

       “I have been there,” He Yunsheng said, “My mother is over there.”

       Xi Feng was a little surprised and looked at him.

　　He Yunsheng’s gaze seemed to look through Xi Feng’s body into the distance, “Remember I told you that she started a new family after my father died? She’s now in Chongfeng City. That’s a nice city, maybe you’ll get used to it soon after you go over there.”

　　”Do you visit her often?” Xi Feng couldn’t help asking.

　　He Yunsheng said slowly, “No, her daughter is in college, so if I go there, it will be awkward for the family.”

　　Xi Feng suddenly felt disappointed. He originally thought that if He Yunsheng would visit his mother often, maybe they would have the opportunity to meet again.

　　He Yunsheng didn’t know if Xi Feng could see through his thoughts, and he just said, “So feeling like this will fade away after a long time apart.”

　　Xi Feng understood this truth in his heart.

　　He Yunsheng hesitated. He had something to say to Xi Feng, but he didn’t know if it was appropriate to say it, so he fell silent and ate some dishes first.

　　Xi Feng thoughtfully helped him scoop a bowl of soup, and then he wanted to help him with vegetables.

　　He Yunsheng politely refused, and said to him, “Xi Feng, if you meet a suitable girl after you move, it’s not bad to consider it.”

　　Xi Feng was stunned, and asked him, “Do you doubt what I said before?”

　　He Yunsheng shook his head, “I just hope you don’t make a fool of yourself, you’re straight, don’t go further and further down this road, it’s a road with no end in sight. People who take this road either look back and choose another path or just die of exhaustion on the road.”

　　Xi Feng knew that He Yunsheng would not look back, and he wanted to accompany him on this road, but the other party didn’t accept it. He couldn’t help asking, “Why am I still straight? I’m already bent, aren’t I?”

　　He Yunsheng smiled this time, “The body can’t deceive people. You still react to the female body, right?”

　　Xi Feng couldn’t refute, he thought he might be bisexual.

　　He Yunsheng said, “As long as you can accept women, you will always take the road of getting married and having children. So there is no need to come round the bend and waste your time now.”

　　Xi Feng listened quietly, and after a long time asked him, “Are you and your boyfriend happy?”

　　He Yunsheng looked at him and said, “Very happy, I think we can have a chance to go to the end, so you don’t have to worry about me. Go live your own life.”

　　Xi Feng took a deep breath, lowered his eyes, and said in a deep voice, “I’m really sorry that I have caused you so much trouble for so long.”

　　He Yunsheng smiled, “I wish you good luck in the future.”

　　This was the last meal that Xi Feng had with He Yunsheng before he left, and neither of them had contact until he left.

　　However, He Yunsheng has always been in Xi Feng’s WeChat friends. He Yunsheng never posts to Moments, but whenever Xi Feng posts, he also knows that He Yunsheng will watch it, although He Yunsheng never responded or gave him a thumbs up.

　　A new beginning in a new city.

　　The company gave Xi Feng time to rent a house two days in advance. The house price in Chongfeng City is not expensive, so he simply rented the house near the company. A small apartment, enough for him to live alone.

　　In the first three months after his arrival, Xi Feng felt deeply what it means to devote oneself to work, and his daily work schedule was very full. The new leader is also a young man, full of enthusiasm, and constantly inspires and motivates them. Of course, every effort he makes has also reaped enough returns.

　　Unlike in the past, Xi Feng really wants to develop his career this time and has changed all of his bad habits that he used to do so carelessly. Both his colleagues and the leaders have a very high opinion of him.

　　Such high-intensity and busy work did not allow him time to look back to grieve for a broken relationship. Only in the middle of the night when he was lying in bed, he would think of He Yunsheng, but he would soon be overwhelmed by drowsiness and fall into his sleep tiredly.

　　Three months later, the work in the new company began to gradually get on track, but Xi Feng did not relax. He still devoted most of his energy to work and even went to a training class for a short weekend to conduct business related training.

　　Xi Feng himself didn’t even realize that he was quite charming when he focused on his work.

　　The branch has recruited many new employees here, and many new female colleagues have praised Xi Feng for his commitment and sense of responsibility. He is young and handsome, and very popular.

　　Xi Feng spent his 26th birthday here alone. He was still working overtime that day. After work, he walked back to the rental house. On the road, he saw a cake shop with a ready-made birthday cake that was not sold, so he thought about it and bought the cake for himself.

　　When he got home, Xi Feng sat on the living room sofa and put the candles into the cake. The small candles that came with the cake were not enough for 26 candles, so he put only one candle in the middle, lit it and took a picture with his phone, and sent it to his circle of friends. He wrote: Happy birthday, one’s 26th year.

