Chapter 20 – What should I do if I can’t let go

Chapter 20 – What should I do if I can’t let go?


Chen Ying answered the phone. Shen Qinghong’s voice sounded exhausted, “Have you met them already? Tell me about it.”


Chen Ying held the phone thoughtfully. “I checked the young madam’s car, it was registered under the name of the Xing family. Although his style of dressing was simple, the price of each piece of garment was not low. He has not touched the card. They were obviously expensive but it was all bought using his own money. As an illegitimate child, having that much is a bit unfounded.”




“And…” Chen Ying hesitated for a moment, “he was quite…beautiful.”


Chen Qinghong paused before giving a muffled laugh. “Chen Ying, Chen Ying ah. You’ve spent so many years around the old lady. With your standards, you judged the person to not only be of a high caliber, but to be pretty as well. I am a little curious about her. What kind of child could make Qi Yun change his heart and become sincere?”


“Chairman, do you need me to contact the Xing family? I still feel a little worried.”


Shen Qinghong smiled. “It’s not the time yet. Don’t act rashly and alert them just yet. What kind of attitude does Yun’er treat her with?”


Chen Ying brows. “Young master Qi Yun places a great amount of trust in the young madam, plus he… really likes the young madam. “


Shen Qinghong closed up the files with documents on the table. “Oh? Has Yun-er’s stone heart opened up? Where did Xing Zhengping find such a precious thing, a beautiful doll that stole my Yun’er’s heart? “


Chen Ying said with a sullen face, “Chairman… not a doll, but a bonafide man.”


Shen Qinghong’s voice suddenly disappeared. After a long time, there was a burst of laughter from the phone line, “Chen Ying, please leave this matter alone in the future. Just take care of Yun’er’s legs. This situation seems interesting. A man?! Qi Yun, just where do your interests lie?”


Xing Zhongwan sent a message to Cheng Zhengzhe after he returned to the villa and gave him Chen Ying’s number to allow him to bring the specialist directly to him. After the message was sent, Xing Zhongwan threw his phone on the bed. Xing Zhongwan pulled out the toolbox and was about to find a way to pry open the bracelet in his hand… 


As he was about to do this, a loud noise came from downstairs. Xing Zhongwan tossed away the wire cutter that was in his hands, annoyed. Can he not have a single moment of peace today?


Chen Ying’s people are here. So noisy. Was this the medical team or engineering team, and were they coming to demolish the house?


Xing Zhongwan’s face was dark. The old housekeeper looked at him questioningly. Xing Zhongwan said that he had nothing to do with this matter.


“I don’t know about this, you can ask Qi Yun yourself.” The old housekeeper went up to the third floor unwillingly. After a while, there was a sound of heavy objects falling and the old housekeeper came out of the room with a sullen expression and let the engineering team through the door.


Xing Zhongwan fished an apple in the kitchen and watched the boisterous group of people pass by the side hall on the first floor. He bit the apple and went upstairs. When he went in, he saw Qi Yun struggling as if he wanted to get up. Xing Zhongwan held the apple in his mouth and helped the person up, “They are here. By the looks of it, they want to build you a space for rehabilitation and physical therapy. Hey, with such a big ruckus going on, aren’t you afraid of the ones who are dumbly staring at you because they don’t know about what’s going on? “


Qi Yun faced Xing Zhongwan, “Once the Shen family gets involved, the Qi family will not interrupt. As for other people… they do not dare offend the Shen family.”


Xing Zhongwan bit the apple, “Then why didn’t you look for the Shen family earlier? Suffering by yourself for so long and in vain.” 


Qi Yun stretched out his hand towards Xing Zhongwan, “I still haven’t met you at the time, remember? Now give me a bite.”


Xing Zhongwan glanced at the porous apple that was bitten by himself, “I’ve already bitten into it.”


Qi Yun said, “It’s okay, just give it here.”


Xing Zhongwan shockingly passed the apple in his hand, watching Qi Yun slowly put it to his mouth and took a bite at the same parts where he had bitten. The juice soaked up his lips, gradually turning it rosy, “Today’s apple is not bad, very sweet.”


Xing Zhongwan was dumbfounded, his face flushed. F/ck, you… Qi Yun, you savage!


He hurried downstairs and took a new apple, putting it in Qi Yun’s hand, “This is for you, I will supervise the work downstairs.”


After saying that, he ran like he was flying away. Qi Yun felt the apple in his hand, his lips curled into a smile. That person can’t stand to be teased… when they get married in the future, what should he do?


