Of course, this decision is easy to think about but hard to do.

If I have a choice, I really want to find a place where no one can find me and hide for tens of thousands of years, and then come back after I’ve figured everything out and calmed down.

What should be faced still has to be faced. People have to live with shame. Even if I have no face to see Ning Yiheng again, I can’t give up my job because of this kind of thing.

I calmed down a little in the morning and immediately sent a message to Ning Yiheng, apologizing for my impulsive behavior.

Although he didn’t blame me for it, and even apologized for his rude kiss yesterday, I always felt that his tone wasn’t salty or light.

We had an awkward atmosphere. We couldn’t talk at all, and he didn’t seem like he was interested in me.

He probably wanted to get it over with, but I couldn’t accept that.

All I could think about on the commute was how to face Ning Yiheng.

When I got to the office, I didn’t get to see him.

Ning Yiheng, who usually likes to come to my office and hang around, didn’t show up today.

I can’t help but feel lost.

Ning Yiheng’s attitude had already made it clear. He really didn’t want to see me.

I wanted to take the initiative to see him, but how was I supposed to say? Should I take the initiative to bring up yesterday’s incident with him and tell him that everything was just a misunderstanding?

The kick I gave him in a moment of desperation wasn’t a misunderstanding…

It’s very easy for me to play the matchmaker for others, but when it comes to myself, I’m at a loss.

What’s more, once people start to care too much about someone, no matter what they do next, they will inevitably be overly cautious and overly suspicious.

I worry about too many things. I’m afraid of saying the wrong thing and I’m afraid that he’ll be annoyed. I don’t even have the courage to send him a message.

Because I was full of worries, and I couldn’t see Ning Yiheng, my work efficiency in the morning was extremely low, and I was absent-minded during my lunch break. I didn’t have the habit of taking a nap, so I took a lighter and went to the smoking area to smoke.

It just so happens that only Li Xiaoming was in the smoking area. There aren’t many male colleagues who smoke in the company; it’s basically reserved for us.

Li Xiaoming wasn’t like me full of worries. He swipes short videos of the β station on his phone while smoking.

I sat next to him, cleared my throat, and said, “Xiao Ming, I want to ask you something.”

I can’t delay it anymore, I have to make it clear to him immediately… I believe Ning Yiheng isn’t a person who hooks up with others, but if the doubts in my heart aren’t resolved, I’ll always have scruples in my heart, and I’ll never be able to take the first step to get close to Ning Yiheng.

The premise of chasing Ning Yiheng was that I’ll never be a third party.

Li Xiaoming paused the video and turned to look at me, “What’s the matter?”

Perhaps my expression was too grave, and Li Xiaoming’s eyes flashed as he said, “Cheng-ge, you wouldn’t really be that…?”

What I had been brewing for a long time was blocked back in my throat by Li Xiaoming. “What?”

Li Xiaoming said worriedly, “Have you gone to the hospital? What did the doctor say?”

Me: …

I said, “Let’s not mention this, I have more important things to tell you.”

Seeing that my tone was so solemn, Li Xiaoming also looked serious and said, “What happened? Is there anything I can do for you?”

I said solemnly, “I found out that I’m gay.”

“Ah?” Li Xiaoming immediately collapsed with a “That’s it” expression, “Cheng-ge, I already knew that.”

Oh, so he knew ah.

Hmm?? How did he know?? I’ve only realized I’m gay for less than a day and he’s already seen through it all?

Li Xiaoming was really a man with an enigmatic insight, I hid my fanfiction writing so well, but he was able to find it out.

I had wanted to start laying the groundwork from the fact that I was gay and steer it a little bit to Ning Yiheng, but now there seemed to be no need for a gradual steer.

I swallowed and thought of a bunch of euphemisms before finally opening my mouth and asking, “Xiao Ming, do you like Ning Yiheng?”

Li Xiaoming froze, and half of the cigarette butt in his hand fell to the ground.

For the sake of environmental hygiene, I picked it up for him and put the cigarette butt back between his fingers which had been motionless since I spoke.

