Author: hoenimochi (Page 43 of 95)

       The wedding of Suo Yang and Shen Huiming was not held immediately. After some discussion, they decided to keep it as simple as possible.

       Neither of them liked to show off; they felt that making a big fuss was unnecessary. After all, this matter was ultimately about only the two of them. Moreover, Berlin was so far away, and their family and friends had their own lives. It wouldn’t make sense to insist that everyone should come to Berlin. If they didn’t do it in Berlin, there was even less reason to do it when they came back

       In addition, various procedures must be prepared to meet other people’s requirements as much as possible, which requires time and energy to prepare.

       After returning from Suo Yang’s hometown, the two of them started to be busy again; one was busy with the company, and the other started flying again.

       Both of them were busy like this until the Spring Festival¹around Chinese New Year. After Suo Yang’s flight arrangements were made, some people came to ask him to transfer their shifts again, and this time, Suo Yang refused.

       He smiled and said, “This year, I’ll be celebrating the New Year with my lover and his parents. I hope you understand; I feel a bit awkward about it.”

       He said ‘my lover’ openly, which surprised his colleagues.

       The news of Suo Yang’s relationship had long been spread in the company, but Song Kai, the only one who knew who his love partner was, didn’t say much, and everyone didn’t like to dig into other’s privacy. They just casually sighed that their idol had found his other half and moved on.

       But it was quite incredible to hear this from Suo Yang himself.

       The other party apologized to him, and Suo Yang smiled, “It’s okay, but I’m sorry, I can’t help you anymore.”

       “No, no, no, don’t say that,” his colleague said to him with a smile, “I wish you a Happy New Year in advance.”

       Suo Yang’s last flight before the New Year took him to New York. Upon his return, it was the morning of New Year’s Eve, and Shen Huiming drove directly to pick him up. They went to Suo Yang’s home first, did a quick cleanup, and around noon, they headed to Shen Huiming’s parents’ place.

       Shen Huiming once asked Suo Yang if he wanted to bring his parents over to celebrate the New Year, but Suo Yang refused after considering it.

       On the way to Shen Huiming’s parents’ house, the two went to the supermarket.

       Shen Huiming’s mother had previously sent him a long shopping list and asked them to buy it when they came back. She said, “With young manpower, of course, we need to make good use of it!”

       Two tall and handsome men with long legs, wearing the same style of black woollen coats, one was pushing a shopping cart from the supermarket, and the other was walking beside, looking at the list and mumbling something.

       Happy songs were playing in the supermarket, and there were long queues even to buy groceries and for the weighing of groceries.

       Suo Yang had never had such an experience. In his world, the Spring Festival was even more deserted than before. It was not until today that he really felt what it meant to be bustling.

       After the two of them finished shopping, one person came out with two big bags and put them in the trunk.

       Shen Huiming said, “My mom probably thinks that supermarkets won’t open before the fifteenth day of the Lunar New Year, right? Buying so many groceries, I wonder if we can finish eating them all.”

       Suo Yang was laughing next to him, feeling that this Spring Festival was really different.

       They went back to Shen Huiming’s parents’ place. After changing their coats, they started to work with his parents. They posted Spring Festival couplets when they should and prepared dishes when they should. Shen Huiming’s cooking skills were better than Suo Yang’s, so he was naturally the one in the kitchen. Suo Yang Yang followed Shen Huiming’s father and took Spring Festival couplets and tape, starting from the outside door, and finally pasted the word “福²good fortune/luck” on the door of the refrigerator at home.

       Shen Huiming’s father checked it with satisfaction, confirmed that nothing was missing, and went to make tea with satisfaction.

       Suo Yang thought this family was really cute. He stood there and looked at the red word “福” on the refrigerator and smiled.

       A family of four made ten dishes and one soup.

       While watching the Spring Festival Gala, Shen Huiming’s mother suddenly slapped her thigh, “I almost forgot about something important!”

       She went back to the bedroom and took out four pairs of red socks.

       Shen Huiming smiled. “None of the four of us are born in the same year. Is it necessary?”

       “Of course, it is necessary!” Shen Huiming’s mother showed them the soles of the socks, “Step on the evil spirits, put them on, put them all on³Wearing red socks during Chinese New Year is a tradition believed to bring good luck and ward off evil spirits. Red is considered an auspicious colour in Chinese culture, symbolizing happiness, good fortune, and prosperity..”

       Suo Yang took it with a smile, said thank you and put it on immediately.

       Shen Huiming complained on the side, “Mom, you are really…forget it, I won’t say it anymore.”

       “Then don’t say anything. Look how obedient Suo Yang is.” Shen Huiming’s mother watched the three grown men put on their red socks and said, “Step on the evil spirits!”

       Suo Yang laughed out loud while leaning against Shen Huiming and stamped his feet as hard as he could.

       “Okay, okay,” Shen Huiming took Suo Yang to the balcony, “They can look for us downstair later. Want to go to the balcony for some fresh air? It’s a bit stuffy inside.”

       The two went to the balcony and opened the window a small gap.

       “How’s it going? You don’t feel uncomfortable, do you?”

       Suo Yang shook his head and leaned slightly against Shen Huiming.

       Shen Huiming stood firm and let him lean on him.

       “I’m very happy,” Suo Yang said, “I’ve never spent the Spring Festival like this.”

       Shen Huiming held his hand, and the two stood on the balcony, looking at the night sky outside the window. The two red lanterns hanging on the balcony reflected their faces red.

       “We’ll do this every year from now on, just don’t find it annoying.”

       Why is it annoying? Suo Yang turned around and saw Shen Huiming’s parents sitting on the sofa, eating melon seeds and watching the Spring Festival Gala.

       “Let’s make dumplings together later?” Shen Huiming asked, “Can you make dumplings?”

       “Never wrapped one, but I can try.”

       When it was almost ten o’clock, the family of four sat together again to make dumplings. Shen Huiming was in charge of teaching Suo Yang and asked him to put candy in the dumplings.

       Shen Huiming said, “This is a tradition. Whoever eats this candy will have a sweet life in the coming year.”

       In the end, none of the four people got to eat it.

       Because Suo Yang put sugar in the dumplings he made, as a novice, some of the dumplings broke open while cooking, and sugar cubes fell into the dumpling soup.

       Shen Huiming’s mother said, “Do you know what this means?”

       Shen Huiming asked, “What?”

       “It means that everyone in our family will be happy in the coming year.” Shen Huiming’s mother said with a smile, “It’s good, it’s a good sign!”

       It was a good sign indeed.

       Suo Yang looked at Shen Huiming and thought, in fact, the sweet life had already begun.

====

       Suo Yang and Shen Huiming finally embarked on a journey to Berlin together at the end of spring. It was more difficult than they imagined to get many things done, but fortunately, no matter how long it took, everything was finally ready.

       This time, they would fly together. Suo Yang was not sitting next to Shen Huiming as a flight attendant but as an ordinary passenger.

       When boarding the plane, Shen Huiming asked him with a smile, “Isn’t this a wonderful feeling? When you meet a flight attendant you know later and ask what you’re doing, what would you say?”

       “Going to get married.” Suo Yang replied calmly while checking his passport and air ticket.

       This answer was very helpful to Shen Huiming. He directly raised his hand, put his arm around Suo Yang’s shoulders and walked inside.

       However, when he was approaching the door of the cabin, Shen Huiming lowered his arms. He was also shy.

       From here, they flew to Berlin, with a brief stopover in Moscow on the way.

       This route once witnessed the beginning of their story. It was still autumn at that time, and the violent storm in Moscow left them there. But speaking of it now, both of them were somewhat grateful for that ‘accident’ because of that night they had the opportunity to get closer to each other.

       To this day, Suo Yang still remembers what Shen Huiming said to him that night.

       [Because you are Suo Yang, you are unique and perfect enough.]