The people that Chen Ying brought in were really efficient. A nearly perfect rehabilitation room was built in two days. The medical team also arrived that afternoon. There was a professional team to take care of Qi Yun and help him recover. Xing Zhongwan was very happy and felt that he could finally relax. He even went out to make an appointment. He did not expect Qi Yun to ask him to be with him by his side. Not just at night, but during the day too. When he got sweaty, Xing Zhongwan had to bathe him and change his clothes.


Simply put, the medical team would only be responsible for the technical work. He was still dependent on Xing Zhongwan for the rest, like getting fed meals, being clothed and getting around. It was almost the same as before. Xing Zhongwan’s dream of rolling around the sheet every day was shattered as he guarded the grown man day and night. Looking after the big man Qi Yun, he felt that he was not far from going insane.


On the contrary, Qi Yun was cold and frosty, and his temper was unpredictable. Several nurses were scolded by him to tears. Xing Zhongwan felt embarrassed as he watched from the side, the girl had such pretty and soft features, how could you continue to scold her? If it were me, I’d feel so bad.


Holding out a lollipop to comfort a few nurses until they started smiling, Xing Zhongwan thought, you have to rely on them to rehabilitate and get better, what good does it serve you to scold them to the point of crying?


“He’s just like that. After a long time of being ill, he inevitably developed a bad temper. I’m sorry for you all. Miss nurses, I’ll give you these sweets and let you eat them every day.” A few young nurses were convinced to laughter by Xing Zhongwan and said “Thank you, young madam.”


Xing Zhongwan’s heart felt so bitter. Miss nurses, were you all blind too?


Of course Miss Nurses’ eyes were not blind but rather good. Before coming here, the medical team had signed an agreement that they should be very strict about what should be spoken and what should not.


The young madam is the young madam, even if a dog was called the young madam, then it is the young madam.


Those who carried out the task had to respect their benefactors. It wasn’t that they didn’t feel shy saying it, but this way, they could keep their lives by controlling what came out of their mouths.


Everyone in this house knew that Xing Zhongwan was a man, but they all ignored his gender. One after another, they called him Miss Xing, the young madam. It’s really no wonder Qi Yun believed that he was a girl lately.


Sometimes when Xing Zhongwan said a few more words to the little nurses, Qi Yun would ask him to wipe his sweat after hearing their conversation. Then, he would tell him not to talk to the little nurses too often. His expression looked terrible when he said this.


Xing Zhongwan didn’t understand this. You think I’m a girl so what if Miss nurses and I say a few more words? Why are you not happy? Could it be that those little nurses are the ones who actually changed their gender?


Qi Yun, you are too controlling.


That being said, although Qi Yun’s rehabilitation was progressing slowly, there is still some progress. This person’s fatigue was never obviously plastered on his face, no matter how painful it got or how tired he was, his mouth stayed silent. At night, he was sweating but he hid under the quilt without complaining. Fortunately, there was one time where Xing Zhongwan found out and was frightened half to death, thinking what was happening to him? He called the doctor in the middle of the night to find out that it was a normal development and let the doctor teach him a few soothing massages. At night, he rubbed Qi Yun’s legs and waist for him.


When Qi Yun was sweating profusely, Xing Zhongwan also sweated profusely. After all, he had to take baths and change clothes for Qi Yun. After such an ordeal, Xing Zhongwan was so tired that he wanted to go to heaven to see his mother. He was exhausted when his head hit the pillows.


What Xing Zhongwan didn’t know was that every night, there was always a pair of eyes facing his face with a very complicated expression. A slender hand with well-defined knuckles always hung down beside the bed, looking for Xing Zhongwan’s hand before holding them gently.


“Wanwan, I will definitely get better, wait for me.”


Xing Zhongwan came back from outside today. Last night, Qi Yun said he wanted to eat Java apples so the ‘babysitter’ Xing set out early in the morning. When he came back, there was a group of people standing on the side of the hall trembling and dared not leave. Xing Zhongwan gave the bag in his hand to the servant, and the servant hurried to the kitchen as if she was running for her life.


“What’s the matter?” Xing Zhongwan looked at the old housekeeper. The old housekeeper was calm but suddenly there was the sound of the glass shattering from down the hall.


“Go away, get out!” It was Qi Yun’s voice. Xing Zhongwan walked quickly towards the hall and a few nurses came out from the door, one of them was even bleeding from her forehead.


Xing Zhongwan was shocked, “What’s the matter?”