I saw a myriad of complex expressions such as doubt, surprise, disgust, and even disbelief flashing across his face. This was the first time I had seen such a richly expressive Li Xiaoming.

Li Xiaoming was stuck for a long time because of my question, and it took a while before he finally said, “Are you crazy?”

I said, “Don’t you like Ning Yiheng?!”

Li Xiaoming looked at me with worried eyes and said, “Cheng-ge, is it because of ED1Erectyle Dysfunction. that your nerves are also affected?”

With my understanding of Li Xiaoming, he wasn’t such a good actor and wouldn’t act in front of me.

I said, “Then you guys were so close in the kitchen that day…”

Li Xiaoming interrupted me and said, “I feel guilty for talking about others’ personal matters behind my back ao. If you push the door in, it will be difficult for you to hear it.”

—It seems that Li Xiaoming and Ning Yiheng really have nothing to do, I misunderstood everything.

Obviously, the matter of two or three sentences went around in such a big circle.

I feel like before my wishful thinking, I didn’t take the initiative to make it clear to them like an idiot.

Seeing my sorrowful face, Li Xiaoming said again, “Nowadays, any man will have obstacles. If it’s a physical problem that affects their psychology, it’ll be okay if they’re treated properly. Don’t worry.”

I suspect that Li Xiaoming was making fun of me eccentrically, but his worries really don’t seem to be fake.

I sighed and said, “I’m not sick.”

Li Xiaoming added, “I don’t even like men ah. What makes you think I like Ning Yiheng?”

I was about to speak when he said again, “Forget it, it’s too disgusting. don’t talk tell me, I don’t want to hear it.”

Me: …

I changed the subject and said, “I only found out yesterday that Ning Yiheng seems to like me.”

Li Xiaoming was hardly surprised as he nodded his head.

Li Xiaoming was really too calm, so I couldn’t help but ask him, “I said our boss likes me, aren’t you surprised?”

Li Xiaoming stubbed out his cigarette butt with his bare hands and said, “Wow, I’m so surprised ah! Cheng-ge, what the hell is going on?”

This time I was sure he was making fun of me, but I still couldn’t find evidence.

The two of us went through the recent events truthfully, and I realized how much my thoughts deviated from normal people.

But Li Xiaoming was a straight man after all. He has never pursued anyone else, and he can’t give me too much advice. I have to figure out what to do next.

The two of us were chatting when we heard the door of the corridor creak, and a slender man came face-to-face.

Li Xiaoming and I immediately fell silent and sat up straight unconsciously.

The person who came was familiar, it was Ning Yiheng’s didi whom I had met at the dinner party. This person was dressed in a suit and had changed into a pair of eyeglasses, he looked to be a gentleman. He obviously didn’t look like he had come to smoke, nor did he look like he was going to smoke.

As he walked past, he drew a silk handkerchief from the pocket of his suit and elegantly covered his mouth and nose.

Apart from the greasy actions he had done to me before, he was still quite human just by looking at his face as he put on airs

Li Xiaoming doesn’t usually wear glasses, but his eyes still have a little degree. He narrowed his eyes and asked in a low voice, “Is boss here? Why do you look so puffed up?”

Since seeing Li Xiaoming, Ning Yiheng’s didi haven’t moved his eyes away. It wasn’t until he approached that he moved his eyes to me and said, “It’s been a long time since I saw you, Xiu Xiu, isn’t it time for us to be introduced?”

… We obviously just met yesterday.

After all, he was Ning Yiheng’s didi. I can only bite the bullet and introduce him, “Xiao Ming, this is Ning…”

I got stuck.

What was his name again? My mind was full of Ning Yiheng. I don’t remember his name after a long time. It seems to be Ning something Yu, it is something Yu…

Ning Yiheng, Ning Yiyu, it seems that there is nothing wrong with it.

“This is Mr. Ning Yiyu,“ I pretended to say calmly, “Mr. Ning is our boss’s didi.”

“This is Li Xiaoming, my colleague.”