Category: Perfection (Page 11 of 11)

       Two days later, Wen Jianing received a call from Director Chen informing him to participate in the TV program recording a week later.

       He calmly replied, “Okay.”

       The moment when he hung up, Wen Jianing also made up his mind to face this competition seriously. He would rather see this as a competition rather than an audition. It was not a show for others to see, but it was to find a way out for his future.

       After he made this decision, Wen Jianing began to look for the contact information of Ke Xinhang’s family. Ke Xinhang’s physical deformity couldn’t be known to others. He didn’t want his parents to see him on TV.

       However, Ke Xinhang’s existing contact information didn’t contain his parents’ contact number, nor even his brother’s.

       Wen Jianing found the phone number of Ke Xinhang’s uncle, called him and asked around. Only then did he know that Ke Xinhang’s parents had passed away, and his brother had a bad relationship with him. The two people were now not in contact.

       Actually, this was also a good thing, otherwise, Wen Jianing really didn’t know how to deal with Ke Xinhang’s family. The fact that Ke Xinhang had a bad relationship with his brother, was an unstable factor that made Wen Jianing feel a little uneasy.

       In the evening, Wen Jianing told Su Shan about him passing the interview.

       Su Shan was surprised, “Huh? Did he really like you?”

       Wen Jianing couldn’t help laughing, “You aren’t so optimistic about me?”

       “To be honest,” Su Shan said, “I was really not optimistic about you before.”

       Just Ke Xinhang singing those niche songs with his guitar will not give enough entertainment effects no matter how beautiful his face was. Su Shan thought with such a face, if Ke Xinhang was willing to go on stage to sing Phoenix Legend’s* song, maybe he could still hit the audience.

       Wen Jianing didn’t mind Su Shan saying so. He asked the bartender who was cleaning the bar for a beer and walked to the back lounge with it. Su Shan asked him what he was doing, but he didn’t say.

       He walked to the rest area of the bar band, knocked on the door, put the beer on the table, and said, “Today I buying my brothers a drink.”

       Wen Jianing was a kind person with a good personality and was also good at dealing with people. In the past, on the set, even he could say hello to the cleaning lady with a smile. So he had always been popular in the circle and had a good reputation.

       The purpose of inviting several members of the band to drink was to ease the relationship with them and at the same time hoped to get some help in music. Now, he had no conditions to find a professional music team. He could only rely on the strength of others around him to lay some foundation for his competition.

       His singing skills were weak, so he needed to work hard on music selection. He needs to choose a song suitable for his voice characteristics and modify it appropriately to ensure that he would not be eliminated in the first game.

       Singing was neither his ideal nor his interest. He couldn’t and didn’t have the ability to realize this dream for Ke Xinhang. He wanted this competition to be a starting point. As for his ultimate goal, he might still want to surpass Lu Jinlang and really stood at the peak of his career.

       The official program recording was a week later. For the sake of the program’s effect, all singers participating in the competition would go to the rehearsal one day in advance to go through the process.

       Although there was no audition, there were nearly 70 participants in the preliminary round. The rehearsal process was very fast, and the official recording couldn’t be completed in a day.

       On the day of the official recording, the backstage was even more lively. There was no makeup artist for the contestants. What needed to be recorded for the first time was their true appearance. In a sense, this talent show was a reality show in which these young people become famous overnight.

       Wen Jianing was in the corner wearing headphones listening to the song he was going to sing on stage. It was a female love song. Because he had a neutral voice, only a few male songs were suitable for him. On the contrary, the female singer’s songs could give some flavour.

       There was a large makeup mirror in front of him. A young girl was standing in front of the mirror, applying makeup on herself. She tossed over and over again, seemingly dissatisfied, but Wen Jianing could see that she was probably nervous.

       Not far from him, a very delicate young man was playing the guitar, and his eyes drifted away from time to time.

       They were a group of young people chasing their dreams. They seemed impractical and might not succeed, but they all have the courage to chase their dreams.

       Except for Lu Jinlang, the judges of this competition were three famous figures in the singing world, one man and two women. The competition system was not complicated. In addition to the elimination of many people in the first game, it will focus on performance and light competition, with an appropriate number of eliminated people in each game.

       The elimination system in the first game was very simple. If more than three judges of the four judges give a pass, they will pass. If only two people gave a pass, they will be put on hold. If less than two people gave a pass, the participant would be eliminated.

       In fact, the overall quality of the singers was very good. Although the number of eliminated singers would not be small, the number of people who passed the test was believed to be quite large.

       As for the ones that were put on hold, it would become the highlight of the first game, because each judge has a quota that could directly give a pass to an undetermined player, so among the undetermined people, only four people in total could enter the next round.

       From the beginning of the competition, Wen Jianing had been quietly listening to songs in the corner of the backstage dressing room.

       A director instructed the cameraman to film the waiting contestants, perhaps because he found that Wen Jianing was good-looking, and so the camera was aimed directly at his face.

       Wen Jianing noticed that the camera was shooting him, so he smiled gently at the camera and waved his hand.

       When he came out, the program had been recorded until the evening. After waiting for most of the day, the people were very tired and there was no quiet environment to rest. But fortunately, he was used to acting and used to this life.

       As soon as he walked into the competition venue, Wen Jianing saw Lu Jinlang sitting at the judges’ table.

       In fact, Wen Jianing didn’t quite understand why Lu Jinlang participated in this type of program. Lu Jinlang had never been very involved in variety and entertainment programs. Even for the movie promotions, he was absent a lot.

       He now sat here today, although Lu Jinlang didn’t appear impatient, his expression was somewhat indifferent. He just glanced down at the player roster programmatically, and then raised his head to look at Wen Jianing.

       Sitting next to Lu Jinlang was Xu Rujing, the first sister in the singing world. She saw Wen Jianing come out to the stage and whispered something in Lu Jinlang’s ear.

       Lu Jinlang nodded but did not speak.

       Wen Jianing adjusted the height of the microphone, turned his head and nodded to the band, and then the band began to play. The song he chose to sing was written for her by her ex-boyfriend who was dating the female singer at the time. It was originally a light love song. Later, at the female singer’s concert, she re-wrote the lyrics, rearranged the music, modified the song and sang it. Turning a happy song into a sad love song. The day after her concert, the media revealed that it was her ex-boyfriend’s wedding day.