       And how could he not think the same when he looked at Shen Huiming now?

       Because it was Shen Huiming, he was unique enough, perfect enough, and enough for him to love and appreciate for a lifetime.

       As he sat on the plane, Suo Yang suddenly fell into a trance. For a moment, he felt as if his consciousness had withdrawn from his body as if a bystander was watching him and Shen Huiming.

       He saw the two of them sitting closely together, so close that he couldn’t hear what they were saying.

       He couldn’t hear it but could feel it.

       He could feel that every word and every sentence was filled with the fragrance of flowers, light and refreshing, blooming high in the spring sky.

       By the time Suo Yang came to his senses, their plane had already taken off.

       Shen Huiming held his hand, and the two soared into the sky together again.

       At 30,000 feet high, there must be something fiddling with their fates, causing them to meet and integrating them into each other’s lives.

       Suo Yang looked out the window as they gradually moved away from the city where they lived, heading to the next place with overflowing love to bear witness to their love that began in the blue sky.

       After more than ten hours of flight, they watched the sun rise, the moon set, and the stars.

       When arriving in Berlin, Suo Yang said, “I don’t want to wait any longer.”

       The two went directly from the airport to go through the formalities and get the certificate. What surprised Suo Yang was that when he got the marriage certificate, he was not as excited as expected, it was as if everything was as it should be.

       He was supposed to fall in love with Shen Huiming, be with Shen Huiming, marry Shen Huiming and spend his life together.

       A man who had never yearned for or had any hope for marriage now felt that his marriage to Shen Huiming was necessary and essential.

       “Let’s go to the church.” The two held hands and returned to the small church where they had attended a stranger’s wedding together.

       This time, there was no one else, not even the priest, but God was everywhere, and the God of Love was everywhere.

       With their fingers clasped together, they solemnly entered the church. They walked past the empty rows of seats and walked to the cross.

       They didn’t have any faith, but they believed in love.

       The two of them stood here, just looking at each other and letting each other listen to their own heartbeats.

       Shen Huiming knelt down on one knee first and took out the ring that he had prepared for a long time.

       “Mr. Suo Yang, are you willing to spend the rest of your life with Mr. Shen Huiming?”

       Suo Yang looked at him with a smile, “I do.”

       Shen Huiming put the ring on him, and then Suo Yang did the same to him.

       “Mr. Shen Huiming, are you willing to grow old together with Mr. Suo Yang?”

       “I do,” Shen Huiming looked at him and let the other person put on a wedding ring for him. Then the two hugged and kissed. Shen Huiming said in Suo Yang’s ear, “How about we also make plans for the next life while we’re at it? I always feel like a few decades in this life won’t be enough for me to love you completely.”

       Suo Yang was silent for a moment, rested his chin on his shoulder, smiled silently, and then said against his ear, “Okay, Cupid said he understood.”

【The End】

The author has something to say:

It’s over, no extras because I feel like there’s nothing left to write.

The funny story of Jiang Tongyan and his little dance partner “Love Scammer Qian Xiaoke” is being serialized, and “Song of Glass” will be released later. If you pass by and are interested, you can bookmark it~ Now I’m bowing manually, and goodbye~

Thank you on 2020-06-11 06:01:42~2020-06-12 06:04:44 The little angel who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Notes:
That’s it!
This is the end~
There’s actually someone doing the extra of Jiang Tongyan and the little dance partner, but if you guys wanted me to also do it, please leave some comments below and if there are a lot of people interested doing it, I’ll contact the previous translator and asked if I’m allowed to take over the project or they would be interested in finishing it themselves

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~

       The knot that had been suppressed in his heart for many years finally untangled. Even if the development of the whole thing was completely different from what Suo Yang expected, at least he understood his parents’ intentions and knew that he was not completely abandoned.

       When he walked out of the bank with Shen Huiming, he felt lighter. The most difficult problem for him had been solved, and all that was left was to enjoy life and love.

       Suo Yang called home, pretending to tell them that he and Shen Huiming would go back tomorrow but actually hinting to them that he already knew everything.

       His parents were not good at expressing their emotions, and Suo Yang couldn’t explain them too clearly. Nevertheless, after the phone call, there was a sense that mutual burdens had been lifted from their hearts.

       After that, Suo Yang took Shen Huiming back to his school. However, the guard refused to let them in at all.

       The two walked around the outside of the campus and looked inside through the iron railings, at the snow-covered lawn and the students still wearing thin uniforms playing ball in the winter.

       In the past, Shen Huiming took Suo Yang to see the mark of his youth. Now, Suo Yang finally had the opportunity to show Shen Huiming the place where he grew up.

       Shen Huiming suddenly smiled, “Tell me, if we had known each other since childhood, would you have fallen in love with me earlier?”

       Suo Yang glanced at him and asked with a smile, “Do you want to hear the truth or lies to make you happy?”

       “Tsk, how could you ask such a question!” Shen Huiming looked at him helplessly, “How can I answer if you ask that?”

       “If it were someone else, I wouldn’t even consider it. But if that person is you, let alone early love, it would be great if our engagement were settled before we were born,” Suo Yang said and then playfully asked him, “Mr. Shen, are you satisfied with that response?”

       Shen Huiming didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, “Okay, I understand, this sentence is a lie to make me happy.”

       Suo Yang smiled and then suddenly took his hand.

       The two grown men were walking hand in hand on the roadside. Occasionally, passers-by would pass by and peek at them with their peripheral vision.

       In winter, when their hands were exposed to the air, the backs of their hands would soon become cold, but the palms of their hands were warm when they were held together, and no one wanted to let go.

       They wandered outside until dark. Shen Huiming asked him to choose a restaurant that he often went to before and then go back to the hotel after dinner. Suo Yang said, “There is no restaurant that I often go to. I used to go home to eat. Besides, after so many years, I feel a bit unfamiliar with this place…”

       In fact, Suo Yang felt that it was a bit regretful. It had been almost ten years since he went to college.

       In the ten years since he left home, this city had not changed much, but if it really hadn’t changed, Suo Yang still felt that it had become unfamiliar.

       The other side was still the other side, but this hometown was no longer his hometown.

       This was probably a feeling that everyone living outside would have—a perpetual sense of wandering. Even if one bought a house and settled down in a certain city, one still couldn’t get rid of that feeling.

       But fortunately, his Shen Huiming could make him feel at ease.

       Shen Huiming could probably understand how Suo Yang was feeling at this moment. He took the other person’s hand, held it in both hands, held it like it was a treasure, and rubbed it while exhaling, “It’s cold.”

       Suo Yang looked at him with a smile, leaned forward slightly, and pressed his face against the cold back of Shen Huiming’s hand.

       “It’s so cold.” Suo Yang said.

       Shen Huiming muttered, “Yeah, let’s just find a restaurant with a heater.”

       He said, “Don’t freeze.”

       Suo Yang looked at him and smiled, taking his hand into a nearby old restaurant.

       Although it was a randomly selected restaurant, the taste was pretty good. The two of them had a good time eating, and the chill on their bodies was gone. Afterwards, they returned to the hotel and lay down early, but Suo Yang was not sleepy at all.

       He was held by Shen Huiming and looked at the ceiling with his eyes open.

       Shen Huiming was careful and knew that he was not asleep, so he raised his hand and turned on the lamp beside the bed.

       “Did I disturb you?” Suo Yang asked softly.

       Shen Huiming leaned over and kissed him, “Your breathing is very light. It’s strange that you can disturb me.”

       The two were lying on the bed, leaning against each other. Shen Huiming said, “Can’t sleep?”

       “Well,” Suo Yang said, “My mind is a little confused.”

       He was wondering if he should go home and visit before leaving tomorrow.

       “Before we leave tomorrow, let’s go back one more time.” Shen Huiming seemed to be able to read his mind. “Say goodbye, and bring some gifts for Uncle and Auntie. I went there empty-handed today; it feels a bit awkward.”

