Chapter 9

       Before Xi Feng had time to sort out his complicated feelings for He Yunsheng, he received an invitation from Lu Xiaomei. (Lu Xiaomei was the girl who is in ambiguous relationship with Xi Feng at the beginning of the article, but later dumped him mercilessly)*

       When Xi Feng held the invitation card, he didn’t have much thoughts. At that time, his feelings for Lu Xiaomei had already disappeared. He was at loss, holding the invitation card in his hand for a long time, and then suddenly threw it on the table. He thought about how Lu Xiaomei was giving him a hard time at that time, and now she really has the nerve to send this invitation over!

       However Xi Feng is good at maintaining his image. Now that he has received the invitations, he still intends to attend. And he heard that most people in the company, whether they are close or not with Lu Xiaomei, were given invitations to her marriage. Several colleagues in Xi Feng’s department were not very happy, and they said they wanted to pool resources for Lu Xiaomei’s wedding gift , and Xi Feng also joined in.

       On the wedding day, Xi Feng went with Xu Qing.

       At first, Xi Feng was a little unhappy, and he didn’t understand why he felt this way. He was always not too keen to announce his relationship with Xu Qing in front of the other colleagues. However, the relationship between them was originally semi-public. So long as the colleagues who are close to them already know it, there is nothing to hide.

       Xu Qing noticed Xi Feng was responding vaguely, and asked with a cold face, “Does being in a relationship with me make you feel ashamed?”

       Xi Feng was taken aback when he heard the words, and quickly said, “How can it be? It never crossed my mind.”

       Xu Qing was still angry, picked up the bag and turned around and left, “If you don’t want to disclose it, then let’s break up.”

       Xi Feng grabbed his hair and was suffering for almost half the day. In the end, he bought a bouquet of flowers and took them directly to the company to give them to Xu Qing. At that time, he was surrounded by many colleagues to watch the excitement.

       Xu Qing was in a good mood, and when she took the flowers, she hugged Xi Feng and kissed him.

       Then everyone applauded.

       The scene happened in the corridor of Xu Qing’s office. When Xu Qing kissed Xi Feng, Xi Feng saw He Yunsheng coming out of a nearby office with a sheet in his hand. He was shocked and almost reached out to push Xu Qing away. Fortunately, he was rational enough to stop himself from doing that.

       He Yunsheng looked up at them and saw the large bouquet of roses in Xu Qing’s hand. He passed by them without saying anything.

       As he passed by, Xi Feng saw He Yunsheng’s mouth curled up slightly as if he was smiling, and his own mood collapsed for no reason. He forced himself not to look at He Yunsheng’s back.

       Now that his relationship with Xu Qing was made public, it was logical to go to Lu Xiaomei’s wedding together.

       The wedding was on Saturday. When Xi Feng picked out clothes in the wardrobe the night before, he thought it would be good to let Lu Xiaomei know that he also had a girlfriend, in case the other party still looked down on him.

       But then he thought of He Yunsheng and couldn’t help feeling depressed. By now, Xi Feng has increasingly suspected that there might be a problem with his initial judgment.

       He slowly failed to understand He Yunsheng’s attitude towards him. Did he misunderstand him at the beginning, or after experiencing so many things, He Yunsheng’s original feelings have been wiped clean?

       At the same time, in addition to feeling something terrible inside his heart, he always felt that he cares too much about He Yunsheng, which is not normal, but because of some reasons he didn’t dare to delve in further for he was always afraid that he will also fall into an irreversible abyss.

       On the day of Lu Xiaomei’s wedding, Xi Feng went to the wedding banquet restaurant with Xu Qing.

       Many of the guests who came one after another were colleagues from one of their companies. A male colleague greeted Xi Feng to sit with him, but Xu Qing took him by the arm and said, “No drinking!” Then she had to make Xi Feng sit with her at the table of female colleagues.

       Xi Feng felt a little distressed, but he didn’t want to argue with Xu Qing in public, so he sat at the table she wanted. As a result, as soon as they sat down, the company’s female colleagues made jokes on them and asked them if something good was about to come. Xi Feng felt even more uncomfortable.

       He sat for less than five minutes, and the wedding hadn’t started yet, and suddenly heard a familiar hoarse voice behind him.

       Xi Feng couldn’t help but immediately turned his head to look, and saw He Yunsheng standing not far from their table, talking to a colleague.

       They didn’t talk much, He Yunsheng nodded and said goodbye. He turned around to look inside, probably looking for a seat.

       Xi Feng saw that there was still a place next to him, and subconsciously wanted to call He Yunsheng, but He Yunsheng walked inside without looking back, and finally sat down beside his young colleague in the Finance Department.

       “Hey!” Xu Qing suddenly bumped his arm.

       Xi Feng suddenly came back to his senses, “What?”

       Xu Qing said, “Why are you so absent-minded when I’m talking to you?”

       Xi Feng shook his head, “Nothing.”

       He was really distracted, and he doesn’t need Xu Qing to remind him. He knows it in his heart.

       After a short time, the wedding officially began.

       Lu Xiaomei is very beautiful, and she has a better figure and more delicate facial features than Xu Qing. Today she wore a wedding dress with a shining brilliance, and the flowers she held in her hands were all pale in comparison.

       Xi Feng’s cell phone rang, he clicked to open it and saw that it was a WeChat sent by a colleague, asking him if he felt sorry seeing Lu Xiaomei.

       At that time, he was pursuing Lu Xiaomei, and many of his colleagues in the company knew about it. Although he failed at the end, Xi Feng no longer felt it was unbearable when he heard someone joked about it.