       What Wen Jianing sang was the sad version of the female singers who had changed lyrics and songs.

       His voice was very soft. The purpose was to cover up his lack of breath and deliberately create an ethereal feeling. The re-arrangement to modify the high-pitched part was also to prevent the high-pitched voice from appearing too weak.

       However, if only seen from the surface, it could be seen that he was singing passionately. It was originally a song full of emotion. Wen Jianing uses his clear voice to express the pain and helplessness separated from his lover concisely and vividly.

       At the end of the song, he even closed his eyes with a little bit of deliberate crying, at the last line of the lyrics.

       When the song ended, the whole studio was quiet for a moment, as if everyone had been brought into that painful mood.

       The first person to speak was Xu Rujing. She asked, “Did you cry?”

       Everyone thought the young person on the stage was singing and crying.

       Wen Jianing opened his eyes, his eyes were clear, but there was no sign of tears in his eyes.

       Xu Rujing was a little surprised. She didn’t say anything but looked at two people on her left and the right.

       Lu Jinlang was the first to comment. His tone was incomprehensible, and he said, “Good acting.”

       For a while, the atmosphere of the scene was a little frozen. When a singer was rated as good at acting, of course, no one thinks it was praise. Lu Jinlang was so merciless, that the audience couldn’t help but feel a little embarrassed for this young man named Ke Xinhang.

       Wen Jianing then responded with a slightly awkward smile.

       Xu Rujing also recovered her indifference at this time. She said, “The voice is good and the feelings are in place. However, as far as singing is concerned, there is still room for improvement.”

       The third judge is a female singer who returned from overseas. Her name was Wang Mei. She looked down at Ke Xinhang’s information, then looked up and said in non-standard Mandarin, “Ke Xinhang, right?”

       Wen Jianing nodded.

       Wang Mei smiled, raised her hand and said, “Maybe your singing skills can be improved, but I like the emotion you express in this song. Anyway, very handsome!”

       A burst of applause broke out at the scene.

       Wen Jianing also smiled and nodded his thanks.

       The last judge was An Yongkang, a well-known male creative singer in China. He objectively analyzed the problems in Wen Jianing’s singing process, analyzed the deficiencies one by one and conveyed them to Wen Jianing.

       Wen Jianing nodded and said thank you.

       Among these people, except Lu Jinlang, the other three were full-time singers and didn’t act, so they have less interaction with Wen Jianing, but they were not completely unknown.

       In contrast, Wen Jianing was actually more familiar with Xu Rujing than with Lu Jinlang.

       But now this familiarity has become his one-sided.

       The results of who passed would be announced on the spot, but the scoring results of each judge would not be specifically announced.

       Wen Jianing was mentally prepared to be eliminated, but he didn’t expect his luck to be this good. Two judges gave him the green light and let him pass temporarily.

       Before stepping down, Wen Jianing glanced at Lu Jinlang and felt that there was probably no hope for him. He was not expecting to take one of the remaining four precious places. Even Wang Mei, who loudly praised him for being handsome, just thought he was handsome. No one really thought he could sing well.

---

The author has something to say:

If there are any questions I haven’t answered, please mention them again.**

Now I have a bad memory and always forget things……..

---

*Phoenix Legend : is a Chinese popular music duo, consisting of female vocalist Yangwei Linghua (杨魏玲花) and male rapper Zeng Yi (曾毅). Their music blends folk music with rap and hip hop elements. In May 2012 Phoenix Legend was reported in the China Daily as having sold more than 6 million albums in China since 2005, and 10 songs from four of their albums have recorded one billion online hits.

**It seems that in jjwxc the author was making Q&A sessions for the readers.

P.S:

Please support the author if possible~

http://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=2198091

https://www.gongzicp.com/novel-253290.html

Here’s a very awesome guide on how to support the author using jjwxc!
Here’s another guide to support the author using gongzicp!

       In the evening, Wen Jianing still went to Su Shan’s bar to sing a few songs.

       He sat on a high stool, holding the microphone stand. His voice was a bit lazy and inattentive. A beam of light above his head hit his side face, making his face look clean and pure.

       After he sang the song and stepped down, someone ordered him a drink. Wen Jianing thanked the person, but did not drink the wine, and pushed it aside slightly. His psychological trauma over alcohol had not passed, and he didn’t intend to touch it again in the near time.

       Su Shan asked him, “How’re the preparations?”

       Wen Jianing didn’t answer, he didn’t even decide whether he should go or not.

       In fact, before this accident, Wen Jianing once jokingly told his friends if he had a chance to have a new life, he would still choose to become an actor and continue acting because he loves this job.

       But when he really faced this day, he hesitated. The reason for his hesitation was because of his body’s condition. He was not Ke Xinhang in his naive and fearless age. He understood the horror of this circle, so he would be more cautious.

       Su Shan thought he was chickening out, and said, “It doesn’t matter. Go and try it. Don’t mind it too much, you’re only 20 years old and still very young.”

       Twenty years old. Wen Jianing suddenly felt a little dazed. He was only twenty years old. He still had a very long time ahead, and his life had just begun.

       After that, Su Shan lit himself a cigarette.

       Wen Jianing wanted to ask him for one. “Can you give me one?” He was not addicted to smoking, but occasionally he smokes one when he was upset.

       Su Shan looked at him and said, “You shouldn’t smoke. You should cherish your voice.”

       Wen Jianing smiled but did not insist.

       Su Shan then said, “I’ve contacted my friend and said that he’ll let you go to the TV station to find a director surnamed Chen for an interview the day after tomorrow. I’ll give you his number and then you can go by yourself.”

       With that, Su Shan asked Wen Jianing to take out his mobile phone and write down a phone number. Then he said, “The director’s surname is Chen. Remember clearly.”

       Wen Jianing nodded. He looked at the phone number on his mobile phone and said, “I know.”

       When the time arranged by Su Shan to help him came, Wen Jianing chose to go to the TV station.

       In addition to his strength and luck, Wen Jianing was also a person who knew how to seize opportunities. Before he really made up his mind, he felt that he should not miss any opportunity to block a possible future.

       Starlight was now the most influential TV station in China, mainly focusing on entertainment and variety shows. Almost all stars’ new albums and new films promote promotions will appear in Starlight’s entertainment programs. Wen Jianing naturally came here more than once in order to cooperate with the promotion of the film.