　　After sending the post, Xi Feng blew out the candles, cut the cake with a knife, and ate a small icing, and felt tired. So he had to put the remaining cake back into the box and put it in the refrigerator.

　　After eating the cake, his mother called him, talked to him about his current situation, and finally said that she wished him a happy birthday.

　　After the call, Xi Feng went to take a shower. After the shower, he turned on the TV and lay on the sofa, and began to look through the messages in Moments.

　　There are already more than 20 messages under his cake photo, all of them wishing him a happy birthday. He hastily turned over and suddenly found He Yunsheng’s name in the comments. He Yunsheng also left him only two words: Happy Birthday.

　　But at that moment, Xi Feng suddenly hugged his phone and rolled over on the sofa happily. He couldn’t contain his excitement. He first clicked on He Yunsheng’s comment to reply. He typed a bunch of words and wanted to say that it was lonely to celebrate his birthday alone. He also wanted to say that he’s been busy at work now, and only has time to celebrate my birthday so late. But he deleted all the words at the end, leaving only two words: Thank you.

　　After replying, he locked the phone screen and threw it aside, grabbed the remote control to the TV and pointed it at the TV and changed the channel randomly. After less than two minutes, he picked up his phone again to see that the comments on his circle of friends were still increasing, but after he replied to He Yunsheng with the phrase thank you, the other party did not reply again.

　　Xi Feng wondered in a daze, what else do you want the other party to reply? There was nothing else to say.

　　It’s just that his mood is constantly fluctuating. He raised his hand to cover his face, thinking that didn’t they say all feelings will fade with the passage of time, but why did it fade so slowly this time? This thick and colorful stroke was directly painted on his heart. At this time, a handful of clear water was splashed on and slowly dripped down. But in the end, the stroke remained there, still as beautiful as new.

　　After his 26th birthday, Xi Feng was somewhat starting to get restless. But after all he was too far away, even if he had a desire, it was difficult to move. He also had difficulty in judging whether or not he should do it.

　　It’s just that Xi Feng didn’t expect it, that the turning point of things happened on one Saturday morning. He stayed up late last night and rushed to a project. When he was sleeping soundly at more than seven o’clock in the morning, he was awakened by the persistent mobile phone ringtone.

　　Xi Feng, who was awakened, was a little unhappy, but he quickly grabbed the phone and saw He Yunsheng’s name.

　　All the sleepiness disappeared instantly, he sat up all of a sudden, the quilt slipped down to reveal a strong upper body. He cleared his throat, picked up the phone, and answered in a low voice, “Hello? He Yunsheng?”

　　”It’s me,” He Yunsheng’s hoarse voice rang out, making Xi Feng feel a little excited, “Am I disturbing you?” He spoke with some anxiety and urgency in his tone.

　　Xi Feng realized that he might have something, and quickly replied, “No, what’s the matter?”

　　He Yunsheng said, “I don’t know if it’s convenient for you to do me a favor, can you go to the Qingya neighborhood on Wutong Road now? My mother is alone at home and seems to have broken her leg.”

　　Xi Feng immediately understood the main point, “Is she alone? Can she get up?  Is there any key?” He decided that he would either call the ambulance and fire department to open the door to save her directly, or to rush over and take them to the hospital first.

　　He Yunsheng said, “She should be able to get up, but she can’t walk, I really can’t find anyone else, so I can only call you to trouble you.”

　　Xi Feng replied, “No problem, I’ll go over immediately and call you if something happened.”

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       After Xi Feng went back, he fell ill. He has been healthy since he was a child, and he didn’t even catch a cold when he went swimming in the river in winter. This time, he didn’t know what was going on. The night after getting off the plane, he felt cold and dizzy.

       The next day, he was supposed to go back to the company for work. He woke up in the morning still feeling sore all over, so he called for sick leave.

       From yesterday until now, he hasn’t bought cold medicine, and he always felt that he might get better when he sleeps again.

       He slept until the afternoon. He was wrapped in a quilt and sweated. He felt a little better, and the phone on the bedside suddenly rang.

       Xi Feng grabbed the phone and found that the call was from He Yunsheng. He was a bit excited. When he answered the phone, his hand shook, and he almost dropped his cell phone under the bed. He had no choice but to hold it firmly to his face, and answered nervously, “Hello?”

       He Yunsheng’s voice can be heard, “Are you at home?”

       Xi Feng said quickly, “Yes.”

       He Yunsheng then asked him, “Can you get up in bed?”

       Xi Feng replied, “No problem. It’s not too serious.”

       He Yunsheng said, “Then come and open the door for me.”

