Chapter 7 –  I love you, so I would rather let you go


Cheng Zhengzhe followed Xue Qing carefully after seeing her expression change like a kaleidoscope.


“What’s with your expression? You’ve been staring at them for a long time. Be a little bit more restrained, I admit that the man is good-looking, but you should also be a little more reserved. Don’t embarrass Laoxing.”


Xue Qing raised her foot and stepped on Chen Zhengzhe’s leather shoes with her high heels very accurately. Cheng Zhengzhe’s face went blue. With a smile on his face, and he turned slightly and said softly, “Xue Qing, are you trying to murder me? Laozi is in so much pain!”


“Open your dog’s eyes to see exactly who I’m looking at!”


Cheng Zhengzhe endured the pain, who else could it be other than a guy? Thinking about it this way, he couldn’t help but carefully look at the man not far away.


The decent black suit on him was very prudent and the proportion of the man’s figure was just right. His hair was combed meticulously, revealing a smooth forehead and when he turned around, those eyes just swept over to meet Cheng Zhengzhe’s.


I’m leaving. Cheng Zhengzhe wasn’t going to start with his guilty conscience. Those eyes were too bright to look directly at. When he looked at him, he felt like he’d be sucked into the light.


But he seemed a little familiar, where have he seen him before?


Xue Qing saw Qi Yun looking over, before he lowered his head and said something to the entourage beside him. He then walked straight towards them.


Xue Qing pulled Cheng Zhengzhe, who was still unclear about the situation, and said, “Sissy, Qi Yun is coming over here. He has heard my voice before, so I won’t speak later.” 


There was a hint of surprise in Cheng Zhengzhe’s eyes, Qi Yun? That was Qi Yun?


No wonder! No wonder Laoxing ran away so fast. His lover was chasing after him.


While he was thinking about it, Qi Yun had already walked in front of the two of them. Cheng Zhengzhe was pushed forward without any remorse by Xue Qing.


Cheng Zhengzhe calmed down and smiled.


Qi Yun looked at him fixedly before suddenly stretching out his hand to him, “Hello, I’m Qi Yun.”


Cheng Zhengzhe extended his hand and held it in a friendly manner, “Hello, I’m Cheng Zhengzhe.”


Qi Yun looked at the tall and handsome man in front of him before glancing over at Xue Qing, who was standing behind him, “Miss Xue, long time no see.”


Xue Qing gritted her back molars. This Qi Yun was really capable. He was quick at finding things, and has already caught up to her.


Cheng Zhengzhe secretly complained in his heart that he hasn’t started acting yet. Others have made it clear that they didn’t want to mingle with him anymore in a straightforward manner.


Laoxing, you have such good foresight.


Xue Qing pushed Cheng Zhengzhe away from him, “It’s amazing that you’ve chased us all the way here. What’s the matter? Did you want to have a drink with me to catch up with the old days?”


Xue Qing’s tone was not good. If it wasn’t because the situation did not allow it, she wanted to turn around and leave.


Qi Yun obviously didn’t care about Xue Qing’s tone. Those dark eyes remained deep and unchanged, but he hesitated a little, “I want to see Wanwan.”


Cheng Zhengzhe couldn’t help it, so he coughed twice and stepped back and calmly pulled the corner of  Xue Qing’s skirt, signaling her to calm down.


“I don’t know. Since you have the ability to find out about me and Laocheng, why can’t you find your Wanwan?”


Xue Qing dropped this sentence with a mocking expression on his face, “So what if you found him? The answer was already obvious when he left. What are playing at now? The old-fashioned cliche of reconciliation is not in line with your identity as the third young master Qi of today.”


Qi Yun stood in front of her motionless, without retreating in the slightest, “I just want to see him once. Even once is fine.”


“Meet him? To let you hurt him again? Qi Yun, go on and ask, what Xing Zhongwan’s identity is. He took care of you back then, but what about you, how did you treat him? He could have anyone. Even if he wanted a man, you’ll be the last man he goes to.”


Xue Qing spoke ruthlessly as Qi Yun pursed his lips and suppressed the pain in his heart, “Please tell me where he is.”


Cheng Zhengzhe saw that the atmosphere between the two was not right and approached Xue Qing, “What’s going on? I don’t understand what you are talking about. What happened back then?”


Xue Qing pushed Cheng Zhengzhe away and walked two steps closer to Qi Yun, “Qi Yun, ask yourself with your conscience, what right do you have to see him.”