       When he got out of the taxi, he saw a lot of media reporters guarding the door of the TV station. Subconsciously, he wanted to avoid them. However, at the same time, he remembered that these people no longer recognized him now. He was just an ordinary young man.

       As he placed the backpack on one of his shoulders, Wen Jianing walked toward the TV station. When he entered the gate, he was stopped by a security guard who questioned him about who he was looking for.

       Wen Jianing didn’t know Director Chen’s full name, so he had to take his mobile phone from his bag and called Director Chen.

       Just then, a car stopped in front of the TV station.

       Wen Jianing saw all the reporters crowded up in an instant, completely blocking the door of the entire TV station, and he himself was pushed aside forcibly.

       Then he saw Lu Jinlang come down from the car’s back door. The security guard rushed up to help him stop the reporters and reminded them to be in order. He walked towards the TV station without expression.

       A reporter asked loudly, “Mr. Lu, may I ask if it is true that you are rumoured to have taken the role of ‘October Fireworks’?”

       Lu Jinlang didn’t answer. He had already walked through the door of the TV station, and all the reporters were stopped outside.

       Wen Jianing looked at Lu Jinlang’s back and was stunned. ‘October Fireworks’ was the last movie he was going to shoot before his accident. It was planned to officially start after the Academy Award ceremony, but it was put on hold because of his accident.

       Wen Jianing liked the script of ‘October Fireworks’ very much and was confident that he could perfectly perform the role of the main character, but he didn’t expect that it would be like this now.

       Wen Jianing just stood there for a long time, until the security started to urge him to call Director Chen again. Only then did he call director Chen again and let the security guards take the call and let him in.

       After he entered the TV station building, Wen Jianing learned from the comments of the surrounding employees that Lu Jinlang came today to shoot the last promotional video for the “Voice of The Soul.”

       Wen Jianing was called by Director Chen to a small recording studio on the seventh floor.

       Director Chen’s full name was Chen Kong. He was just an assistant director of the program. He might have accepted a friend’s recommendation and promised to let people try, but he was not very optimistic about this young man named Ke Xinhang. After all, there were too many young people dreaming of stardom.

       But when Wen Jianing pushed the door in, Chen Kong was surprised.

       It was a singing competition, but people with excellent appearance were more popular wherever they go.

       Chen Kong asked someone to set up a camera to shoot Wen Jianing and let him sing two songs.

       Wen Jianing was not very good at singing. His voice and pitch were good, but he was not a professional singer after all. He inevitably lacked in skills.

       However, Director Chen seemed to think that these could be substituted by his appearance. After he asked Wen Jianing to sing two songs, he said that after communicating with the director team, he would call Wen Jianing.

       Wen Jianing thanked him and left with his bag on his back.

       He didn’t care too much about the result now. What he cares about was the fact that Lu Jinlang took over the filming of ‘October Fireworks.’ Somehow, a feeling of sadness arose in his heart.

       If Wen Jianing really died, he would no longer exist in this world. Now it was too cruel to let him see all this with his own eyes.

       When he came down from the upper floor, Wen Jianing did not leave immediately, but walked around the television station’s studio on the first floor.

       At this time, Lu Jinlang was shooting a promotional video there.

       There were many staff members around the scene, so Wen Jianing didn’t get too close. He didn’t want to attract other people’s attention, so he stood at the corner of the door and watched Lu Jinlang’s filming.

       The shooting of this small promotional video was very simple for Lu Jinlang. Basically, it could be done at one time, and the director didn’t dare criticize him too much.

       Wen Jianing’s heart was in turmoil and all he could think of was ‘October Fireworks’.

       ‘October Fireworks’ was a literary romance film set in the 1990s. The hero and the heroine fell in love with each other but missed each other because they were young. It was a twist of fate to meet again 20 years later.

       The script was very meticulous, and the Director Fang Wei is also a famous director who was good at shooting literary and artistic films.

       After Wen Jianing got the script, he communicated with the screenwriter and director in detail. He had a lot of views on how to play this role and made sufficient preparations, but now he lost this opportunity.

       It felt really bad, especially after hearing that Lu Jinlang took over the role, it seemed that his precious things have been robbed by Lu Jinlang again.

       He felt it was a little difficult to accept.

       Perhaps it was the successive defeats that made him care too much about Lu Jinlang. Even if he won against Lu Jinlang this time and got the Film Emperor title, it did not completely quell the resentment in his heart.

       When he came back to his senses, Wen Jianing found that the shooting was over.

       Lu Jinlang put on the coat handed by his assistant and walked outside the studio while drinking water.

       Wen Jianing stood in the corner and wanted to wait until Lu Jinlang left. As a result, when Lu Jinlang passed him, he turned his head and looked at him.

       “Mr. Lu,” Wen Jianing didn’t hold back and called out. He couldn’t help but regret his irrationality.

       Unexpectedly, Lu Jinlang stopped and stood there waiting for Wen Jianing to speak.

       Wen Jianing politely asked, “Are you going to replace Wen Jianing in ‘October Fireworks’?”

       “Are you a reporter?” Lu Jinlang asked. He was followed by a large group of people, including his assistant, agent, and the chief director of the program group. They respectfully waited for Lu Jinlang to talk to this unidentified young man.

       Wen Jianing shook his head and found a suitable identity for himself, “No, I am a fan of Wen Jianing.”

       Lu Jinlang heard the words and said solemnly, “Yes, I will be in the movie.”

       Wen Jianing refrained from asking why. He was not qualified to ask Lu Jinlang why.

       But he did not expect Lu Jinlang to say, “I will create a Jiang Zixin who is completely different from Wen Jianing’s. I think you can look forward to it.”

       Jiang Zixin is the name of the main character in ‘October Fireworks’.

       When Lu Jinlang said these words, everyone was a little stunned. They didn’t understand why he would say such things to someone he didn’t know. However, Lu Jinlang didn’t give them time to be stunned. He already walked outside, and the others hurriedly followed.

       Wen Jianing was the only one left to digest his words. He suddenly thought, does Lu Jinlang feel a little unwilling to lose to himself this time?

       In the evening, Wen Jianing stood on the balcony in his pyjamas to feel the wind blows.

       The wind was strong, and his pyjamas were tightly attached to his body, showing a thin outline. He propped his head with one hand and looked out. Although the floors where he stayed were very high, there were all high-rise buildings around. He was blocked from seeing anything.