       Xi Feng froze for a moment. He suddenly jumped out of the bed, and it was followed by a burst of muscle soreness. He got out of bed and found that he was only wearing a pair of underwear all over his body. He didn’t want He Yunsheng to feel disgusted, so he quickly put on his pajama shirt and pants.

       During this process, he kept moving hurriedly, afraid that He Yunsheng was impatient when waiting and left directly.

       Fortunately, when he trotted to open the door, He Yunsheng was still standing outside.

       He Yunsheng heard his footsteps running out of the bedroom and said, “It seems you are okay.”

       Xi Feng immediately couldn’t help coughing twice, and said to He Yunsheng: “Are you here to see me? Come in and sit down.”

       He Yunsheng had indeed come to see him specifically. When He Yunsheng heard that Xi Feng was sick and did not come to work today, he started to feel a little restless. In fact, he should be a little more ruthless, but he knew that after graduating from college, Xi Feng worked in this city alone, with no relatives or close friends, and recently even no girlfriend.

       It would be inexcusable to say that Xi Feng’s illness had nothing to do with him. Now he is sick and lying at home alone with no one to visit him. It’s too pitiful.

       So after leaving work in the afternoon, He Yunsheng came over. He just wanted to make sure that Xi Feng was still alive, and able to come out of his bed, then he could leave without worry.

　　But Xi Feng didn’t want to just let him leave. After seeing He Yunsheng, he felt weak and dizzy, and his voice became hoarse and he even coughed. He invited He Yunsheng to the living room to sit down, and then he held the wall to the kitchen to pour water for He Yunsheng.

       “Stop moving around,” He Yunsheng said, putting the plastic bag he was holding on the coffee table in the living room, “I bought you some cold medicine.”

       Xi Feng raised his hand and pressed his stomach. He said, “I haven’t eaten anything for a day. Maybe I need to eat something to stuff my stomach before I dare to take the medicine.”

       He Yunsheng did not speak.

       Seeing that it was still early, Xi Feng thought that He Yunsheng must have come over as soon as he got off work, so he asked, “Have you eaten? Should I order takeaway to eat together?” He asked cautiously, afraid that He Yunsheng would reject him.

       He Yunsheng who heard the cautious tone and anxiety in his voice sighed secretly, and said, “Okay.”

       Xi Feng ordered takeout with his mobile phone, then sat down on the sofa, looked at He Yunsheng, and said, “I thought you wouldn’t come to see me.”

       He Yunsheng said in his hoarse and low voice, “I was afraid that you would die alone at home.”

       Hearing these words, Xi Feng couldn’t help but feel a little lonely. Usually, it wasn’t so bad, but once he was sick or alone, that lonely feeling would be particularly obvious.

       He Yunsheng continued, “So that’s why I decided to come and take a look.”

       Xi Feng said, “Thank you.”

       It is rare for the two of them to be calm and peaceful. The sick Xi Feng does not have that overbearing forcefulness. He Yunsheng also feels that he can talk to him normally, so he said, “Xi Feng, I still want to say a few words to you.”

       Xi Feng suddenly became nervous. He raised his head and looked around, trying to find something else to interrupt the current conversation, but he couldn’t find anything to avoid the situation.

       He Yunsheng didn’t want him to avoid it, even more said, “This will be the last time. I’m seriously telling you that I don’t have any thoughts about you. I hope you won’t come to pester me in the future.”

       Xi Feng lowered his head and did not answer.

       He Yunsheng added, “I’m in a relationship.”

       When Xi Feng heard these words, he looked up at him in shock.

       He Yunsheng’s expression was still very calm, “We came back yesterday. After getting off the plane, I went to see my friend. He confessed to me and I agreed.”

       “Who is it?” Xi Feng couldn’t help asking.

       He Yunsheng said, “You don’t know him, I was introduced to him by Cong Yu. We have been seeing each other occasionally before. We just confirmed our relationship last night.”

       Xi Feng didn’t know how his expression was, but he believed that his face must looked very bad because He Yunsheng frowned slightly when he looked at him as if he was a little worried.

       The more he talked, the more He Yunsheng seemed to annoy him. Xi Feng knew in his heart, but he couldn’t restrain his impulse. He asked, “Do you love him?”

       Since He Yunsheng started this topic, he was mentally prepared, and he replied, “I like him.”

       Xi Feng wanted to find some evidence in his words to comfort himself and said, “Then it’s not love.”

       He Yunsheng said, “But I like to be with him, at least I’m not bothered by him.”

       Yes, his own existence even bothered He Yunsheng. Xi Feng thought to himself, what confidence does he have to care about whether He Yunsheng is enough to love that person?

