Chapter 27 – Are you disappointed I’m not dead yet?
It took a long time for Xing Zhongwan to pull himself together and out of his extreme shock. He looked at Qi Yun as if he was looking at an alien. After two months of getting along closely, Xing Zhongwan felt that he had never really got to know this person well.
He sat down again on the chair on the side and moistened his dry lips. Many words ran through his mind but all he could say was, “I’m a man, Qi Yun. Do you swing the other way?”
Qi Yun shook his head.
Xing Zhongwan leaned back on the chair, feeling dizzy. He rubbed his brows, he didn’t know whether this feeling was from drinking or if he was upset.
“When did you find out that I’m a man?”
Qi Yun slowly retracted his hands holding onto Xing Zhongwan’s clothes. Those bandaged hands clenched themselves uneasily, “From the time you brought me to see Chen Ying. I’ve only been suspicious before but from then on, I was sure.”
In fact, he didn’t want it to be true. In his heart, Qi Yun still preferred to believe that Wanwan was a girl.
Xing Zhongwan couldn’t help rolling his eyes, I carried you on my back every day, even to the point of hugging you. How much effort did you spend to brainwash yourself into thinking that I’m a woman? With this voice and figure moreover.
Thinking of this, Xing Zhongwan was not so angry anymore. Instead, he felt a little funny.
“In the beginning, I really thought you were a girl. It’s not that I didn’t have any doubts with your voice like that… But they kept calling you Miss Xing, so I thought you were just taller and stronger than average, with a deeper voice too…”
Qi Yun took a deep breath, “But as I spent more time with you, I felt less uncomfortable. But I convinced myself and still hoped from the bottom of my heart that you were a girl. That was until I took you to meet Chen Ying. Chen Ying definitely informed Shen Qinghong that you are wearing the bracelet.”
After that, there was no movement from the Shen family. By then, I was finally sure that you were not a woman. But after, you were taken away by my mother and managed to come back safely in the end. That was when I had to face reality. If you were a real woman, my mother would never let you stay by my side.”
Qi Yun spoke very slowly, word by word, and it tugged on Xing Zhongwan’s heart.
Why didn’t the Shen family make any moves after knowing that he was a man?
Why did Qi Yun’s mother let him go after finding out ‘Miss Xing’ was a man, Xing Zhongwan wasn’t interested in knowing.
Qi Yun twisted his hands. Seeing that the bandages on his hand were about to loosen, Xing Zhongwan grabbed his wrist and said, “Don’t. Do you want the doctor to come again in the middle of the night?”
Qi Yun stopped, “Wanwan, I don’t like men, but I like you. After I fell in love with you, I found out that you were a man. What can I do? Can love be taken back just because you want to take it back? I didn’t dare say this because I didn’t want to scare you. Being liked by a man who is blind and also crippled, I… I was afraid you would leave…”
Xing Zhongwan’s anger almost ceased after he watched Qi Yun lower his head and explain this carefully. It was inexplicably odd to see Qi Yun act like a primary school student who had done something wrong.
“As for the matter of calling me a girl over and over again, did it feel very good to play ignorant?”
Xing Zhongwan deliberately lowered his voice.
Qi Yun raised his head sharply, “No, Wanwan, I…I…”
Xing Zhongwan felt like a bully who just bullied a woman from a good family. Qi Yun’s confused look was very fun to watch, yes, but blatantly bullying earnest people will make you feel somewhat ashamed.
Xing Zhongwan bent down and approached Qi Yun, “Qi Yun, maybe this feeling of yours is an illusion because I was there to help you in your most difficult time, so it’s normal for you to depend on me. It’s not the kind of love between men and women that you think. When you get better in the future and have a new life, you will soon forget me. I was just an accident in your life. There’s nothing wrong with you for having these accidental feelings.”
Xing Zhongwan wanted to convince him that it was impossible for two men to be together!
Qi Yun’s face turned pale and blue, but he turned to face Xing Zhongwan’s direction, his cloudy eyes like a pool of stagnant water.