       Suo Yang closed his eyes and leaned his face against Shen Huiming’s chest.

       “Huiming.”

       “Huh?” Shen Huiming kissed Suo Yang’s forehead gently.

       “Why did I meet you?”

       Shen Huiming lowered his eyes to look at him and heard him say, “All along, I have never felt that I have been particularly bad or good luck; everything is ordinary to the point of not being worth mentioning, but this time, my luck was particularly good.”

       Shen Huiming smiled, “Who wouldn’t? I was lucky enough to meet you.”

       Suo Yang looked up at him, suddenly raised his legs, turned over, and sat on Shen Huiming.

       “Want to compare luck with me?” Suo Yang put her hands on his shoulders, “Then you really can’t beat me.”

       After saying that, he leaned forward and kissed Shen Huiming on the lips, “I can’t sleep anyway, so let’s do something to help me sleep.”

       Suo Yang turned off the desk lamp in the hotel room, and the quilt was lifted up to wrap the two of them.

       They didn’t know when it started snowing again outside, but it was warm inside the room.

======

       Before Suo Yang and Shen Huiming left, they returned to Suo Yang’s house again. This time, Shen Huiming was holding gifts in both hands, which the two spent the whole morning carefully selecting.

       Suo Yang’s parents were both here, and they were a little surprised to see them back.

       However, their behaviour was not much different from yesterday. They were still cold and untalkative, but Suo Yang kept smiling.

       Shen Huiming saw that Suo Yang was in a good mood; he was also happy, and he treated Suo Yang’s parents more enthusiastically.

       In fact, the most fearful thing was guessing the other person’s thoughts. When Shen Huiming knew that Suo Yang’s parents had actually accepted them, he felt less pressure.

       Each family had its own style of getting along with each other. He had no position to judge what was good or bad, and there was no need to integrate fully. He only needed to do what he should do.

       The two didn’t stay at Suo Yang’s house for too long. It was almost time, and they were ready to go to the train station.

       When they stood up, Suo Yang’s father said, “It snowed last night, and the road is not good today.”

       Shen Huiming glanced at Suo Yang and then heard his father say, “I’ll give you a ride.”

       Suo Yang smiled, and Shen Huiming smiled with him, “Thank you, Uncle! I’ll trouble you then.”

       Suo Yang’s parents followed them out the door and accompanied them to the train station.

       Along the way, Suo Yang’s parents didn’t say anything. Shen Huiming sat in the back with Suo Yang. He kept talking about their lives and work. It seemed like he was chatting with Suo Yang, but in fact, he was talking about Suo Yang. The two people in front listened.

       Shen Huiming felt that the parents of these children must be the type who wanted to ask but couldn’t and wanted to care but didn’t know where to start, so it would be better to help them.

       He talked happily later, telling everything about how he and Suo Yang met and what his plans were. Suo Yang naturally understood what he meant and didn’t stop him, and even occasionally said a few words.

       When they arrived at the train station, Suo Yang’s parents did not follow them in. They parked the car on the side of the road and watched the children get out of the car.

       At this moment, Suo Yang suddenly felt like he was back in his college days. At that time, his father would send him here every time, and then he would go to get the ticket and enter the station alone.

       Suo Yang often left without looking back. He never thought about what would happen to his father after he left. But once, he was almost at the ticket office and walked a long way. When he turned around, he found his father still standing there looking at him.

       They never said they missed each other, let alone try to stay. If he wanted to leave, his parents would always send him off calmly and tell him to do everything he should do.

       It wasn’t until the moment Suo Yang turned around that he realised that his parents couldn’t let him go either.

       After so many years, he still remembered that scene clearly.

       He and Shen Huiming were standing by the car. Suo Yang’s mother said, “Go, take care of your things and don’t leave them behind.”

       Suo Yang was silent for a few seconds and then said, “Mom, can I give you a hug?”

       Shen Huiming looked at Suo Yang and found that his eyes were red.

       Suo Yang’s mother, who was still in the car, was stunned for a moment when she heard her son’s words. After that, she got out of the car and hugged her son.

       Suo Yang’s family rarely behaved like this towards each other. Suo Yang couldn’t even remember the last time he hugged his parents.

       “Dad…” Suo Yang finished hugging his mother and looked at his father.

       The father in the driver’s seat finally got out of the car and walked up to his son. The two hugged each other tight.

       When leaving, Suo Yang’s mother’s eyes were red. Suo Yang said, “We will come back to see you in a while.”

       Shen Huiming said, “Uncle and Auntie, don’t worry, we will live a good life.”

       Living a good life with your lover and doing a job you like was probably the life that parents most wanted their children to live.

       “Let’s go.” Suo Yang’s mother said, “It’s too late to wait any longer.”

       Suo Yang couldn’t hold it back and went over to hug her again and then left with Shen Huiming.

       On the train back, Suo Yang fell asleep leaning on Shen Huiming’s shoulder. This time, he slept soundly and even had a dream.

       In the dream, he and Shen Huiming held a wedding in his hometown. It was a simple ceremony, but everyone, including family, lovers, and friends, was present.

       Under the blue sky and on the green grass, he and Shen Huiming were wearing the same style of suit. They held flowers at the same time and walked to the front side by side. They faced each other, faced their friends and relatives, faced the sky and the future.

       In the dream, the two swore an oath tacitly. Suo Yang couldn’t hear what was said, but it didn’t matter if he couldn’t hear it. He could understand everything from everyone’s expressions.

       His lover truly loved him, their family members truly wished them well, and their friends truly celebrated them.

       What could be more beautiful than this?

       When Suo Yang opened his eyes, the train was still speeding. Outside the window was the snow-covered land, and his hand was being held by Shen Huiming.

       “Awake?”

       “Yeah.” Suo Yang said, “I dreamed about our wedding.”

The author has something to say:
Thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution between 2020-06-10 06:04:36~2020-06-11 06:01:41~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Notes:
1 more chapter let’s gooo

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~

       Because he had prepared for the worst before coming here, any slight concession from the other side was an unexpected surprise for Suo Yang.

       The two of them had obviously returned to Suo Yang’s home, but they were as reserved as strangers.

       They stood at the door awkwardly, not knowing which way to go, just waiting for the owner to give them orders.

       “Go wash your hands.”

       Suo Yang’s mother came out of the kitchen and pointed in the direction of the bathroom.

       So, the two grown men walked to the bathroom in a polite manner, not daring to say a word during the process.

       Shen Huiming was very curious. He didn’t know whether the atmosphere in Suo Yang’s family was originally like this or whether it became like this after he came out of the closet. If it had always been like this, it would have been too depressing.

       While washing his hands, Suo Yang glanced at Shen Huiming in the mirror and then said softly, “They are like this most of the time.”

       Shen Huiming looked at him in surprise.

       Suo Yang didn’t say much because he was worried about being overheard by his parents. Some words were better said by the two of them alone.

       After washing their hands, the two of them were called to sit down at the dining table and prepare to eat.

       This meal made Shen Huiming very stressed. Although Suo Yang’s parents did not show too much attention to him, the feeling was worse than being ‘checked on the household registration’.

       From beginning to end, Shen Huiming was only asked three questions.

       First question: What do you do for a living?

       Second question: Where do you live?

       The third question: What do your parents think of their relationship?

       Shen Huiming answered each one seriously, “I have a small company of my own, and the current profits are pretty good.”

       “My hometown is the city where Suo Yang lives now. I went to university and postgraduate school abroad, and now I live separately from my parents after I came back.”

       “I told my family about my sexual orientation a long time ago. My parents have also met Suo Yang and they like him very much.”

       With every question and answer, Shen Huiming felt like he was in an interview.

       When they were talking, Suo Yang never said a word. He just sat and ate silently, listening to their conversation.

       As for Suo Yang, he had not been back for many years, and there was no excitement or joy in the family of three’s reunion.