       At that moment, Xi Feng suddenly felt that the bridge of his nose felt sore and his eyes were a bit painful. He thought this must be because he had a cold. His nose kept running, and now his eyes were hot and he was about to shed tears. It’s not the first time that he was heartbroken. He has been rejected by a girl he likes more than once. Every time he has experienced pain but recovers quickly. It’s the same this time. No matter what happens, it will pass, and he will get better slowly, and then he can consider the next relationship. He won’t cry for this kind of thing.

       He said to He Yunsheng, “I wish you happiness.”

       He Yunsheng nodded, “Thank you.”

       The takeaway was delivered. The warm scene of two people having dinner together that Xi Feng had expected became silent and bitter. He Yunsheng also answered a phone call during dinner, probably because he had an appointment with someone else at night.

       Xi Feng held back this time and didn’t ask him who he was. After the meal, he quietly packed up the lunch box and put it in the plastic bag.

       He Yunsheng stood up and threw the lunch box away when he was ready to leave. He walked to the door of the room, hesitated, and turned back to Xi Feng and said, “Take your medicine and call me if things get bad at night.”

       Xi Feng stood in the living room, nodded slightly, and said, “Okay.”

　　When He Yunsheng left, Xi Feng poured a cup of warm water, counted the pills, and ate according to the instructions. He sat in the living room in a daze for a while and felt that the effect of the cold medicine was starting to take effect, and he became drowsy again, so he got up and went back to the bedroom. He lay down and continued to sleep.

       After all, he has good health. After taking cold medicine and sleeping one night, Xi Feng was no longer dizzy and weak the next morning. He only had a runny nose, but his whole spirit had completely recovered.

　　He didn’t meet He Yunsheng when he went back to work, and he didn’t meet him for the next week. However, another thing came up. The head of the human resource department talked to him and said that the company wanted to transfer him to the branch in Chongfeng City, and asked his personal opinion.

       Xi Feng sat in the human resources office, and for a moment he felt that the air conditioner was fully turned on. He pulled his tie, and after a reaction time of about five seconds, he replied, “I don’t think there is a problem.”

       This is not his hometown. He had no relatives, no friends, no lovers, and only some painful memories. He could not think of any reason why he had to insist on staying.

　　He knew that the company attaches great importance to the business development of Chongfeng City. The young people who have moved the past are all young people who want to work hard in the past to create a new sky. At that time, he would be more tired, but his life would become more meaningful.

       After making this decision, Xi Feng mustered up the courage to make a phone call to He Yunsheng, wanting to invite him to have one last meal before leaving the city.

       He Yunsheng agreed.

　　The place where Xi Feng invited him to eat was the Chinese restaurant where the two of them ate for the first time. Xi Feng went to the restaurant first that afternoon. He even remembered the window seat where he and He Yunsheng were sitting, so he went over and sat down, staring at the empty chair across from him.

       There seems to be a feeling like a world away.

　　He Yunsheng had worked overtime because of his work and came in a hurry after finishing the things in his hand. He noticed Xi Feng as soon as he came in and said while walking towards him, “Sorry, I was in a hurry to catch up with a report just now, so I was half an hour late.”

       Xi Feng smiled at He Yunsheng and said, “It’s okay, please sit down.”

       He Yunsheng sat down, tidied his hair and glasses, and then asked Xi Feng, “I heard you are going to Chongfeng City?”

       Xi Feng nodded once and spoke in a solemn tone, “I’m leaving here.”

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       It was already quite late at this time. He Yunsheng contacted the other party, saying that the agreed address was on the other side of the building, and it would take him a few minutes to walk from here.

       Although it couldn’t be helped, they had to complete the errands for the deputy manager well. He Yunsheng and Xi Feng spent a few minutes walking around to the left side of the building to get the document across the street.

       “Thank you,” He Yunsheng thanked him.

       The man, who probably lived nearby, said you’re welcome, and turned away.

       He Yunsheng took the document, but didn’t read it, and went back to the road to take a taxi.

       This road is a bit more remote than the road where they got off just now, and they didn’t see a taxi for a minute or two.

       Xi Feng said, “How about I call DiDi¹app-based transportation company like Uber https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DiDi?”

       He Yunsheng looked at him and did not object. He took out his mobile phone and called the deputy manager first, telling him that he had gotten the document.

       Xi Feng lowered his head to look for the taxi app on his phone, and suddenly heard the sound of a motorcycle coming from the street. He subconsciously raised his head to look.

       He saw a motorcycle coming from the left. The lights were a little strong, and he had to squint his eyes.

　　In the next moment, the motorcycle drove in front of them, very close to the side of the road. At this time, Xi Feng saw two people on the motorcycle and wondered why they were so close to the street. He then saw the person sitting in the back of the motorcycle reach out and grab He Yunsheng’s cell phone.

　　He Yunsheng just finished the call, and the phone had not yet been put down from his ear. He didn’t hold it too tightly, and the other party easily jerked the phone out of his hand.