       Seeing this WeChat today, Xi Feng found himself not feeling anything. Not even feeling regretful or unwilling, Lu Xiaomei has completely become a passer-by in his life.

       After hesitating on how to reply, Xi Feng suddenly found that He Yunsheng stood up from his seat with his mobile phone and was walking out from the middle of the table.

       He Yunsheng’s brow was slightly frowned, and the phone in his hand was still on, as if he was on a call.

       Even though he knew that his behavior was a little abnormal, Xi Feng couldn’t help standing up and trying to follow.

       Xu Qing grabbed his arm and asked, “Where to go?”

       Xi Feng said, “I want to go to the bathroom.”

       Xu Qing whispered, “Why are you going to the bathroom just after sitting down?”

       Xi Feng did not answer her, and continued to walk outside.

       He Yunsheng was walking faster than Xi Feng. Outside the banquet hall was a long corridor, and he walked straight to the end of the corridor. He Yunsheng stood in front of a window to answer the phone.

       Xi Feng came out and walked slowly in his direction. The carpet on the and the faint music in the banquet hall completely covered his footsteps.

       He Yunsheng answered the phone with a cold tone, “What are you still calling for?”

       Xi Feng did not dare to get too close, he could hear what He Yun was saying, but he could not catch the voice on the other side of the phone at all.

       He Yunsheng was silent for a while, and he continued: “It has nothing to do with me, that was your own choice.”


       “You are an adult, Xu Fengjie. Be a bit responsible.”


       “I don’t know where you heard that, but I’m doing fine and don’t need you to worry about it.”

       After that was a long silence, He Yunsheng should be listening to the person on the other side of the phone.

       Xi Feng waited anxiously.

       Then He Yunsheng said, “I’ll come over now.”

       After saying that he was about to hang up the phone, Xi Feng stepped forward and grabbed his arm, saying, “Don’t go!”

       He Yunsheng looked at him in surprise, “Were you eavesdropping on my phone call?”

       Xi Feng said, “I’m sorry I didn’t mean it, but you’d better not go.”

       He Yunsheng raised his hand and waved him away, “It has nothing to do with you, right?” Then he tried to pass by Xi Feng and leave.

       But Xi Feng grabbed his wrist again and said earnestly, “Listen to me, you’re giving him unrealistic hopes by going over there like this, you really shouldn’t go.”

       He Yunsheng looked like he was going to be mad, but there were guests that came late, people who came out of the banquet hall to make a call and go to the bathroom in the corridor from time to time, so he suppressed his emotions and said to Xi Feng in a low voice, “His mother is crying and begging me. Now, I just want to talk to him face to face and tell him to cherish his life and stop pestering someone who doesn’t love him.”

       Xi Feng said, “But he will think you still care about him.”

       He Yunsheng looked at Xi Feng, “I really didn’t care about him. But after all, we have been together for so many years, and just because I didn’t want to go back to him doesn’t mean I wanted him dead.”

       Xi Feng didn’t know how to refute He Yunsheng’s words. He just grabbed a handful of his hair irritably and said, “You’re just too kind.”

       Hearing this, He Yunsheng laughed self-deprecatingly for some unknown reason.

       Xi Feng’s heart was in a mess. He felt that he might not be able to stop He Yunsheng from meeting his ex-boyfriend, so he said, “I’ll accompany you.”

       He Yunsheng was slightly taken aback when he heard the words, “There’s no need for you to do so.”

       Xi Feng said, “I’m serious. I can pretend to be your boyfriend to make him give up, right?”

       He Yunsheng stared at Xi Feng’s collar in a daze. In fact, he had considered it before, thinking that he could just find someone to pretend to be his lover and talk to Xu Fengjie clearly. But he hasn’t been able to find a suitable person.

       Although he knows some people in this circle, most of the people he knows, Xu Fengjie, also know. Among them, there are others that are interesting to him but he is not willing to accept. If it is outside the circle, even though his sexuality is not a secret, he couldn’t be so brazen to find someone to pretend to be his lover.

       Thinking about it, Xi Feng is still a good choice.

       First of all, Xi Feng knew about the mess between him and Xu Fengjie. Second, Xi Feng was a straight man and had a girlfriend. After helping him to perform the act, it would really be over. There would be no other thoughts.

       It’s just that He Yunsheng still feels lingering fear for Xi Feng, and can’t help saying: “I hope you know what you’re doing. I don’t have any extra thoughts about you. Acting is just acting.” If Xi Feng wants to grab ahold of his affairs and talk about it everywhere, there’s nothing he can do.

       Xi Feng heard him, but felt a little sad for no reason. He held his wrist and said, “I know, I’m sorry, I just want to help you.”

       He Yunsheng glanced at the time when he heard the words, “I’m going over there now. What do you need to do on the wedding side?”

       Xi Feng said quickly, “You go down first, wait two minutes for me, and I will come down immediately after telling…”

       He Yunsheng hesitated a little, and finally nodded in response, “I’m really sorry to trouble you.”

       Xi Feng smiled, “It doesn’t matter. We’re friends after all.”

       He Yunsheng then also smiled, with a touch of mockery.

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1 Comment

  1. irsh

    after seeing his behaviour in the past it did make me pissed as hell but not to the point of hate. I don’t think xi Feng is a bad person, juts very conceited, and shameless. and have no idea what he wants and in denial. but I do feel very embarrassed seeing him acting like he’s friends with Yunsheng all of a sudden when he never actually apologised.


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