       Suo Yang rarely took the initiative to find topics in front of his parents. He only asked a few questions about how they were doing and how their work was going. His parents’ answers were simple, like a simple conversation with an unfamiliar person.

       Shen Huiming felt quite uncomfortable when he heard this, but after all, he was in someone else’s home, and he couldn’t say anything more, so he could only suppress his distress for the time being.

       After Suo Yang asked about their current situation, his parents also asked him back, their tone still flat to a bit indifferent.

       Suo Yang’s father asked him, “Is work going well?”

       “Well, I have been flying international flights for several years. I have been upgraded to first class, and my salary is better than before.”

       Suo Yang’s mother asked him, “You haven’t encountered any difficulties in life, right?”

       “No, everything is fine.” Suo Yang paused and then said, “There are no difficulties, but there are quite a few good things.”

       Shen Huiming saw the two people sitting across from him pause with their hands holding chopsticks, and he also turned to look at Suo Yang.

       Suo Yang was calm, and his expression and tone did not change when he spoke. He talked about things between him and Shen Huiming as if casually discussing the weather with his parents, “Huiming and I are in the process of completing all the necessary procedures. Once everything is in order, we plan to get married in Berlin.”

       Shen Huiming suddenly felt a little panicked. He felt that Suo Yang’s parents were obviously not willing to accept their relationship, so it was better not to mention it now and take things slowly in the future.

       But in fact, Suo Yang was their son after all and knew them better than Shen Huiming.

       If they didn’t accept them, they wouldn’t be allowed in today at all.

       Suo Yang knew that his parents were the type of people who couldn’t express their emotions, or in other rather, they were unwilling to. Instead of displaying joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness on their faces and exposing all their emotions, they preferred to conceal their true thoughts.

       In fact, Suo Yang was like this before; only he displayed a false affability to others while they showed indifference.

       At the end of the day, it’s all the same thing.

       If it weren’t for Shen Huiming, Suo Yang might have ended up like his parents, who deliberately hid their emotions and feelings at first, and in the end, the ability to feel and express them gradually deteriorated.

       Suo Yang said, “My life has never been too bad, and there weren’t any exceptionally good things either. But after meeting Huiming, good things have been happening continuously.”

       The two people opposite were eating and listening without making any comments.

       Suo Yang stopped talking after saying this. His heart was beating fast, but nothing was abnormal on the surface.

       Shen Huiming was convinced of this family. If he was allowed to live in such an atmosphere, he may become depressed in just a few days, let alone a few years.

       “I understand.” Suo Yang’s mother finally responded.

       In this way, after finishing the meal in such an awkward and delicate atmosphere and putting down his chopsticks, Shen Huiming originally planned to help clean up, but then he heard Suo Yang’s father asking what time they would drive back.

       This was simply an eviction order.

       Suo Yang said, “We have booked a hotel for tomorrow.”

       They walked to the door, and the first meeting between Shen Huiming and Suo Yang’s parents was coming to an end.

       It might as well be over, Shen Huiming thought; if this continued, he almost didn’t know if he should breathe.

       When the two of them changed their shoes and were about to go out, Suo Yang’s father stopped them.

       “Wait a minute.” Suo Yang’s father entered the house and came out soon, holding a bank card in his hand.

       “The money you transferred over the years.” Suo Yang’s father handed the card to him, “We haven’t touched any of it. The password is your birthday.”

       Shen Huiming frowned subconsciously.

       Suo Yang also frowned at the same time. He never thought that in the end, he would be stabbed in the heart.

       He thought that the door of the house had opened for him, and even if there was no warm hug, at least it had begun to relax. But it turned out that he was overthinking it.

       He was stunned but finally took the bank card.

       Suo Yang left with Shen Huiming, went downstairs and walked out of the community without looking back.

       In the winter afternoon, the sunshine was actually gentle, but Suo Yang felt somewhat cold.

       He walked quickly outside the neighbourhood, not even having the extra energy to see if Shen Huiming was following him.

       After exiting the neighbourhood gate and turning a corner, Suo Yang walked into the alley and squatted down with his back against the wall.

       Shen Huiming had never seen him like this before, and he felt as much pain as if he had been on a torture device.

       He went over, squatted next to Suo Yang, and gently stroked Suo Yang’s hair.

       In winter, the white mist they exhaled swirled around, and Shen Huiming suddenly felt that it was very cold today. If Suo Yang cried here, his tears would probably freeze.

       But Suo Yang didn’t cry. He just squatted there for a while and then grabbed Shen Huiming’s hand.

       His head was buried in his arms, and his hands held Shen Huiming tightly.

       Shen Huiming stayed with him quietly, watching him, waiting for him to slowly adjust his emotions.

       Suo Yang said before that there was nothing too bad in his life, but Shen Huiming knew it, so he just didn’t say it.

       In this way, the two of them squatted at the alley entrance for a long time until their legs became numb.

       They helped each other stand up, and Suo Yang smiled, “We seem to be in our seventies.”

       Shen Huiming saw him smiling, but he couldn’t breathe a sigh of relief. He hugged him over distressedly and leaned against the wall together to relieve the soreness and numbness in his legs.

       “There is a bank in front.” Suo Yang said, “Come with me.”

       Shen Huiming looked at him doubtfully.

       Suo Yang put his hand in his pocket and held the bank card, “If they don’t want this money, then so be it. I’ll transfer it to my own account, and maybe I can make an early payment on the mortgage for the house.”

       He spoke very softly, and every word drifted away with the white mist he exhaled.

       However, these words were particularly weighty and weighed heavily on Shen Huiming’s heart.

       “Where will you take me to reminisce about your youth later?” Shen Huiming took his hand and walked towards the bank, deliberately changing the subject.

       “Go to my school, my high school,” Suo Yang said, “go to the big tree where I was confessed to by a girl, and confess your love to me again.”

       Shen Huiming smiled and nodded, “Okay, as long as I can get in, I can confess my love ten thousand times.”

       Both of them laughed, but their hearts were sour.

       Suo Yang and the others went to the bank’s self-service deposit and withdrawal machine. He just didn’t want to keep the card because it was hard to look at.

       However, when he inserted the card and entered the password, he found that everything was not the case.

       The money in this card was far more than what he had transferred to his parents in the past few years, even several times more.

       “What’s wrong?” Shen Huiming stood behind him. After waiting for a while, he found that Suo Yang was standing there motionless. He was a little worried and went up to ask.

       “Huiming,” Suo Yang said to Shen Huiming, staring at the balance above, “they lied to me.”

       “What?”

       “This is not just the money I transferred to them.” Suo Yang choked up when he said this. “The money I transferred in the past few years has only been tens of thousands, but here is 300,000.”

       This time, Shen Huiming was also confused.

       “You read that right?”

       Suo Yang pulled him over, “Look.”

       Shen Huiming glanced at the screen, frowned and said, “It’s true.”

       When he turned his head, he found tears on Suo Yang’s face.

       “I still misunderstood them.” Suo Yang raised his hand, wiped the tears from his face, and said with a smile, “They still want me.”

       Seeing him like this, Shen Huiming couldn’t hold himself any longer and went over to hug him in his arms.

       Shen Huiming didn’t know what to say at all. He couldn’t criticize Suo Yang’s parents because they were his lover’s family after all, but it was undeniable that the way they expressed their feelings was really not acceptable. He didn’t know if it was a knife or candy.

       Shen Huiming was so distressed that he hugged Suo Yang tightly and gently stroked his back, “Yes, they have figured it out.”

       Suo Yang closed his eyes and bit Shen Huiming’s shoulder.

       He tried his best not to cry out, but the more he tried to restrain himself, the more he couldn’t control himself.

       He was so uncomfortable; he had suppressed it for so many years, and it could finally be released today.

       The knot that was about to strangle him was finally untied today.