       He missed his garden villa. There was a big balcony on the second floor. He would sit on the balcony at night, listening to music and reading scripts. It’s a pity that can never go back to that kind of enjoyable life.

       The TV in the living room was on and it was broadcasting entertainment news. He heard the news that Lu Jinlang took over the movie ‘October Fireworks’ again.

       However, this time the program host commented in a gossipy tone that Fang Wei’s literary and artistic films had always earned a good reputation for actors. Wen Jianing took the role in “October Fireworks”, and aim for his second Film Emperor title with the movie. Now Wen Jianing could only hand it over to Lu Jinlang to see if he could get his third Film Emperor title.

       The host said so confidently, as if he was Wen Jianing himself.

       Wen Jianing lowered his head and smiled bitterly. Then he looked up and took a deep breath. There was still an embarrassment that was said to be on his mind. Yes, he was unwilling.

---

PS:

Please support the author if possible~

http://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=2198091

https://www.gongzicp.com/novel-253290.html

Here’s a very awesome guide on how to support the author using jjwxc!
Here’s another guide to support the author using gongzicp!

       In the evening, Wen Jianing waited for Su Shan in the bar. Only when works were over, Su Shan finally drove him back.

       Wen Jianing found that he couldn’t calm down. As long as he had nothing to do to calm down, he would be very concerned about his current body very much. If one has to measure the gains and losses, Wen Jianing has lost money, status, identity and honor, but he has won a youth that couldn’t be exchanged for anything. However, this young body lacks the most important things for men.

       He wondered if he had done something heinous and unforgivable that he didn’t know, so God deliberately wanted to punish him and put him in this situation.

       Wen Jianing’s heart felt so confused that he only reacted when Su Shan called Ke Xinhang’s name twice in a row.

       “Huh?” Wen Jianing turned to look at Su Shan who was driving.

       Su Shan asked, “You seem to be distracted all over today. Did something happen at home?”

       Wen Jianing shook his head, “I’m fine.”

       Su Shan then stopped pestering about the problem and said, “Do you know what I tried to look for you?”

       Wen Jianing really didn’t know. He gave a vague “um” and waited for Su Shan to explain the rest.

       Su Shan said, “I helped you find someone to contact the producer of the show. They said that there will be no large-scale audition. All the contestants were determined by the director team themselves. I told them about your conditions. They looked at your photos and they were very interested. They told you to go and see first when you have time, which is equivalent to an interview.”

       “Talent…show?” Wen Jianing asked hesitantly.

       Su Shan stepped on the brakes suddenly, “Ke Xinhang, what’s the matter with you?”

       Wen Jianing felt that Su Shan was a little unhappy. He quickly picked up his messy thoughts and said sincerely to Su Shan, “I’m sorry, Shan ge, there’s something troubling me in the past two days. I feel like a little out of shape.”

       Su Shan’s attitude was a little more relaxed, “I asked you earlier, why don’t you say it?”

       Wen Jianing said, “Because it is too personal…”

       Su Shan heard this, and didn’t press him any further, and said, “If you refuse to say it, deal with it yourself. If you hadn’t begged me for so long, I wouldn’t care about you. Take advantage of it yourself.”

       Wen Jianing nodded, “Thank you Shan ge.”

       Su Shan drove him to the downstairs of Ke Xinhang’s rental housing complex. After Ke Xinhang got out of the car, Su Shan turned back and left.

       Wen Jianing stood and watched Su Shan’s car drive away. Suddenly, he had the illusion that he was acting. He seemed to be playing as a young man named Ke Xinhang. There was no NG*, and no ending. He needed to remind himself to play this role all the time.

       Back to the room where Ke Xinhang lived, Wen Jianing collapsed on the sofa. He found the TV remote control on the sofa, and then turned on the TV.

       It was already late at this time. Wen Jianing changed channels at random until he saw a channel that was playing back the previous entertainment program. It was a reporter’s interview with Lu Jinlang after the awards ceremony that day. He asked Lu Jinlang what he thought of Wen Jianing’s winning the Film Emperor award.

       As he faced the camera, Lu Jinlang said calmly, “He lives up to the expectation.”**

       The reporter asked, “Who do you think you and he deserve the award more?”

       Lu Jinlang said, “Hasn’t the Organizing Committee announced the results?”

       With that, the interview was interrupted and Lu Jinlang was escorted away.

       And what was he doing at that time? Wen Jianing recalled that he took the Film Emperor trophy. At the height of excitement, he attended the banquet after the award ceremony, interviewed by reporters, took pictures, and then drank a lot of wine….

       He raised his hand and covered his eyes. Would it not have been like this if he had not drunk so indulgently at that time?

       What is Lu Jinlang doing now? Would he treat him as a joke, and just laugh?

       Wen Jianing lay on the sofa for half an hour and got up to take a bath. He was not familiar with this house. He had to search carefully to find many things.

       When he opened the bedside drawer to find his underwear, Wen Jianing hesitated, because these old underwear were worn by the original owner, but he immediately thought that the original owner of the underwear was also this body, and there seemed to be nothing to mind. However, Ke Xinhang’s underwear were boxers, which wrap his lower part tightly. He should be afraid of being known about his physical condition.

       When he walked into the bathroom, Wen Jianing always couldn’t help but turn his head away. He didn’t want to see the incomplete parts of his body. He stood under the shower head and felt the hot water wash over his body. He suddenly held his breath and raised his head to let the hot water swept his face. He persisted until he couldn’t bear it, then he lowered his head and gasped, with one hand on the glass of the shower room.

       After he caught his breath again, Wen Jianing stretched his hand down. He just wanted to know if his body was completely abnormal. But there was no way, he couldn’t tell whether it was because of psychological effects or because his body was too tired. There was no response below. His head was also dizzy. He couldn’t feel comfortable, so he had to stop his hands, washed his body, put on his clothes and go out.

       That night, Wen Jianing thought he would be unable to sleep, but unexpectedly, he was immediately dead asleep as soon as he lay in bed. After all, he was still very young. He had a rare night of dreamless sleep until the next morning. It was almost ten o’clock when he woke up.

       Wen Jianing felt that he had not tried to sleep so deep for a long time. He sat up and sat blankly on bed for more than ten minutes before he put on his clothes and got out of bed.

       With nothing to do this morning, Wen Jianing began to look through Ke Xinhang’s belongings carefully.