The head nurse was calm, “Master Yun, well… He still couldn’t stand up today. Master Yun…”


Xing Zhongwan understood in a second, “I understand. Quickly take nurse Xiaocheng away to have her wound treated. I’ll go in and have a look.”


Several nurses nodded quickly. They couldn’t afford to offend the angry person inside the room.


Xing Zhongwan went in and it was a mess inside. Qi Yun leaned against the wall and panted, with his head hanging down, the expression on his face couldn’t be seen. Xing Zhongwan walked around the glass shards all over the floor and approached Qi Yun, “What’s wrong?”


He squatted down in front of him, “What are you doing with such a bad temper? Physical rehabilitation needs to be done slowly, you can’t rush it. Why are you getting mad at those little nurses?”


Qi Yun was panting and he slowly raised his head. His face was still thin, but his appearance had changed a lot from when they first met. On multiple occasions, Xing Zhongwan has seen the others in the same room blushing after looking at Qi Yun’s face.


“You’re still speaking on their behalf!”


Qi Yun’s voice was deep. By now, his voice has basically returned to the tone he had before the accident.


“I’m not speaking for them, I just wanted to say that you shouldn’t push yourself too hard?”


Xing Zhongwan explained patiently.


“Are those girls very beautiful?”


Xing Zhongwan was stunned. Qi Yun, was I talking to you about this?


“Does this have anything to do with whether the girls are beautiful? You!”


Qi Yun opened his arms and pulled Xing Zhongwan closer to hug him. Xing Zhongwan was already squatting in an unstable position. Qi Yun pulled in his whole body and was almost completely pressed on him.


“F/ck, what are you doing?”


Xing Zhongwan was a little angry but Qi Yun hugged Xing Zhongwan and buried his face in his neck.


”Wanwan, you are mine. No one can hurt you.”


Qi Yun’s warm breath was on Xing Zhongwan’s neck, brushing on his skin little by little. There was an itchy feeling in his heart.


“No one will hurt me, Qi Yun, let go of me first.”


Xing Zhongwan was afraid that if he used his strength, he would hurt Qi Yun, but the sudden hug made him very uncomfortable.


Qi Yun raised his head, “What should I do if I can’t let go?”




Xing Zhongwan didn’t hear clearly, “What did you say?”


Qi Yun cupped Xing Zhongwan’s face with both hands, and stopped his fingers beside his lips.

Xing Zhongwan’s mind was about to explode, this was really the most ‘magical’ moment he has ever experienced…


T/N: This update was brought to you by Uncle Peeps 😀 tHANKS fOR dONATING!1! <3 Lub u

Heyhey! I promised another update two days ago right? Here it is!!! Hope you enjoyed the chapter~~

(ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ♥ BTW, do you know what Java apples are? Where I grew up, we call them Jambu Air, which translates to Water Figs I think… I love them quite alot, even prefer them a little more than normal apples. They’re softer, yet more crunchier than our regular common apples, and perfect for my weak-old-man teeth kek. I also like how they’re not too sweet, yet very juicy. Maybe if ya’ll get a chance, I would recommend it!!

Also, some of them come in a really pretty shade of pink, though I’m not sure if those are edible, since I’ve always eaten the red varieties. Maybe they all turn red after they’re ripe…


ASDFG!!! Also, I think Qi Yun just kissed Xing Zhongwan hehe (⊙.⊙) I can’t wait t share with y’all his reaction to it in the next chapter. If it wasn’t obvious enough, our little shou is actually straight. In fact, he’s quite a playboy and even sleeps around. I wonder if his 3 world views will all be shattered. He’d probably even get angry so his gong husband will have to placate him. Who knows? Continue reading to find out hehe 🙂

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  1. Cocole

    Mist likely knows he is a man??

  2. Baisha

    I really don’t understand why he is getting jealous of the nurses.He thinks wanwan as girl! Then why does he care if wanwan is chatting with the beautiful nuses.
    Or is it that he knows that wanwan is boy!

    Whatever it is,,,still it’s wrong for him to physically hurt a innocent person just for his jealously. He should apologise & reflect on it.

    Thanks for the chapter ❤️

  3. Yuhua

    I’m sorry, Wanwan’s situation could be said to be very tiring but his thoughts just makes me wanna at him. 😭😭😭

  4. riot2022

    Thank you for translating! I’m loving this book. I can’t wait for the day Qi Yun finds out that the young madam is a man.

  5. UnclePeeps

    Thank you for the chapter. Happy to give a little in return for the wonderful translations.

    Are they gonna kiss????!??


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