       Suo Yang didn’t blame his parents at all because he understood them, and actions that were incomprehensible to others actually had a sense of grace to Suo Yang.

       It was already good to be like this.

       Suo Yang bit Shen Huiming’s shoulder and still cried.

The author has something to say:
Thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution between 2020-06-09 06:04:17~2020-06-10 06:04:36~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Notes:
It’ll be nice if the parents change, but I really doubt it. The fact that most parents are like this breaks my heart, and the fact that nowadays, most children just don’t want to understand their parents breaks my heart even more. Some parents are awkward as hell in showing emotions, and that’s just… how they are…
But I think the parents knew about Suo Yang’s plane accident…

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~

       Suo Yang rang the doorbell with a sense of impending failure. He was prepared for the worst, but he was still inevitably nervous.

       Even if he was prepared, even if he told himself over and over again that failure was expected, it was still undeniable that there was a glimmer of expectation sprouting that he couldn’t hold back.

       Suo Yang stood upright at the door. This reminded him of a time when he failed an exam when he was in middle school. When he arrived at the door of his house, holding the paper in his hand, he was frozen and did not dare to enter. Later, his father came back from outside and took him back to the house with him.

       At that time, he was worried about being scolded by his parents because he failed the exam, but in fact, the scolding he thought did not come, and his parents just told him to work hard next time.

       Suo Yang knew that sometimes he liked to scare himself, and he prayed silently, hoping that this time would be just like that.

       During the few seconds he waited, he didn’t even dare to breathe hard.

       Finally, the sound of walking inside the door sounded again. He could hear that the other party was walking very slowly but still came to the door.

       He listened to the sound of the door lock being opened, and he trembled involuntarily. He didn’t want to appear so worthless at all. He wished he could straighten his back and stand in front of his parents and tell them that he was living a good life and had a good job, that he had a great boyfriend, and that he missed them.

       However, his throat seemed to be choked by something, and his lips were trembling.

       The door was finally opened, and Suo Yang stepped back a little.

       Inside and outside the door, the two were less than one meter apart. The mother and son had not seen each other face to face for many years.

       Suo Yang originally thought he could greet this moment calmly, but when the moment finally arrived, he understood that no matter what kind of quarrels had occurred in this family, he was still looking forward to returning.

       He had never been a person who cared much about others. Before meeting Shen Huiming, he felt that the only thing he could not let go of was his parents and this family.

       He hadn’t taken a good look at the woman in front of me in a few years. At first glance, she didn’t seem to have changed much. But if he looked closely, he could see that there was fatigue in her eyebrows.

       Suo Yang knew his mother very well. No matter whether she was outside or at home, she would always take care of herself cleanly and neatly, without even a trace of her hair being messy. Their whole family was like this. In their minds, No matter how they were, they should not expose their flaws to outsiders. Even if they were completely defeated internally, one must pretend that nothing happened.

       They had long been accustomed to disguise.

       However, just as Shen Huiming could discover Suo Yang’s true heart, Suo Yang could also see the changes in his mother over the past few years.

       That feeling of exhaustion not only comes from the body but also from the heart.

       Suo Yang could guess why.

       The two people stood at the door, and neither of them spoke at first.

       Suo Yang didn’t know why his mother just looked at him and said nothing. As for himself, he couldn’t speak.

       He was afraid that he would cry as soon as he opened his mouth.

       He had been taught since he was a child not to cry, not to cry when anything happened. One time, his father even told him, “Even if your mother and I die in the future, you can’t cry at the funeral. Do you understand?”

       But Suo Yang had already made an exception.

       On that New Year’s Eve a few years ago, he left home crying.

       On that evening a few days ago, he hugged Shen Huiming at the airport and cried silently.

       He didn’t understand it before, but now he understood that tears were just the truest expression of emotion and many times, he couldn’t control it at all. But in front of his parents, he still hoped that he would show what they wanted to see as much as possible, so he endured it, trying to hold back the tears.

       Suo Yang took a few seconds to calm down and look normal.

       He said, “Mom.”

       The woman standing inside the door looked at him as if she was looking at someone she had known before but hadn’t seen for many years.

       Not cold, but not warm either.

       However, this was similar to the scene Suo Yang expected.

       “Why are you back?” The question was also very calm, as if Suo Yang had just gone to study at a university in another place and suddenly returned home without telling them beforehand.

       Suo Yang stood there, and he could vaguely feel the answer he wanted from the other party’s attitude.

       The answer… There was still no answer.

       He still couldn’t enter this home.

       In this case, he didn’t plan to stay too long. He would leave quickly after saying what he wanted to say.

       “I miss you guys very much.” Suo Yang said, “I have come back secretly in the past few years. I don’t dare to meet any of you. I always hide and inquire, taking a glimpse at you before leaving.”

       His mother didn’t speak; she just stood there and looked at him calmly.

       “Maybe you’re still angry, but there’s nothing I can do about it.” Suo Yang lowered his head, took a deep breath, and then lifted his head to look at her. “Mom, originally, I didn’t have the courage to stand here, but… I have a boyfriend now. In a while, we are planning to get married. He is the most perfect man I’ve ever met in my life, and we want to be together for the rest of our lives. This is a good thing, the happiest thing for me in many years. I wish I could tell you personally.”

       Suo Yang watched his mother frown.

       “I don’t expect you to accept it, but as your son, I still want to share my happiness with you. I just hope you know that, whether I’m gay or straight, whether I’m by your side or not, you are the people I respect and care about the most.” Suo Yang said, “I sincerely appreciate your care and upbringing over the years, and I genuinely hope to be a son who makes you proud, someone who can take care of you and repay you. However, there are many things we cannot change. I am gay, I am attracted to men, and I am about to marry a man I deeply love. This is my reality, and it is something that cannot and will not change.”

       Suo Yang didn’t know when he started to cry. It was only when he saw his mother turn to go into the house and come back again with a tissue in her hand that he realised that the tears had even wet the front of his coat.

       He had never cried like this, not even when he and Shen Huiming hugged each other at the airport that day because of the aftermath of the disaster.

       Suo Yang’s mother still had a cold expression but handed her son a tissue.

       This surprised Suo Yang.

       “Wipe your tears,” she said, “and don’t stand at my door crying.”

       It wasn’t exactly heartwarming words, but it still meant a lot to Suo Yang.

       He took the tissue, and his hands were shaking as he wiped his tears.

       “Why are you so thin?”

       Before Suo Yang finished wiping her tears, his mother suddenly said in a cold voice, “Didn’t you find a boyfriend? Is this how you live your life?”

       Suo Yang looked at her in disbelief because, to him, these words sounded a concern.

       “I…am okay.” Suo Yang didn’t know what to say for a moment. He was completely unprepared to be cared for by his mother.

       “Have you eaten?” His mother looked at him with a cold expression, “Come in if you haven’t eaten.”

       She turned around and walked into the house, stopped after two steps, turned back and asked him, “Did you bring that boyfriend of yours back?”

       Suo Yang just stood there and didn’t dare to move. He was holding the wet tissue in his hand, and he was still at a loss.

       While he was standing there stupidly, Shen Huiming, who had been listening and waiting, quickly went upstairs.

       Shen Huiming walked behind Suo Yang and bowed slightly, “Hello, Auntie, my name is Shen Huiming.”

       He obviously saw Suo Yang’s mother frowning, but Shen Huiming didn’t particularly care. He had been prepared for potential ridicule when he followed Suo Yang here, and he was even prepared to be beaten.

       However, Shen Huiming felt that there was a low chance that Suo Yang’s parents would hit him. You could often gauge the temperament of parents from their children. He didn’t think Suo Yang’s parents would be the kind to hit people.

       No matter what the other person’s attitude towards him, Shen Huiming would definitely smile today.

       Suo Yang’s mother stood there and looked at Shen Huiming. Before she could speak, a voice came from the room.