       Yesterday, because he hurried out, Wen Jianing didn’t pay attention to many things. In fact, after looking carefully today, he found that Ke Xinhang had more than one electric guitar at home and a mike in front of the computer that looked valuable.

       He turned on Ke Xinhang’s computer and found a lot of music production software on the desktop, which he didn’t even know. On the computer’s hard drive, Wen Jianing found a folder containing all the songs written by Ke Xinhang himself. He also found self-playing and singing records by Ke Xinhang.

       These were not important to him. Later, Wen Jianing found several diaries in Ke Xinhang’s drawer. He took the diary and sat on the sofa, flipping through them one by one. These diaries were left by Ke Xinhang when he was still a student. He probably never wrote them again after graduation.

       However, from a few simple words, Wen Jianing learned more or less about Ke Xinhang. He was born with a disability. He had seen a doctor and was told that his condition was incurable. He was not fertile and at most could only have cosmetic surgery. Ke Xinhang grew up with an inferiority complex, but he was tenacious and competitive. He grew up in such a contradictory manner. Except for his parents and a brother, he carefully protected his secrets in front of others. After he graduated from high school, he never went to college and went out alone.

       He liked music very much and has loved it since childhood. Although his diary had been cut off since he graduated, Wen Jianing could also imagine that he must have suffered a lot when he graduated from school. He taught himself music while working and saved money to buy a guitar.

       Wen Jianing put down his diary and went to the bathroom. He looked at the beautiful young man in the mirror. He was undoubtedly crippled, but he was stubborn and not willing to take things just like that. He wanted to break into the entertainment circle, wanted to sing, wanted to release an album and had a concert. But has he ever thought about what he would face once he entered that circle? Would his physical condition be known one day, exposed by people with ulterior motives and ridiculed by people all over the world?

       He reached out and touched the eyebrows in the mirror. Wen Jianing felt that Ke Xinhang was still too young and naive.

       After he tidied up the diary, Wen Jianing continued to browse through Ke Xinhang’s computer randomly. He found the favorite web page of Ke Xinhang’s browser and found that Ke Xinhang had the habit of sorting out his weekly schedule. Now, apart from going to the bar to sing, Ke Xinhang spends most of the time writing and singing. He also sent demos to the record company. Wen Jianing didn’t know if he got any response.

       Afterwards, Wen Jianing saw that there was a webpage of a singing contest advertisement in Ke Xinhang’s favorites. After he clicked on it, Wen Jianing saw Lu Jinlang on the advertisement page at a glance.

       He was taken aback for a while, and then read the introduction in the small print on the web page, only to realize that the name was sing to soul. Lu Jinlang was invited to be the judge of the singing competition with the Chinese name of the “Voice of The Soul”.

       The organizer of the competition was the most well-known TV station in China. It was not surprising that Lu Jinlang could be invited in terms of financial resources and contacts. Except Lu Jinlang, the other three judges rank among the top ten in the domestic singing world. Lu Jinlang was the only one that was not a professional singer.

       Wen Jianing’s impression of the contest became poor instantly. He always felt that they were not serious enough. It was just an entertainment program made for publicity and ratings.

       However, Ke Xinhang obviously yearned for it. He even kept this web page deliberately, but he didn’t know whether the interview Su Shan mentioned to him before was about this contest.

       Wen Jianing planned to delete the web page. If he had the opportunity to meet Ke Xinhang, he would definitely dissuade the young man to give up his idea. There were countless costs behind the scenes of the entertainment industry. He felt that Ke Xinhang’s physical condition was really unsuitable for developing in this direction.

       But at the moment he clicked the mouse to delete it, he hesitated. He was not Ke Xinhang, so why should he make a decision for him? Now he has occupied other people’s bodies, and he didn’t know anything about where Ke Xinhang was and whether he was still in the world. Was he now in a hurry to erase the other party’s existence?

       He didn’t like singing and he could resell Ke Xinhang’s expensive guitar and microphone. He could stop going to the bar, not participating in any competitions, and then live his next life according to his own wishes.

       But what did he like? Acting? He discouraged Ke Xinhang from singing, but could he use such a body to act again? What should the future look like? How could he take this step? Wen Jianing fell into unprecedented doubts and sat in front of the computer for a long time.

---

The author has something to say:

To explain the setting, xiao shou just has no fertility, but has the ability to have sex. Now he can’t do it because of psychological pressure. The original owner of the body can. Do you understand what I’m talking about… I always feel that every chapter is at risk of being locked.

I don’t know how long it will be. I actually have an outline, but I don’t have any idea about word count. I think I can write a very long outline. I might finish writing the outline all at once–

Yesterday I saw a girl saying she didn’t fatten up. I was almost happy and sent out today’s saved manuscript

---

*NG (No Good) refers to a bad take or bad recording in broadcasting world

**Originally the sentence is fame follows merit. It’s a chinese idiom to tell fame will always follows those who work hard

PS:

Ke Xinhang condition might be what you call as Penile agenesis

Please support the author if possible~

http://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=2198091

https://www.gongzicp.com/novel-253290.html

Here’s a very awesome guide on how to support the author using jjwxc!
Here’s another guide to support the author using gongzicp!

       After that, Wen Jianing didn’t make any more noises until the funeral was over. When the fans offered flowers, he didn’t even come forward to see them and just stood still.

       He saw Wen Cuilan leave with the help of her husband and saw the chief executive of his company and his secretary walking past him, followed by his agent and assistant behind. In fact, he thought about it carefully before coming. He would take advantage of the end of the funeral to find his assistant in private and tell him his identity because only he and the assistant knew of many of his personal life and habits. He would surely be able to confirm his identity, and then find the agent and his mother.

       But now Wen Jianing felt completely at loss. He had become like this. His body has been cremated and buried, and it was impossible to go back. Now this person was a pure stranger to them. After all, would they believe him? Even if they did, could he continue to live as Wen Jianing? Could he go back to his villa? Continue to star in the next movie he signed? Told people all over the world that the real Wen Jianing has come back from the dead?

       Besides, he still remembered the look in Wen Cuilan’s eyes just now. He might only be regarded as a lunatic or a liar who was crazy about money, right? His life has been completely distorted.

       He didn’t know when it began to rain, and the fans in the cemetery began to leave gradually. Wen Jianing stood alone until the end, and the security guards began to look at him with unfriendly eyes and drove him away silently.