After speaking, she bypassed Qi Yun and left. Cheng Zhengzhe was suspicious as he glanced at him and followed Xue Qing away. The entourage beside Qi Yun asked him if he wanted to follow them, but Qi Yun stood there, looking at the clean floor, stunned.


Cheng Zhengzhe stopped Xue Qing anxiously, “What the hell is going on? Are you and Laoxing hiding something from me?”


Xue Qing frowned, obviously not wanting to say more, “I’m afraid to tell you that you won’t be able to control your own strength…”


Cheng Zhengzhe was stunned for a moment, before saying, “Should I be in a hurry to go back and beat him up now? Although I don’t know what happened back then, it’s definitely right to punch him!”


Xue Qing, who was angry, said, “You can forget it. Hold on for a while, I’ll go back first.”


Shen Congxin arrived two days later than Qi Yun. He was so excited and thought he would finally be able to see his elusive cousin-in-law, however, after the house was found, they disappeared.


Shen Congxin followed Qi Yun to stand in the huge manor, dumbfounded, “How rich is my cousin-in-law?”


The old butler standing in front of them politely led them into the hall, saying that the owner was not here but this is the part of the entire manor that was open to the public and can be visited at any time. Apparently the old butler took them as tourists.


Qi Yun was silent and his emotions were unreadable. Shen Congxin asked when their master would come back.


The answer was that their return date was uncertain.


Shen Congxin was very disappointed. He glanced at Qi Yun, but his expression didn’t change. He thought he would be happier after receiving news of Xing Zhongwan, but he didn’t seem so.


Instead, his expression became darker and darker.

Qi Yun looked at the garden full of hydrangeas, which were so cute. Qi Yun stretched out his hand as a gust of breeze passed through his palm. Qi Yun closed his palms gently, but wasn’t able to grasp anything.


Looking back at the magnificent complex, finding his whereabouts was just the tip of the iceberg.


Xue Qing’s words last night still rung in his ears. What was Xing Zhongwan’s identity? He took care of him back then, but how did he treat him?


With a little clue, it turned out to be very smooth to find. Through connecting the dots of Princess Aisha, the royal family, and of ethnic chinese descent, he didn’t expect Xing Zhongwan to have such an identity.


At that time, when he took good care of him, it was just to repay his kindness and he had really already done enough.


Comparing himself to Xing Zhongwan, Qi Yun was a little shaken while in the midst of trying to find him for the first time. Xue Qing was right, he did not have the right to see him.


Shen Congxin looked at Qi Yun who was in a trance. That thin back was very lonely. Qi Yun has power, money and status, but he is not happy. The person who can make him happy cannot be found.


“We don’t have to wait any longer.”


Without answering, Qi Yun stood for a long time, watching the sun set as the cold wind rose.


“Let’s go.” The voice was hoarse with melancholy, which made others feel sad.


Qi Yun’s figure shadow in the afterglow was lonely and cold as he walked out of the manor step by step.


At that time, he couldn’t see nor walk, but it was not difficult as long as he had Wanwan by his side to accompany him.


Now he could see, he was already gone. Wanwan was already gone. Even if he is standing in a high position and has billions of wealth, every passing day felt like years.


If you see me again and will only remember the bad memories, then I will not look for you anymore. Now that I understand, I only want you to be happy and I don’t want you to have any burdens.


I love you, Wanwan. I love you, so I would rather let you go.


In the cemetery of the Xing family… Qi Yun had returned to China for half a month and he decided to go to the cemetery as soon as he was free. A bouquet of hydrangeas was respectfully placed in front of the tombstone and Qi Yun stared at the photo on the tombstone for a long time before the corners of his mouth curled up as he muttered to himself, “Does Wanwan look like you? It’s a pity I have not seen him before.”


Qi Yun laughed at himself. For more than three years, Xing Zhongwan never came back to see his mother once. He was a very filial person, but Qi Yun knew exactly why he did so.


Xing Zhongwan didn’t want to meet him again…


“This is the last time I will visit you.” Qi Yun bowed to the tombstone, straightened up, took a deep look, before turning to leave.


Xing Zhengping, who came after hearing the news, happened to meet him at the entrance of the cemetery. It was a little embarrassing. Qi Yun, who was not of the Xing family, was more diligent than him at visiting the cemetery. However, he couldn’t stop him, he didn’t dare.