“You are not an accident, and my feelings for you are definitely not abnormal.”
Both his hands grabbed Xing Zhongwan’s hand and slowly placed them between his crotch. Xing Zhongwan’s hand felt like he grabbed a piece of hot coal. He wanted to toss it away. He didn’t know where Qi Yun had managed to find so much strength from but he couldn’t break free for a while. Feeling that the semi-hard thing was gradually heating up, Xing Zhongwan glared at Qi Yun with his eyes open, “You! You!”
Qi Yun put his forehead on Xing Zhongwan’s forehead as the two of their breaths intertwined, “Wanwan, you know that I’ve spent much effort to accept that you’re indeed a man, it’s a fact that I have feelings for you. Please don’t leave. Give me a little time and give yourself a little time. If you don’t try, how do you know that you can’t accept me?”
Xing Zhongwan’s brain exploded. For the first time, he felt Qi Yun’s seriousness, and the hardness in his hands made him unable to avoid it.
Xing Zhongwan was standing on the terrace at the end of the third floor smoking a cigarette. White smoke surrounded his face, and that visage between the real and the illusive image was beautiful and scary.
It’s not that Xing Zhongwan has never been confessed by a man since he was a child. This face has attracted many bees and butterflies since it blossomed at the age of fifteen. What happened to the men who confessed to him in the end? Xing Zhongwan thought about it carefully. They eventually left as they were afraid of getting hurt. Often detouring when they saw each other again. Swinging the braid on the back of his head that had never been cut, he looked up at the bright stars in the sky. Xing Zhongwan, it’s not your fault that you look good, everyone loves your appearance. However, Qi Yun has never seen what he looked like, so how did he fall in love with him? Could it be that he fell in love with what’s on the inside? Xing Zhongwan was disgusted by his own thoughts and accidentally choked.
After thinking about it for a long time, his mind went blank. The only thing I can be sure of is that Qi Yun worked hard to bend himself for him…
Xing Zhongwan thought about it all night and couldn’t come up with anything, so he decided to go back to the Xing family first. As he drove out early that morning, he didn’t notice that a group of cars were slowly driven into the villa. In the middle was a black car with its rear window slightly open. There was a beautiful woman looking at the car that was speeding away like the wind. The corners of her mouth that curved into a sneer went unnoticed.
Madam Qi got out of the car and more than 20 bodyguards cleared the way for her. The old housekeeper had been waiting at the door for a long time. Seeing Madam Qi, she hurried up to meet her. Madam Qi took off her gloves and handed them to the secretary on the side, “Where’s Qi Yun?” The old housekeeper bowed down, “The third young master, Qi Yun is upstairs. Please come with me.”
Madam Qi waved her hand, “So you’re upstairs… Stay down here, I’ll go up by myself. Also, you did a good job, I’ll get your son out as soon as possible.” A hint of gratitude flashed in the old housekeeper’s eyes, “Thank you madam, thank you madam.”
Madam Qi snorted softly. With a bang, she went upstairs gracefully. More than 20 bodyguards stood guard at the entrance of the stairs. The new servants in the villa did not dare to breathe.
Qi Yun was leaning on the bed and didn’t even look up when he heard the familiar sound of high heels. Madam Qi walked into the room, looked around and laughed out loud, “It seems that he takes good care of you. Your complexion is also a lot better now.”
Madam Qi approached Qi Yun and raised his chin with her fingers. Qi Yun looked at her with dull eyes. Madam Qi retracted her finger gently, “You still haven’t changed. Since you were young, you often looked at me like you were looking at a stranger. Even now, you are unwilling to accept it. This is what I hate most. Children who are stubborn will always suffer for it.”
The sound of high heels reached Qi Yun’s ears little by little. Madam Qi walked around Qi Yun’s bed before finally stopping.
Qi Yun raised his head indifferently, “Are you disappointed I’m not dead yet?!”
T/N: Jeez, always in those large family dramas, it’s always the primadonna mother-in-law causing trouble for everyone… Hang in there Zhongwan~
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