       He immediately let out a cry of surprise.

       And Xi Feng reacted very quickly. He put his phone in his trouser pocket and chased after the motorcycle.

　　Just now, the person on the motorcycle slowed down just to grab the mobile phone, and by this time they have not sped up yet. Xi Feng lunged forward and actually caught the motorcycle’s tail, was dragged forward a few steps, and then he pushed hard to the side and knocked the motorcycle down.

       The man sitting in the back seat who grabbed the phone jumped off when the motorcycle fell, rolled on the ground, quickly got up, and ran to the side, and Xi Feng immediately followed suit.

       He Yunsheng was frightened and yelled, “Xi Feng! Forget it!” The mobile phone is not that important, and if something goes wrong, it will be bad.

       Xi Feng didn’t stop. He quickened his pace and ran after the man into an alley.

       The alley was dark and there was no light and no fork in the road.

       The man turned around and saw Xi Feng chasing him, so he simply threw the looted phone to the ground, and then ran forward with a big stride.

       Xi Feng went up and picked up the phone, and then pressed it to see if the screen was broken. He no longer has the idea to continue pursuing.

       He Yunsheng’s mobile phone was not broken, only one corner was slightly dented, and one couldn’t tell if they didn’t look closely.

       Xi Feng grabbed his mobile phone and returned. Just now, when he poked his head out of the alley, he saw He Yunsheng wrestling with a man.

       Xi Feng suddenly shouted, “Hey!” He raised his hand and ran over quickly while pointing at the man.

       The man saw Xi Feng coming, released He Yunsheng, turned, and ran to the motorcycle lying in the middle of the road.

       When Xi Feng watched him bend down to help the motorcycle and wanted to chase him over, He Yunsheng said, “Don’t chase.”

       Xi Feng hesitated. The man had picked up the motorcycle, jumped on it, started the engine, and ran away. He had to give up and came back to He Yunsheng and asked, “Is everything all right?”

       The man wanted to grab his wallet, but Xi Feng came back before he could succeed. He saw that Xi Feng was big and didn’t dare to wrestle with him, so he slashed through the space between He Yunsheng’s thumb and forefinger and took the opportunity to escape.

　　At this time, Xi Feng also saw He Yunsheng’s blood on his hands, and he was suddenly anxious and in pain. He regretted letting the person go like this. He also blamed himself for chasing a mobile phone without regard for He Yunsheng’s safety. He felt very angry, and only managed to stifle a sentence, “It’s all my fault!”

       He Yunsheng watched Xi Feng carefully holding his hands, and couldn’t help but look up and look at his face again. His face full of worry indeed did not seem to be fake.

       The wound is not deep, but the injury is on the hand, so it is extraordinarily easy to be touched.

       Xi Feng took He Yunsheng to a nearby pharmacy and bought alcohol gauze to treat his wounds.

       The two of them sat on the chairs outside the pharmacy. The street was very quiet, and there was hardly even a shadow of a pedestrian.

       He Yunsheng watched Xi Feng’s gentle and meticulous movements. He cleaned the wound first and then wrapped it in gauze. He Yunsheng suddenly said, “I haven’t told you something, but I actually have AIDS.”

　　Xi Feng’s scalp numb instantly. He threw away He Yunsheng’s hand and got up from the chair. At the same time he stood up, he realized that He Yunsheng was lying. This was impossible. He said, “You lied!”

　　He Yunsheng raised his head to look at him. His complexion was a little pale under the fluorescent light, and he said, “Yes, I lied.”

　　Xi Feng quickly sat down again. He grabbed He Yunsheng’s hand that he had thrown away just now, took the gauze, and continued to help him wrap the wound, but a layer of fine sweat soon formed on his head. He didn’t believe that He Yunsheng had AIDS; he was just regretting that he threw away his hand too fast. It was a subconscious reaction, and his body reacted faster than his head.

　　On the contrary, He Yunsheng relaxed and let him treat the wound for himself.

　　In this silence, Xi Feng felt more and more uncomfortable. With some dissatisfaction, he said, “Is it interesting for you to use these kind of words to test me?”

　　”Yes,” He Yunsheng said, “We’re people from two different circles. I have to make sure.”

　　”What’s the point of not being in the same circle? Before marriage, everyone was in two different circles.”

　　He Yunsheng shook his head, “It’s not the same. You don’t understand now, but you’ll understand in a few years.”

　　Xi Feng grasped his hand tightly, and later he was worried that it would hurt him and let it go. He said, “If you are worried about this, then it is completely unnecessary. I can assure you of that as a man.”

　　He Yunsheng stood up and said, “It’s too late, let’s go back.”