       He bowed in the direction of his grave, then turned and left slowly.

       After unwinding in the public toilet of the cemetery, Wen Jianing became even more depressed. He almost forgot about his body. Before, he thought that he might be able to return to his body and hadn’t paid much attention to the disability, but now, he felt that he might really not be able to get out of this strange fate.

       Wen Jianing sat on a small flower stand outside the public toilet, looking at the distance in a daze. After a while, he looked down at his crotch and couldn’t see anything when he put on his pants, but he didn’t even have the courage to reach out and touch it.

       Originally, although he could not be called majestic, at least he was a very normal man, but now, he was not sure whether this boy named Ke Xinhang has normal male functions. Moreover, his physical deformity may be innate.* Although he was quite tall, his skeleton was a little thin. His outline was beautiful, but his Adam’s apple was not evident. His skin was white and tender, and his body hair was sparse.

       Even going to surgery probably won’t change anything.

       Wen Jianing sat in silence for a while. As he saw that it was getting late, he planned to leave the cemetery. He stood outside the cemetery, and he couldn’t find a taxi for a while. He has not taken a bus for years, but at this time there was no other way. He walked to the next station and waited for the only bus that went all the way into the city.

       After getting on the bus, Wen Jianing suddenly found that he didn’t know where to go. When he came out of Ke Xinhang’s house, he took a taxi in a hurry. He didn’t pay attention to where he had left at the time. Now he blankly wondered how to get home by bus.

       He watched the bus drive all the way to the city. Wen Jianing began to look into Ke Xinhang’s small backpack with his head down.

       Just when he took out the phone, the phone suddenly rang. The caller ID was someone named Shan ge*.

       Wen Jianing answered the phone, “Hello”.

       There was a man’s voice on the other side of the phone. He said, “Xinhang, come to the bar to work at night. Yu Jing has asked for leave today.”

      Wen Jianing was silent and did not immediately answer.

      Shan ge asked, “What? You can’t come?”

      Wen Jianing said immediately, “No, I’ll come. How should I go there by bus?”

      Shan ge fell silent, “What’s wrong with you?”

      Wen Jianing said, “I…forgot how to get there.”

      Shan ge then said, “Take a taxi and I’ll give the address to you.”

      Then he hung up.

      Wen Jianing looked at the busy line and only knew that he was going to a bar, but he had no idea where the bar was and what its name was.

      After he put down the phone, Wen Jianing suddenly remembered something. He searched Ke Xinhang’s wallet and found a business card in it. This card left some impression when he got up in the morning and look through Ke Xinhang’s things. The name Su Shan was written on the business card. He was a bar owner. The name of the bar was Red Forest. There was a small row of detailed addresses below.

      Wen Jianing decided to go to the Red Forest first. At least he can know what kind of person Ke Xinhang was.

      It was already more than five o’clock in the afternoon when he arrived there. The bar hadn’t opened yet, but the waiter inside was already making preparations.

      Everyone who saw him greeted him kindly and called him Xinhang.

      He has been out all day since he went out in the morning. Up until now, he hadn’t eaten a mouthful of food or drank a drop of water. He was very tired and sat down in front of the bar. Wen Jianing asked the bartender, “Do you have anything to eat?”

      While wiping the glass, the bartender said, “I haven’t made any food yet, wait a minute.” With that, he went around to the back kitchen.

      He waited for ten minutes, and the kitchen staff at the back brought him seafood fried rice.

      Wen Jianing thanked him and picked up a spoon to eat fried rice.

      He thought that Ke Xinhang probably has been working in this bar for a long time, so he was close with everyone here. Even his food preference did not need to be questioned, the kitchen naturally knew.

      Before he finished his food, Wen Jianing saw a thin man coming from behind the bar, and everyone who passed by called him Shan ge.

      Wen Jianing knew that this man was Su Shan, so he nodded to him and called, “Shan ge.”

      Su Shan sat down beside Wen Jianing and asked, “Did you bring your guitar today?”

      Wen Jianing didn’t know how to answer, so he was silent for a while as a way of saying yes.

      Su Shan then asked him, “Then what are you going to sing today? Go up to sing a cappella?”

      Wen Jianing was a little surprised and looked at Su Shan.

      Su Shan thought he was a little strange and asked, “What’s the matter with you today? Something’s wrong? “

      In fact, from Su Shan’s words, Wen Jianing could conclude that Ke Xinhang’s original job was probably the resident singer of this bar. He liked to play and sing on stage with his guitar. He just felt a little surprised, but under Su Shan’s questioning, he quickly cleared up his emotion, shook his head and said, “Nothing.”

      Su Shan looked at him inexplicably and said, “Wait for me to send you back tonight, there is something to tell you.”

      Wen Jianing nodded, and said, “Okay.”

      After he finished his meal and took a break, the bar opened, and guests came one after another.

      As a resident singer, his performance didn’t officially start until eight o’clock.

      Wen Jianing was a professional actor, not a singer, but he had also sung songs on many occasions. He even had professional vocal training and appeared in musicals. He didn’t sing not because he couldn’t master the skills of singing, but because he had a bad voice and had no interest in singing itself.

      Now even when he had to suddenly sing on the stage, he won’t have stage fright. He dared to open his mouth and sing when tens of thousands of people asked him to sing a capella, let alone in the presence of such a small bar.

      But when he communicated with the bar’s band, the other party was obviously not so happy.

      Wen Jianing felt a little strange about this because he always thought Ke Xinhang was a good person to get along with. It could be seen from the attitude of other waiters in the bar. He didn’t know what friction there is between the band and Ke Xinhang and where the resistance came from.

      However, since they received the money from the bar, they would still do the work that should be done. After Wen Jianing came on stage, the band still played the accompaniment cooperatively.

      It was a pop lyric song.

      Wen Jianing himself didn’t know many songs. He was familiar with this song because it was the theme song of one of his movies. It was highly popular in the streets, and the original singer was a female singer. Another reason for choosing this song was that Ke Xinhang’s original voice was softer and clearer than that of ordinary men because of his body, which was relatively suitable for this fresh female song.

      As soon as the accompaniment started, the bartender in the bar stopped his action and said to Su Shan who sat in front of the bar, “What’s the matter with Xinhang today? Something’s wrong. “

      Wen Jianing actually didn’t know Ke Xinhang at all.