       “Who is it?” Suo Yang’s father came out of the house with a spoon in his hand.

       When he saw the child at the door, he was also startled and then stood up straight.

       Suo Yang, “Dad.”

       Suo Yang’s mother turned to his father and said, “He brought a boyfriend back.”

       Suo Yang’s father looked past the two people in the middle, and his eyes fell on Shen Huiming.

       “Hello, Uncle.” Shen Huiming introduced himself again, “My name is Shen Huiming, and I am Suo Yang’s… lover.”

       There was another moment of silence, and Shen Huiming suddenly understood that every family has its own style, and the atmosphere in Suo Yang’s family really made him nervous, tense and embarrassed.

       There were rare moments when Shen Huiming felt uncomfortable. After so many years of doing business, he had encountered all kinds of people and situations, and theoretically, he shouldn’t be afraid of any circumstance. However, it was evident that this time, he was facing a challenging situation.

       But having said that, the reason why it was a challenging situation was only because they were Suo Yang’s parents, and Shen Huiming needed to be more cautious and attentive when facing them.

       He knew very well that he would probably never become a well-liked person in this family, but at least he had to let them know that Suo Yang being with him was something they could trust.

       Suo Yang’s father looked at the two people outside the door carefully and finally said, “Come in and eat.”

       After saying that, he turned and returned to the kitchen.

       Suo Yang and the others still didn’t dare to move, but Suo Yang’s mom urged, “Come in if you want to eat, or close the door and leave.”

       She turned around and walked towards the kitchen. Shen Huiming immediately took Suo Yang’s hand and pulled him into the house.

       The two of them stood in the entrance hall, looking at each other. Suo Yang’s mom suddenly turned around and said, “There are slippers in the shoe cabinet.”

       When she saw the two people holding hands together, she frowned slightly but didn’t say anything else and walked away.

       Suo Yang changed shoes with Shen Huiming, took two steps forward, stood at the entrance and looked into the house.

       All the furnishings had not changed. They were the same as they were when Suo Yang left that year, and they are still the same now.

       Shen Huiming was behind him, raising his hand and gently stroking his back, “It’s quite good. We’ve all entered the door.”

       Suo Yang turned to look at him, nodded, and said softly, “Yes, this is much better than I expected.”

The author has something to say:
Thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution between 2020-06-08 06:02:12~2020-06-09 06:04:17~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Notes:
My tears flowed like crazy when translating this chapter. It wasn’t even sad, but I really feel glad Suo Yang’s parents are not the type to throw tantrums after not seeing their son for a few years, I also liked that the Mom knew that Suo Yang would bring back the boyfriend. It showed that their parents really care about Suo Yang, just not the same kind of care as your typical bubbly and happy family.

They cared so much but just unable to let go of their conventional way of thinking, which is totally normal, I hope the next chapter is not a plot twist or something

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~

       Making the decision to go home was far easier than actually doing it. Although Suo Yang tried his best to appear as relaxed as possible, his anxiety could not escape Shen Huiming’s eyes.

       Shen Huiming arranged all his work, urgent matters were resolved as soon as possible, and those important but not urgent matters were waiting for him to return.

       After they bought high-speed rail tickets and booked a hotel, at six o’clock in the morning, the two of them set off for the station, finally taking the step to untie Suo Yang’s long-standing knot.

       During the four-hour high-speed train ride, Suo Yang talked very little.

       When he was in college, he used to go back and forth on this route many times a year, but later, it became less and less, and the less often he came back, the less he dared to come back.

       Although Shen Huiming could not truly empathize with him, he tried his best to think about it from Suo Yang’s perspective. He could understand Suo Yang’s worries and uneasiness, and the only thing he could do was to accompany him.

       He hoped that this trip would have an outcome, good or bad, at least give Suo Yang a response and not let him continue to drift aimlessly in such uncertainty.

       Shen Huiming gripped Suo Yang’s hand tightly, and the other party turned to look at him and smiled reluctantly.

       “Would you like to take a nap?” Shen Huiming looked at the time, “We still have more than an hour to go.”

       Suo Yang hesitated for a moment, then sighed, leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes.

       In fact, he couldn’t sleep. Shen Huiming also knew that he couldn’t sleep, but it was good to close his eyes and rest for a while. Suo Yang hadn’t slept much since last night, and Shen Huiming was really distressed.

       Suo Yang said softly, “I suddenly feel it’s fortunate I don’t have to face this matter alone.”

       Shen Huiming turned to him.

       Suo Yang did not open his eyes. This was the first time Shen Huiming took a serious look at his eyelashes and the bridge of his nose.

       “When I left home on New Year’s Eve, I didn’t even dare to tell them that I would definitely meet a lover who could stay with me until we grow old.” Suo Yang said, “In our family, even if we quarrel, we will leave a way out for ourselves, trying our best not to give the other person a handle to grasp.”

       “At that time, even though I reluctantly came out, and even though I had a falling out with my parents over this matter, I still couldn’t confidently tell them that, even as a gay, I could still have an excellent and long-lasting partner.” Suo Yang paused and sighed, “In the end, I’m not confident in anything.”

       Suo Yang slowly leaned on Shen Huiming’s shoulder and breathed a long sigh of relief, “Tell me, my parents don’t think I took you back to protest, right?”

       He laughed, “After all, they shouldn’t have thought that I would really find such a good lover.”

       Shen Huiming raised his hand and gently placed it on his forehead.

       The palm of my hand was pressed against Suo Yang’s cold forehead, which felt very comfortable.

       Shen Huiming looked out the car window. It had snowed heavily a while ago, and it was so white outside, stretching as far as the eye could see.

       “It’s almost the Chinese New Year again,” Shen Huiming said, “You won’t be alone this New Year’s Eve.”

       Alone?

       Not really.

       The only time Suo Yang had a falling out with his parents was on the high-speed train alone. But that night, the train staff served dumplings to all passengers, and he quietly cried while eating.

       He did not tell Shen Huiming about the incident in detail. The past grievances and sorrows were all over, and there was no need to bring them up again to make his lover feel sad for his past self.

       Later, Suo Yang took the initiative to apply for flight arrangements every New Year’s Eve. He would never let himself fall into endless loneliness. He did not feel that such self-torture was suitable for him.

       However, if he could celebrate the New Year in a down-to-earth manner this year, it would probably become his most memorable Spring Festival in recent years.

       No matter how high you fly or how far you run, you will not be as happy as being with your lover and family.

       As the high-speed train entered the station, Suo Yang said, “For so many years, this place has remained just the same.”

       Shen Huiming walked behind him and got out of the car with him.

       The train stations in every place were probably equally noisy, and the people that arrived here mostly wore expressions of hurry or confusion.

       Everyone started or ended their journey here and wrote the beginning or ending of a story here.

       Shen Huiming and Suo Yang were walking in the crowd, and as everyone walked towards the exit of the station, Suo Yang said, “When I was in college, my dad would come to pick me up every winter and summer vacation. When he drove his car, he would always say the car needed to be replaced but never did.”

       On the way out, Suo Yang calmly told Shen Huiming about his family affairs.

       Suo Yang and Shen Huiming, neither themselves nor their families, were actually the kind of legendary stories worth special recording. They were just ordinary people in the city, doing ordinary jobs and busy with life.

       They all knew very well that people like them could be found in large numbers in such a city, and the rich and powerful families full of grudges and entanglements in novels or movies did not exist around them at all.

       They were just ordinary people entangled in the troubles that ordinary people have.

       Suo Yang said, “I have secretly come back several times in the past few years, always hiding and watching from a distance and politely asking supermarket owners how they are doing.”

       Shen Huiming said, “Perhaps they also know you have returned.”

       You should know.

       Suo Yang thought, they should know.

       The owner of the supermarket was a chatty grandma. With her personality, it was impossible not to tell his parents after meeting him.

       But so what?

       Sometimes, it was better not to know.