　　They used a taxi app to call a taxi back to the hotel, and He Yunsheng didn’t say anything to him after that. He tried to find a topic with He Yunsheng, but He Yunsheng did not respond. Even if he deliberately provoked him, He Yunsheng did not respond.

　　This made him feel a little powerless and unsure of how to handle this relationship.

　　The next day, they officially started to work. They were running around outside all day with a group of several people in a row. Xi Feng didn’t have time to communicate with He Yunsheng privately.

　　After returning to the hotel in the evening, everyone met for a short meeting. After returning to the room, He Yunsheng took a shower and rested in bed early.

　　On the fourth day, Xi Feng made the deputy manager unhappy because of a mistake and was criticized in front of everyone. He Yunsheng took the initiative to help him with some friendly advice.

　　They didn’t arrange the itinerary on the last day. So everyone agreed to sleep and wake up to go directly from the hotel to the airport.

　　When Xi Feng woke up in bed, he glanced at his cell phone and found that it was still early. He turned around and saw He Yunsheng on the opposite bed still buried in the quilt motionless. Suddenly he had a thought, he lifted the blanket and got out of bed, stepped on the carpet, and walked to the opposite bed. He lay down, hugging He Yunsheng with the quilt wrapped around him in his arms.

　　He Yunsheng woke up immediately, and he began to struggle, but he was not as strong as Xi Feng. Seeing him struggling, Xi Feng simply pressed his whole body on him and threatened, “Don’t move.”

　　”Let go!” He Yunsheng said angrily.

　　Xi Feng was a little aggrieved, “I’m just hugging you, and there is still a quilt. Why does it matter!”

　　He Yunsheng said, “Do you know what it means to respect someone else?”

　　Xi Feng looked down at him, his forehead almost touched He Yunsheng’s forehead, “You are not someone else.”

　　He Yunsheng was so angry that he was about to laugh. But he calmed down instead, eased his tone, and said, “Xi Feng, don’t do this.”

　　Xi Feng did not say anything, and said, “You spoke for me yesterday.”

　　He Yunsheng said in a dull voice, “I would have said the same thing to other people.”

　　Xi Feng supported his head with one hand, but still held him firmly with the other hand, “Do you really hate me?”

　　He Yunsheng was silent for a while. If he had to say something, he could only say that he did hate it, but now it doesn’t annoy him that much. But it doesn’t mean if he didn’t hate him, he likes him, he just didn’t hate him. He thought for a while and replied to Xi Feng, “I’m bothered by you.”

　　Xi Feng is a little hurt. Even if his heart is made of iron, you will still leave traces if you gouge it out with a knife. Not to mention that his heart is not, and his confidence has already collapsed a little bit.

　　He said, “If I don’t bother you, can you give me a chance?”

　　”No,” He Yunsheng said bluntly.

　　Xi Feng loosened his hand a little, and then hugged him tightly, saying. “You are not too young anymore. Is it easy to find a man to stay with you for the rest of your life? Why don’t you consider me?”

　　He Yunsheng responded coldly, “Then I would rather die alone.”

　　Xi Feng was stunned.

　　He Yunsheng said, “If everyone in the world is dead, would you still want to be with a dog?”

　　Xi Feng released his hand.

　　He Yunsheng regretted it after saying this. He didn’t want to be so offensive, and he didn’t want to describe Xi Feng like that. But he was really afraid of the other party’s ability to talk about himself. If he doesn’t say it that harshly, then he will keep getting entangled. So he regretted it but closed his lips tightly without changing his mind.

　　Xi Feng rolled off his bed and drop back to sit on the edge of his own bed. His head hanging low, and his broad shoulders slumped feebly.

　　He was sad and even wanted to cry a little. He didn’t dare to look up when he heard the sound of He Yunsheng getting up. At that moment, he was so emotionally depressed to the point of self-loathing.

　　Until the day when he went to the airport, Xi Feng was still shrouded in a deep and depressed mood. He was a little absent-minded when he talked to the deputy manager, and the deputy manager looked at him in disgust.

　　After boarding the plane, Xi Feng leaned on the seat and closed his eyes to sleep. The stewardess brought him meals, and he refused.

　　He Yunsheng, whose seat was separated from his by a corridor, asked for his meal. But until he got off the plane, Xi Feng did not eat or drink and was in a daze.

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       They had dinner with several colleagues in the company. As the head of the finance department, He Yunsheng was in charge of all the food, lodging, and transportation on this trip. When he goes back, he will be responsible for the reimbursement to the company.

       Someone suggested that they go for singing after dinner, but the deputy manager was obviously was not interested. He said that everyone must be too tired today and should go singing another day. So the person gave up, and a group of seven people walked back to the hotel from the place where they ate.