      Ke Xinhang was only cheerful and optimistic on the surface, but he was actually very cautious and sensitive. He had always had his own persistence in music. When he sang in the bar, he mostly sang his own original songs or some unpopular English songs.  Whether he was good at singing or not, his selection of songs was destined to be unpopular. Only because Su Shan has a good relationship with him, he could make his own decision.

      Because he didn’t need band accompaniment, the relationship between him and the band was not very good. Maybe they were somewhat dissatisfied with each other.

      But today, Ke Xinhang stood on the stage and sang a popular song uncharacteristically. The effect was unexpectedly good.

      Su Shan noticed that most of the guests were attracted to the performance. He also turned his head to Ke Xinhang in the stands. He felt that he was indeed a little different today.

      If he had to say something, it was probably because he has an unusual appeal today. If one only talked about singing, Wen Jianing might not be comparable to Ke Xinhang, but when it comes to stage expressiveness and appeal, even ten Ke Xinhang might not catch up with one Wen Jianing. How to integrate emotion into a song and let the audience feel it, was the same as how to embed emotion in his lines for Wen Jianing.

      The melodious and clear voice echoed with a little thought. When the song was over, the whole bar burst into applause.

      Several regulars also came to ask Su Shan what happened to the singer today.

      Su Shan smiled and shook his head.

      After the song ended, Wen Jianing sang another classic pop song from the 1990s, which was still very popular.

    At the end of the two songs, he thanked them and stepped down to rest.

---

The author has something to say:

I received a lot of encouragement at the beginning, thank you very much. In particular, I remember the names of the readers who chased me one article after another. There will be some plan to feed the fan outside. Just need to have a change of mood to think of another good thing to write.

The xiao shou** balls are already pitiful enough, so don’t pay too much attention to this problem. The rhythm of the first chapter may be a little slower. Welcome to collect it up, but remember to bookmark it

---

*ge = brother (a way of calling someone older than you, male in particular)

** Xiao shou = little bottom (referring to Ke Xinhang)

Please support the author if possible~

http://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=2198091

PPS: :9
Here’s a very awesome guide on how to support the author using jjwxc!

 

TL: Hoenimochi
PR: Hoenika

       When Wen Jianing woke up, he could still feel the pain of hangover and couldn’t help but raise his hand and pressed his forehead.

       He was no longer young. The second half of this year was his 34th birthday. He wanted to maintain his appearance and figure and maintain his best state, so he didn’t allow himself to drink too much.

       But last night was different. At the Academy Awards ceremony, he won the first Film Emperor title in his life. This Film Emperor title meant a lot to him and was not just a simple affirmation of himself. But more importantly, it was because his award-winning movie was co-produced with Lu Jinlang. In the movie ‘Duel’ in which he co-starred with Lu Jinlang, he defeated Lu Jinlang, who was nominated for the best actor with him and won the golden villain’s trophy. 

       Many media like to hype Lu Jinlang as the enemy in his life, but to him, it wasn’t just mere hype. He did regard Lu Jinlang as his enemy, and that enemy had won over him twice when they were nominated at the same time. This was the first time he turned his defeat into victory over his opponent. He believed that this would continue in the future. After all, he was only 34 years old. As an actor, he was still very young.

         When Wen Jianing opened his eyes, his head went blank for a moment. He was puzzled because he was not in his room. It was reasonable to say that even if he was drunk and unconscious, his assistant would take him home and let him rest on his bed. But this was obviously not his home.

       The room was narrow and dark. It was a small apartment. He sat up and found that the bedroom and living room were open, but there was a partition between the bed and the door.

       This was not his house. For a moment, he suspected that this was his assistant’s home. He looked down at himself. His upper body was naked and his lower body was wearing a pair of pyjamas. Of course, it was not his pyjamas. Moreover, he felt that his line of sight was a little strange and he couldn’t figure out why.

      He could see at a glance that he was alone. There was no one in the house.

       Wen Jianing walked into the bathroom to wash his face. When he was standing in front of the bathroom mirror, he opened his eyes in astonishment and could no longer maintain his calm mood.

       The person in the mirror was not him at all.

       Wen Jianing was an elegant and handsome man. The media liked to describe him as a handsome young man, but the reflection in the mirror was a younger man, much younger than he should be. His whole face was beautiful and full of youth. When he saw the surprised expression of the man in the mirror, he was convinced that he had really become the man in the reflection.

    He then suddenly knew why he felt that his line of sight was wrong, because not only his face had changed but also his body. Now his body screams youth. His figure was also very good. He was even thinner and taller than Wen Jianing himself. You could say it matched well with the face in the reflection.

       But no matter how well it matched, these features did not belong to Wen Jianing. He stood frozen in front of the mirror for a long time.

       Wen Jianing’s train of thought suddenly went wild. Like the plot of a thriller movie, maybe he met someone and those people operated on him, changed his face and then left him in a strange room to wake up and lose himself. What about the original him? Maybe someone else took over his identity and continued to live a life belonging to Wen Jianing?

       These messy thoughts resurfaced in his mind as he rushed out of the bathroom and began to look for a backpack left beside the bed. He found a wallet, ID and bank card in it. The photo on the document was the photo of his face now. His name was Ke Xinhang, and he had just turned 20 this year.

      He continued to look around the house, including cabinets, drawers, and the phone on the table. There were countless pieces of evidence that the owner of this house points to the young man called Ke Xinhang. Ke Xinhang looks exactly the same as he looks today. He randomly found a set of clothes in the closet and put it on. It was a perfect fit.

       Wen Jianing was not sure what had happened. He began to have an idea that was more terrible and ridiculous than someone changing his face, but whether that idea was right or not, he had to go out and do something. He needed to prove his existence.

       After he changed clothes and packed up, Wen Jianing went to the bathroom. This was the first time he tried to urinate after getting up in the morning. He was standing in front of the toilet and unzipping his pants when he discovered something terrible. At that moment, his forehead was covered with a dense cold sweat, which was even worse than the blow he received when he first woke up.

       He was in a hurry when he took off his pyjamas before. Now he noticed that his body was incomplete. His genitalia was incomplete, he has no testicles, and that thing was very small, just like a child’s. He wasn’t intersex but he was just born with a crippled body.

       Wen Jianing took two steps back and hit the washing machine with his back. His face was a little pale. For a man, there was no greater shock than this.