       Suo Yang felt even more disappointed when he thought that they knew he had gone back but still did nothing.

       The two took a taxi and went to the hotel first.

       Originally, Suo Yang planned to go back and forth on the same day because he didn’t think he would stay too long on such a trip.

       In the end, he was still pessimistic and did not have any expectations for this meeting.

       However, it was not so much that he didn’t want to have expectations, but rather that he didn’t dare. If he didn’t have too high expectations, he wouldn’t be too disappointed. Right now, he knew very well how to make his life better.

       But Shen Huiming said, “Let’s stay one night. The four-hour high-speed train ride is quite tiring. Let’s go to your house first, and you can take me shopping in the evening.”

       He said he wanted to see the city where Suo Yang grew up, go to the school where Suo Yang studied, and try the restaurants where Suo Yang ate.

       Suo Yang remembered that on that previous date, he retraced the path that Shen Huiming had once lived on, and even if it was a courtesy, he should say yes.

       So, the two booked a hotel not far from Suo Yang’s home.

       It was already noon when they settled in.

       Suo Yang said he would go there after dinner, but Shen Huiming suggested going during lunchtime.

       “If we go at this time, we will catch them eating,” Shen Huiming laughed. “Maybe we can get a meal.”

       Suo Yang was embarrassed to tell Shen Huiming that his parents were truly not the kind of people who would invite others over for a meal. Growing up, he rarely saw his parents socializing or doing anything with friends. His parents kept a low profile, maintaining a polite distance even with outsiders. He had never seen them have close friends or much interaction with relatives.

       They lived a very “private” life as a family.

       However, Suo Yang still did not refute Shen Huiming’s proposal and led the people back home.

       At noon on Saturday, the neighbourhood was very lively.

       Old people, children, delivery guys…

       It had been more than ten years since Suo Yang’s family moved here. Suo Yang was still in elementary school at that time.

       It was considered a very nice building then, but over the past ten years, it became an ‘old house’.

       Suo Yang became nervous when he entered the neighbourhood. He couldn’t even chat with Shen Huiming calmly.

       The two had already agreed on a plan before they came out of the hotel. They asked Suo Yang to go up alone while Shen Huiming waited on the stairs below. Otherwise, as Suo Yang put it, bringing a boyfriend home abruptly might give the impression of a protest.

       When going upstairs, Suo Yang walked slower and slower.

       His family lived on the fourth floor, and when he reached the second floor, he no longer dared to go up.

       One time in the past two years, he came back secretly and was already standing at the door of his house. But when he heard something moving inside, he immediately ran upstairs and hid.

       That time, his mother went out to take out the trash. She came out and went straight downstairs. She didn’t see Suo Yang, who was hiding on the steps above and peeking at her.

       After two years, walking up these steps again felt like stepping on Suo Yang’s heart.

       “Are you okay?” Shen Huiming was a little worried about him.

       Suo Yang was a little distracted at first, with his brows furrowed as he was stuck in memories. When he heard Shen Huiming’s voice, he was brought back to reality, shook his head and said, “I’m okay.”

       They continued to walk up, and Shen Huiming stayed on the third floor.

       “Is everything okay?” Shen Huiming asked, feeling a bit concerned for him.

       Suo Yang was a bit lost in thought, and his brow furrowed as he got caught up in memories. Hearing Shen Huiming’s voice snapped him back to reality, and he shook his head, saying, “It’s fine.”

       Further up, he counted the steps and walked up.

       It was an old house, not very tall, and there weren’t many steps on each floor.

       He just counted and then arrived at the door of his house.

       He had not been back to this home for several years.

       In fact, Suo Yang’s definition of home was often vague. What exactly was home? A house, a couple, maybe a child? These were just the appearance of ‘home’.

       Home should be warm and full of love.

       Home should also exist like the blue sky, giving people freedom and tolerance.

       So, what about his home?

       Suo Yang stood at the door of his home and looked back toward the stairs. He couldn’t see Shen Huiming hiding, but he knew that the other person was waiting for him there.

       Facing it alone.

       Waiting alone.

       And then, will there be a satisfying conclusion?

       Suo Yang raised his hand, and when he knocked on the door, he suddenly found that his palms were all sweaty.

       His heartbeat had never been so fast, not even when he learned that the plane was malfunctioning.

       He stood there and heard his mother’s voice coming from inside, “Who is it?”

       Although he hadn’t heard it in several years, it was still familiar.

       Home was something you couldn’t let go of no matter what happened later.

       Suo Yang suddenly understood.

       He listened to the footsteps inside getting closer and closer, and the sound of slippers scraping against the floor tiles became very familiar to him. He opened his mouth, but for the first time, he failed to make a sound.

       The second time, he replied, “Mom, it’s me.”

       The sound of walking inside suddenly stopped, and Suo Yang stood outside the door like a defendant waiting for sentencing.

       Will he be acquitted?

       Will this family grant him freedom and acceptance?

       Suo Yang said, “Mom, I come back to see you.”

The author has something to say:
Thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution between 2020-06-07 06:02:54~2020-06-08 06:02:12~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~

       Suo Yang was full of courage in many things, but he had been hesitant to take the step of going home to reconcile with his parents for several years.

       Now, his relationship with Shen Huiming was a driving force for his reconciliation, and the accident that just happened was an opportunity.

       Although everyone would inevitably have many regrets in their life, Suo Yang still hoped to reduce his regrets as much as possible. When he got old, he would lie in bed… Or just think about the worst-case scenario; if something unexpected happened to him one day, he wanted to look back on the years he had walked through and, at the very least, not have too many regrets.

       It was better to work harder while he could still work hard than to blame others after many years.

       Shen Huiming was happy to hear him say such words. Although Suo Yang didn’t mention it often, Shen Huiming knew very well that with a personality like Suo Yang’s, he definitely cared about his parents.

       It was said that parents and children did not have an overnight grudge. Blood is thicker than water, and nothing can dilute it. There might be exceptions, but Shen Huiming hoped that Suo Yang would not have to bear this pressure all the time.

       In fact, after the two talked, Shen Huiming did not expect Suo Yang’s parents to support or bless them but hoped that at least they would no longer reject them.

       “Okay, when do you want to go back? I will arrange the time, and I will accompany you.”

       Suo Yang felt a little sorry, knowing that Shen Huiming was busy, but he always dragged him around.

       But he couldn’t say that he could go back by himself because he knew very well that he couldn’t do it.

       He needs Shen Huiming.

       Suo Yang felt that he might have been spoiled by Shen Huiming, otherwise, why would he become so squeamish and pretentious now?

       “I’m okay with anything. It depends on your schedule.” Suo Yang said, “Don’t let my affairs affect your work rhythm. I can wait.”

       When saying this, Suo Yang felt ashamed of himself.

       In fact, he knew very well that Shen Huiming would try his best to satisfy any request he made, and he could not wait to fulfil it.

       He felt sorry and thought that all he could do to make up for it was treat Shen Huiming better in the days to come.

       “Okay, I’ll make some arrangements to see how it goes.” Shen Huiming did not confirm the time with Suo Yang immediately. Firstly, the work at hand did require time arrangement, and he was not sure when he would be able to leave. Secondly, he did not want Suo Yang to feel disturbed by this. If he set a time immediately, Suo Yang would definitely feel guilty.

       Suo Yang felt guilty for his selfishness, and Shen Huiming tried to find ways to alleviate his guilt.

       Shen Huiming said, “I’m going to meet the parents. Shouldn’t I catch up on some sleep, eat something good these two days, and return home with you in the best of spirits?”

       Suo Yang laughed out loud, “You’ve always been good.”

       The two hung up the phone, Suo Yang tidied up the room and then went to the appointment with Zhou Mo.

       As soon as Zhou Mo saw him, he started checking first without saying anything, Suo Yang laughed, “Are you sure? I’m not missing any arms or legs, right?”