       Xi Feng did not find a chance to be alone with He Yunsheng, because on the way back, He Yunsheng was chatting with two female colleagues in the unit, although most of the time it was the two of them talking, and He Yunsheng listened quietly.

       Xi Feng had no choice but to slow down and followed He Yunsheng behind him, secretly looking at his back.

       He Yunsheng never looked back, but he could feel Xi Feng’s attention on him. He still felt uncomfortable in his heart and chatted with his two female colleagues carelessly.

       Back at the hotel, Xi Feng followed He Yunsheng into the room. He reached out his hand and locked the door with a soft click.

       He Yunsheng had just turned on the light in the room and looked back at him.

       Xi Feng inexplicably felt that the sound of the door lock seemed to carry some unusual implications.

       He Yunsheng walked to his suitcase and knelt down to start packing again.

　　Xi Feng turned on the TV and sat on the edge of the bed without changing the channel. He glanced at He Yunsheng’s back from time to time and was a little surprised that He Yunsheng seemed to pack things up endlessly. They came over for a business trip and not moving. Why are there so many things to pack? But he can’t ask these questions.

       He Yunsheng finally stood up after packing for so long. He looked at Xi Feng and asked, “Are you going to take a bath? If you are not, I will take a bath first.”

       Xi Feng said, “Go ahead, I’m not in a hurry.”

       He Yunsheng went into the bathroom with his pajama shirt and pants.

       Only then did Xi Feng take off his shoes and lean back with his upper body propped up on the bed with both hands. He moved his neck to relax his body and took a look at the time that suddenly popped up in the upper right corner of the TV. It was already 9:00 pm.

       There was a slight movement from time to time in the bathroom. After ten minutes, Xi Feng heard the sound of the shower nozzle turning on and the sound of the water rushing in the bathtub.

       He stared at the ceiling and somewhat let his imagination run wild.

　　He Yunsheng’s white and slightly slender body that he had seen and touched that night appeared before his eyes again. His mind wandered, and this kind of fantasy slowly dissipated as the sound of water continued in the bathroom.

       Xi Feng glanced at the time on the phone. It was already nine fifty. He Yunsheng took a very long bath. In any case, if a man lives too finely, his heart will gradually drift in an abnormal direction. Of course, He Yunsheng was a sissy, and he also admits it. At least, it means that even if he is an older man, he still prefers soft and tender animals.

       He Yunsheng came out of the bathroom after taking a shower for nearly an hour. At first glance, he saw Xi Feng staring at the ceiling in a daze. Without saying anything, he walked to the dressing table and wiped his face with lotion.

       His action was not because he lives an exquisite life, but it was because he has dry skin. After washing his face every day, he habitually wipes his face with lotion; otherwise, it would feel too uncomfortable to even stretch the skin on his face.

       During this process, He Yunsheng saw from the mirror that Xi Feng was looking at him from behind. He felt a little bit annoyed, but he felt it was inconvenient to express it. He only speeded up his movements, wiped his face, and said to Xi Feng, “Go take a bath.”

       Xi Feng said, “Okay.” After all, he was going to stay out for several days. He would pay attention to basic hygiene even if he usually doesn’t. Before going to the bathroom, he grabbed a pair of clean underwear and went in.

       The bathroom was still filled with water mist, mixed with the sweet fragrance of shower gel, which he smelled from He Yunsheng when He Yunsheng passed by just now.

       He reached out to close the door when he suddenly heard He Yunsheng’s phone ring.

       The phone only rang once, and He Yunsheng quickly picked up the phone and said, “Hello? Deputy manager?”

       Xi Feng’s action of closing the door slowed down, leaning his head against the door and quietly listening to his call.

       “Now?” He Yunsheng seemed a little surprised but quickly said, “Okay, just send me the address.”

       Xi Feng instantly thought of some strange things, but he himself quickly denied this imagination.

       He Yunsheng was still on the phone. He said, “Okay, I’ll go right away.” Then he hung up.

　　Xi Feng stood at the door and thought for a while, reminiscing about the content of the call just now. It sounds like the deputy manager tells He Yunsheng to go out at night. At the thought of this, he couldn’t help it and stretched out his hand to open the bathroom door and walked outside.

       When he returned to the room, He Yunsheng had changed his clothes. He was sitting on the bed and was changing his pants. As he took off half of his pajama pants, his two white thighs were revealed. Seeing Xi Feng suddenly come out, He Yunsheng subconsciously wanted to cover himself.

       When Xi Feng saw it, he could only pretend not to see it and forced his gaze to stay on He Yunsheng’s face, “You’re going out this late?”