Qi Yun glanced at him, “I won’t come again in the future, so you don’t need to hold your guard against me like I’m a thief.”


Xing Zhengping was surprised. Was he finally moving on?


Qi Yun sat in the car, closed his eyes before opening them again. His eyes were a little red. The secretary worriedly asked if he was uncomfortable.


Qi Yun waved his hand and suddenly felt very confused. He also felt the same way when Wanwan left.


What has supported him for so many years was the belief that he will find Xing Zhongwan.


Now that he has decided to let it go, Qi Yun was completely empty, as if he was no longer interested in anything. The Qi Yun three years ago, should have died. All these years of living were just for that person.


Qi Yun suddenly laughed out loud, he was forever alone.


Xing Zhongwan signed the contract as Aisha smiled until there was only a line where her eyes were and happily accepted the contract.


“What’s your relationship with that beautiful oriental man?”


Aisha had time to gossip after the business was over.


As soon as Xing Zhongwan got off the plane, he was called to the company to sign a contract before he could take a break.


“Are you so free now? Take the contract and go.”


Aisha squinted, “He was looking for you. Since you don’t want to say it, I won’t be staying. See you later, Wan~” 


As soon as Aisha left, Xing Zhongwan laid on the sofa like a dead fish. There was a sound of high-heeled shoes before the doors opened to Xue Qing’s darkened face, “You were so willing to come back. You escaped so fast!”


Xing Zhongwan didn’t even bother looking up, “If you’re tired, don’t come here to find me as if you have nothing to do. Go take a good rest.”


Xue Qing tsk-ed and leaned down to look at Xing Zhongwan’s slightly haggard face.


“Qi Yun already knows your identity. He has even been to your house. I thought he would spend some time finding you, but I didn’t expect him to go back so quickly. Don’t pretend to be dead, you escaped so fast. It shows that you still have him in your heart. Or why would someone with your personality avoid him like hell?”


Xing Zhongwan turned around irritably, “It’s not what you think.”


Xue Qing went around the sofa and sat opposite him, “I’m afraid you can’t help it when you see him? That’s right, at that time he already stole your heart, even with his ghostly appearance. If you see him now, I’m afraid…”


Xing Zhongwan got up impatiently, “What’s the matter with you today? You keep mentioning him. I have nothing to do with him now. He is currently famous and it’s not good for him to be obsessed with me. To him, Xing Zhongwan is just a stumbling block on the way forward. Aren’t we both happy now? Qi Yun is smart so he should understand. I have been very clear with him that it is impossible between me and him.”


Xue Qing opened her mouth slightly and took a deep breath into her chest, “You! Ai… It’s rare that you have ever really liked someone, but unfortunately it’s Qi Yun.”


Xue Qing got up and pressed on Xing Zhongwan’s shoulder, “I’ll go first. There’s a regular meeting the day after tomorrow, remember to attend.”


Xing Zhongwan wiped his face, “Thank you, Xue Qing.”


Xue Qing was stunned and tsk-ed, “What is our relationship? You don’t have to say thank you. Laocheng and I only want you to be happy for yourself. Just understand it in your heart.”


“And if you really want to reward me, give me the little fresh meat1Handsome little juniors. under you. How many times have I asked you? But you just won’t give them to me!”


Xing Zhongwan smiled, “For you, it’s time to settle down. Women can’t drag it out.”


Xue Qing opened the door and smiled back, “Teach me how to do it when you marry a wife. I’m leaving.” 


The quiet returned to the office as Xing Zhongwan lay down on the sofa. He lifted up his hand and the scar on his wrist was still very prominent. Xing Zhongwan did not forget the pain of the stitches at that time, nor did Qi Yun forget his kindness to Xing Zhongwan.


It was all good in those fleeting moments. It was good when he trusted and loved before knowing the truth and got his heart torn apart.


Qi Yun, if I didn’t fall for you back then, I wouldn’t blame you so much now. I’ve tried to forgive you, but my heart won’t allow it.


Let the fairy sister live on in my dreams.


T/N: I really hope the readers don’t actually think that Xue Qing, our Wanwan’s best friend, is actually a carnivore or even worse, a cannibal…

I think most of yall understand what I mean when I write that she ‘eats’ guys… uhuhuhuu ¯\_( ͡❛ ͜ʖ ͡❛)_/¯


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