       After he stood there for a long time, Wen Jianing went to urinate. He then put on his pants and walked out. He have to find his own body and figure out what was going on.

       Wen Jianing hurried out the door and stood by the roadside to take a taxi. At the same time, he dialled his number. He heard a reply that it was turned off. He took his cell phone and pressed it randomly, and found that he couldn’t remember the phone numbers of his agent and assistant. Those were always on his phone, and he never once thought of memorizing them.

       He got inside the taxi in a hurry and gave the address of the garden house where he lived to the driver. He planned to go home first.

       The taxi driver was listening to some entertainment news on the radio. The female announcer said in a regretful voice, “Today is the burial day of the movie star, Wen Jianing. Wen Jianing died suddenly due to excessive drinking at the age of 34, the next day after he had just won the Academy Award. He had starred in nearly 20 films since his debut. Because of his superb acting skills and professional attitude, he was deeply loved by fans and friends. Today, he will be buried in Xiangyunshan Cemetery. Many fans spontaneously coordinated to say goodbye…”

       Later, the female voice continued to introduce Wen Jianing’s life and movies, but Wen Jianing himself was no longer listening.

      He repeated it over and over again in his head, “Today is the burial day of the movie star, Wen Jianing. Wen Jianing died suddenly due to excessive drinking at the age of 34, the next day after he had just won the Academy Award.” and his whole body was stunned.

       He died? And not only that, but he had been dead for so many days already, and was going to be buried today?

       Wen Jianing took out the phone from his pocket in disbelief. He subconsciously thought that today was the second day of the awards ceremony, but it didn’t even occur to him to check the date on his phone. He pressed the screen with a trembling hand and found out that six days had passed since the awards ceremony. In other words, if he died suddenly because of drinking, it was indeed almost time to be buried today.

       This was not a joke. Wen Jianing may really be dead.

       He leaned back on the back of the chair without strength, and then was brought back to his senses by the sound of a horn outside. Wen Jianing looked blankly out of the window and then said to the driver, “Mister, please go to Xiangyunshan Cemetry.”

       Today, many people came to Xiangyunshan Cemetery, including Wen Jianing’s relatives and friends, as well as the fans who came spontaneously. In order to maintain the order at the scene, they even sent out security guards to block the fans and reporters where Wen Jianing was being buried. However, in order to thank the fans, Wen Jianing’s mother and the agency agreed to let the fans line up for flowers after the funeral.

       At this time, Wen Jianing was standing in the line for fans, some of whom he even knew, because every time he had any activities, these girls would be there.

       One of the girls was crying so hard that she could hardly make a sound. She leaned reluctantly against the other person besides her to breathe.

       Wen Jianing’s cemetery was so large that it could even be called luxurious. It was surrounded by lush and vibrant green grass. At this time, there are many big figures in the entertainment industry standing in that meadow. Most of them wore solemn clothes and held white flowers in their hands.

       Among them was a tall, white man. He was holding a crestfallen woman. The woman looked like she was in her fifties. That woman was Wen Jianing’s mother, Ms. Wen Cuilan. Wen Jianing’s father had passed away a long time ago. His mother married the Canadian next to her five years ago and now lives abroad all year round.

       When Wen Cuilan personally put Wen Jianing’s urn into the cemetery, she was so grief-stricken that she almost fainted.

       When he saw this scene, Wen Jianing couldn’t restrain his emotions and ended up shouting, “Mom!”

       Originally, the atmosphere at the scene was quiet and solemn but Wen Jianing’s shout immediately attracted everyone’s attention, including Wen Cuilan. But of course, no one would think he was calling Wen Cuilan, because Wen Cuilan herself soon turned around and stopped looking at him.

       Only the security guard who maintained order came over and warned him not to make any loud noises.

       Wen Jianing then held back his emotions, did not let himself lose his mind, and apologized to the security guard.

       The ceremony continued step by step. Wen Jianing stood desperately on the spot, watching his urn being buried, and then the guests present came up to him one by one to offer him flowers.

       At this time, Wen Jianing saw Lu Jinlang among the people who offered flowers.

       After so many years of debut, Lu Jinlang was probably the one who has been compared with Wen Jianing the most. Lu Jinlang was 32 years old this year, two years younger than Wen Jianing. However, he has won the Best Actor of the Academy Awards twice, and Wen Jianing was only nominated both times.

       In fact, Wen Jianing and Lu Jinlang were not close with one another in private. His impression of Lu Jinlang was that he had always been a cold and steady character. His appearance was very outstanding and his acting skills were excellent. Famous director Zhang Qi once said in front of the media that there was no role that Lu Jinlang couldn’t play. Wen Jianing was a little unconvinced. He carefully studied Lu Jinlang’s performance and found that it was indeed flawless, but this did not mean that he was convinced. From the bottom of his heart, Wen Jianing has been competing with Lu Jinlang.

       But Wen Jianing didn’t know what Lu Jinlang was thinking. There were too few personal contacts between the two. Wen Jianing once heard that Lu Jinlang’s backup was very powerful, but he still didn’t know how powerful it was.

       Lu Jinlang took off the sunglasses from his face when he offered flowers. There was no emotion on his face. He placed the flowers in front of the tombstone and reached out to gently brush away the petals blocking Wen Jianing’s photos. Then he got up and held Wen Cuilan’s hand and said something in a low voice. Wen Jianing guessed that it was nothing more than words of comfort and condolences. 

       After that, Lu Jinlang put on his sunglasses and walked outside. The reporter’s camera began to flash wildly at him. His pace was not hasty or slow, just like his usual steady character, but when he passed by in front of Wen Jianing, he turned his head in his direction.

       Because he was wearing sunglasses, Wen Jianing wasn’t sure if his eyes were on him.

       Then Lu Jinlang left first.

---

The author has something to say:
Open the pit! I don’t know what to say, thank you for your support!

---

*PS: I know there is already another translation of this, but I have translated from ch 56 all the way to end and feels it’s more appropriate for me to redo from the start instead of simply continuing from the other’s hard work

Please support the author if possible~

http://www.jjwxc.net/onebook.php?novelid=2198091
https://www.gongzicp.com/novel-253290.html

PPS: :9
Here’s a very awesome guide on how to support the author using jjwxc!

---

Update (21-04-22)
I will be redoing this novel as in re-editing this in my own pace to enhance reader’s experience in reading this