　　He Yunsheng gritted his teeth and moved quickly to take off his pajamas and put on his trousers. He stood up and pulled the zippers and buttons and said, “The deputy manager asked me to get a copy of the information for him. It might be useful for the expo tomorrow.”

　　”Where to get them?” Xi Feng asked again.

　　He Yunsheng bent over and grabbed the phone on the bed and saw that the deputy manager had already sent him the address, then said, “It’s in the city. I’ll take a taxi there.”

　　Xi Feng said immediately, “I will accompany you.”

　　He Yunsheng refused without even thinking, “No need.”

　　Xi Feng saw that He Yunsheng had already begun to put on socks. He quickly went back to the bed and put on his shoes and socks.

　　He Yunsheng stood up, took the wallet and room card and put it in his pocket, and said: “It’s really not necessary. You can stay and rest early.” After that, he walked outside.

　　Xi Feng hurriedly chased after him and closed the door hard, and grabbed He Yunsheng’s arm in the corridor.

　　”Let go!” He Yunsheng disliked Xi Feng’s completely unreasonable and unyielding attitude very much.

　　Xi Feng immediately let go but did not stop and followed He Yunsheng to the front of the elevator, “I’m going with you, I’m worried about you going out alone at this late.”

　　He Yunsheng pressed the elevator and coldly replied, “You’re sick!”

　　Xi Feng raised his hand and touched his chest, and said, “Yeah, it’s probably lovesickness.”

　　The moment He Yunsheng heard these words, He Yunsheng couldn’t help but want to raise his hand and hold his chest. He felt that he was angered as well as disgusted to death by him.

　　There was no one in the elevator.

　　Two people went in one after the other. Xi Feng reached out and pressed the first floor. When the elevator door slowly closed, He Yunsheng looked at Xi Feng and said, “I recently saw a term on the Internet that is quite apt to describe you.”

　　Xi Feng asked with interest, “What?”

　　He Yunsheng said, “Straight man cancer¹直男癌 [zhí nán ái]: “Straight man cancer”, unpleasant features of men who are chauvinistic, radical, or narrow-minded. For example, such men disregard personal hygiene, explicitly or implicitly despise women, abhor the rich, or blame others only for their own misfortunes..”

　　Xi Feng had also heard of this term. He knew that it was not a positive term, but he was not angry about it. He wanted to say that it would not be as serious as “cancer”, and he’s a bit of a macho man at best. Later he hesitated and didn’t say anything for a while. He changed his words and said, “Why is it straight? Isn’t it bent for you?”

　　The feeling of tightness in the chest came up again. He Yunsheng forcibly endured it and did not talk to Xi Feng again.

　　Coming out of the hotel, He Yunsheng beckoned for a taxi at the roadside.

　　He didn’t continue to reject Xi Feng. In fact, he didn’t know how he could refuse because he had already given up on maintaining his dignity, but the other party obviously couldn’t accept it or refused to accept it.

　　After getting on the taxi, He Yunsheng read the address to the driver according to the address sent to him by the deputy manager.

　　Xi Feng sat beside him and asked, “What is so important about this? Can’t Xiao Zhou or I run the errands?” Xiao Zhou is the other young guy in this line.

　　He Yunsheng did not speak but just glanced at his phone from time to time.

　　Xi Feng suddenly leaned close to his ear and asked, “Is the deputy manager not at the hotel?”

　　He Yunsheng subconsciously wanted to avoid it, but when he heard what Xi Feng said, he turned his head to look at him, “How did you know?”

　　Xi Feng said, “I heard him talking on the phone during dinner today, and it seemed to be a woman. Didn’t he refuse to go singing later?”

　　He Yunsheng had actually guessed something, but he lowered his voice and said to Xi Feng, “Don’t talk nonsense.”

　　Xi Feng smiled, “You are the only one I told to. Don’t worry.”

　　He Yunsheng didn’t know what to say, so he looked forward.

　　Xi Feng looked at his profile and said, “I know you still care about me.”

　　The driver of the car took a look at them from the rearview mirror.

　　He Yunsheng keenly caught that look and couldn’t help but move to the side, wanting to be a little farther away from Xi Feng, but Xi Feng refused to let him go and moved his butt along, trying to get himself closer to him.

　　After arriving at the destination, Xi Feng took the initiative to pay, and He Yunsheng took the opportunity to pull the door and get out of the car first.

　　After Xi Feng paid the driver, he followed him down and saw that this was the outer wall of a residential area. There was only a street light far away, and the surrounding environment was dark, and there were no pedestrians. Across a wide road is a commercial building. The address sent by the deputy manager is opposite the commercial building, but no one was waiting for them here.

　　He Yunsheng had already taken out his cell phone to make a call. He contacted the person who wanted to give the document and walked towards the front while making the call.

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