       “You scared me to death!” Zhou Mo saw that he was in good condition and breathed a sigh of relief. “It’s exciting enough to experience this kind of thing once in a lifetime, but it turns out it’s maddening for me to experience it again.”

       Suo Yang knew that he was worried about him, so he patted the back of his hand gently to express comfort.

       The two chatted while eating, and Zhou Mo always observed Suo Yang carefully.

       Suo Yang was sensitive and naturally knew that Zhou Mo was paying attention to his situation. He didn’t say much and just let the other party observe, as long as Zhou Mo could rest assured.

       “By the way, what’s the important thing you’re talking about?” Zhou Mo had been thinking about it for a long time. It was already the limit for someone as gossipy as him to hold back for so long before asking.

       As soon as Zhou Mo’s question came out of his mouth, Suo Yang’s ears immediately turned red.

       “Huh? Your ears are red.” Zhou Mo stared at him, “You’re smiling a little shyly.”

       The word shy appeared on Suo Yang for the first time. He looked at Zhou Mo with some surprise, “Shy?”

       Zhou Mo smiled, “I have only seen this expression on the bride’s face.”

       “…Don’t talk nonsense.” Suo Yang said, “But I am indeed planning to marry Huiming.”

       Zhou Mo was drinking juice. Upon hearing what he said, the juice lingered in his mouth, and he even forgot to swallow it.

       “Getting married?” Zhou Mo swallowed the juice and wiped his mouth with a tissue, “You and Shen Huiming?”

       “Well, who else could it be but him?”

       Zhou Mo was quite supportive of the two being together. Of course, whether he supported their relationship or not didn’t really matter, as it was their personal choice to be in a romantic relationship. It’s just that he thought Shen Huiming was a good person, but…

       “Isn’t it a bit fast?” Zhou Mo and Cheng Sen were together for several years before getting married. Although their same-sex marriage, which was certified abroad, was not recognized in China, marriage is marriage; no matter what form or method it was, it should not be done too hasty.

       In Zhou Mo’s heart, Suo Yang had always been a thoughtful person and did not make decisions easily. He even thought that if the two of them got married one day, it might be ten or eight years later.

       Zhou Mo counted on his fingers, “How long have you two known each other? How long have you been together?”

       Zhou Mo said, “Well, I didn’t mean to say anything bad about him, I was just worried about your impulsiveness.”

       Suo Yang smiled, “But getting married is an impulsive decision.”

       Zhou Mo thought about it and felt that this was true. Although he and Cheng Sen had been in a relationship for so long, their decision to get married was based on impulse.

       “Although it was an impulse,” Suo Yang said, “it is also an inevitable result. I didn’t understand it before and felt that marriage was meaningless for us gay people, but now I suddenly understand.”

       “What do you suddenly understand?” Zhou Mo asked curiously.

       “When our love for each other is so strong that we don’t know how to express it, the only way is through marriage.” Suo Yang said, “Just being in a romantic relationship is no longer enough for us; we need to become each other’s beloved.”

       Zhou Mo laughed knowingly, “How come you make this sound so romantic?”

       “Maybe it’s because love is inherently romantic,” Suo Yang said. “Some people may think that marriage is the tomb of love. I don’t fully agree with this statement. The meaning of marriage varies from person to person, and everyone defines it differently. For us, marriage is something we can’t get under the rules, so we can only use roundabout ways to prove our determination to stay with each other until we grow old.”

       Zhou Mo held his chin and looked at him with a smile in his eyes.

       “You are really different.” Zhou Mo said, “In the past, you were always cold, not the kind of ice-cold face on the surface, but always kept a distance from life and the people in it. I always felt that you don’t seem to be very passionate about anything other than work.”

       Suo Yang could understand what Zhou Mo meant.

       In fact, when he heard what others said about him behind his back, it was not unreasonable to think about it calmly and rationally.

       He had fairly decent skin, but the world under the skin was extremely empty. He refused to enter into any excitement and had little interest in anything.

       Beautiful it might be, yet utterly soulless.

       This statement was a cutting sword aimed at him, but wasn’t the reason it hurt him because it striked right at the core?

       Suo Yang understood.

       Therefore, he was very sure that his marriage to Shen Huiming was the right choice because he would never meet anyone more worthy of being with him for a lifetime than Shen Huiming.

       Shen Huiming is like oxygen, and he spared no effort to inject it into his stagnant water, causing aquatic plants to grow, fish to appear, and life to emerge from the bottom of the water.

       All the breath of life in him came from Shen Huiming. He loved the other person and was happy with his love.

       “Speaking of which, where are you going to hold the wedding?”

       “Berlin.” Suo Yang said, “But there are a lot of procedures to go through. Huiming checked yesterday and found that getting married abroad is not that simple.”

       Zhou Mo nodded, “Okay, if you two plan to enjoy the joy of your newlywed life alone, then I will give you a big gift, but if you plan to entertain everyone, I must be the best man.”

       As the two parted ways, Zhou Mo asked again, “Are you serious?”

       Suo Yang nodded firmly, “Yes, very serious.”

       Zhou Mo raised his hand and rubbed his nose, “Happy wedding.”

       The two stood on the roadside and hugged each other gently. Suo Yang said, “Thank you.”

       “What for?”

       “If you hadn’t invited me to your birthday party and hadn’t invited him, and if we hadn’t met there, maybe I would still be that lifeless person now.”

       Zhou Mo shook his head, shrugged, and poked Suo Yang’s shoulder with his finger.

       “Even if you don’t meet that day, you will definitely meet again later.” Zhou Mo said, “Some fate will come sooner or later. It is yours, and it is destined to be yours.”

       Suo Yang stood there and watched Zhou Mo drive away while he stretched himself against the winter sun.

       What is mine is destined to be mine.

       He thought about Shen Huiming and felt that Zhou Mo was right.

       Suo Yang checked the time and then drove to the vicinity of Shen Huiming’s company. He did not go upstairs to find the other party. Instead, he ordered a cup of honey gr4p3fruit tea at the coffee shop downstairs opposite and took out the book that he had not opened for a long time to read.

       Shen Huiming told him before that when he read this book, he would deliberately not read the later parts because from chapter 11 onwards, the love that started with the encounter on the plane gradually faded away, and he did not want such an ending.

       After that, every time Suo Yang re-read the book, he would stop abruptly at chapter 10, without continuing to read or think about it, even though he knew that the story in the book would not predict the ending and love between him and Shen Huiming. The dislike of each other would not happen to them, but he still deliberately avoided it.

       After all, sometimes, he was still a coward.

       But on this afternoon, waiting for Shen Huiming to finish work, he sat in the coffee shop. When he looked up, he could see the office building across the street, where his beloved was busy. However, he no longer harboured any unnecessary concerns. He continued to read his book, now in the role of a bystander.

       On page 161, he made a mark with the pencil on the coffee shop table and drew a light line under the sentence—We need to earnestly consider how the two of us will grow old together, ageing to the point of retiring with a mouth full of false teeth in a bungalow by the sea. If we wholeheartedly believe in all of this, we can even plan to get married, forcing our hearts to immerse themselves in endless love in the most resolute and legitimate way.

       He liked the phrase but had doubts about the term ‘force’.

       He and Shen Huiming would enjoy it instead of being forced to indulge in love.

The author has something to say:
Thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution between 2020-06-06 06:03:55~2020-06-07 06:02:54~

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Support the author by buying the series’ VIP chapters and/or giving some bombs here~
P.S: the price is cheaper if you buy from the app ><

We now finally have a discord server for those who want to receive an update ping and various announcements~
Join here

Check out bean’s new ABO novel here!
and her original novel about a sly cute dragon here~
Check out the other hoeni’s work here~
Check out the angst novel I co-tl with my friend here~

And please buy me some kofi if you like the translation~

Also leave some ratings if you like this series ~